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2001

~2001~

I didn't write anything for Max's 3rd Birthday. I found this poem, and thought it said everything that I feel. I do not know who wrote it, but the words are pretty amazing...

To My Baby
I took for granted you would be around
and smile at me each day.
I never thought the time would come
that you would go away.

And now I sit here missing you
with the need to hold you tight.
To kiss your cheek and sing to you
as I tuck you in each night.

I hurt for times we'll never have
the life we'll never share.
All the firsts that I will miss
has broke my heart beyond repair.

I'm trying to take solice
in the fact, you're by God's side.
But with each and every breathe I take
I feel like I have died.


I took the girls to Chicago April 20th-22nd, 2001, for the SIDS National Conference.
Navy Pier, on Lake Michigan.


Nicole wanted this picture put on because she says she "looks good" in it...lol...
Us...Hard Rock Cafe, Chicago.
I loved Chicago. I can't wait to go back.

Click on the Chicago Sign to see pictures from our Chicago Trip.



Leonae's Senior Prom, May 12th, 2001.

Click on the Prom Logo to see the Prom 2001 page I made for Leonae.


~May ~ 2001~

My Dear, Sweet, Friend, Lydia made this graphic for me, and I loved it so much I wanted to share it on Max's Website. Thank you so much Lydia!






Well, I wish I could say everything is different, and better now...But it isn't. It is pretty much the same as 3 years ago. I don't cry everday anymore. But my heart is still broken into a million pieces. I miss Max more than ever. Life is pretty much life...I have so much that I am grateful for...those 3 beautiful girls are more precious than words can express. I am Blessed in many ways, and I want all to know it. Don't think for one second that I don't. Today I was not able to go to church like I usually do on Max's Angelday. I had to work in the morning. I got off at 1:00 pm, and went to the cemetery. I got this big fish wind thing to put up. I imagine Max and Papa being huge "fishin buddies". I sat on the bench by his grave, and reflected on my life, and how different everything would be if Max were here. I would not be sitting in a cemetery for one thing...

I then ran down to St. John's School where Nick and Jess attend. Nicole's DARE Graduation was at 2:00 pm, and I was a bit late. The little ceremony was nice. My parents and Leonae were also there. After the ceremony Nicole ran up to me and said..."Mom, you should have been in church this morning...A bird was in church". It was all I could do not to burst into tears right then and there. I could not believe it. All I thought was...Thank you Max, I love you!...Then I was so sad that I was not at church to see it. But Life Happens, and the world does keep turning, the sun comes up every morning and sets every evening. I look around and want to scream sometimes. But what good would that do? Most just don't understand, and Hopefully never will. Leonae is about to Graduate from High School...and off to college in the fall. I am grateful! Nicole and Jessica are happy well adjusted young ladies. I am grateful! School is almost out, and I have the summer off.
I am so GRATEFUL! A bird was in my church on Max's Angelday, the same church where the bird was during his funeral. Reminding me that my son is with our Lord Jesus, and with me.


I AM GRATEFUL!!!



Nicole, Leonae, and Jessica after Baccalaureate.
Sunday, May 20th, 2001.


~Leonae - Graduation, May 22nd, 2001~




~Early September, 2001~




Our Christmas Picture for this year.
~Christmas 2001~
Taken Thanksgiving, November 22nd, 2001


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