DOORMAT

Love him and lose him
that's what I say
stay and he'll go away

When he leaves he'll
stomp your heart
so use your head, be smart

Be the first to step
through that door
leave him with the
heart that is truly sore

Make him see what he
couldn't keep, be
sure there's no way he'll sleep

If you ever cared
don't let him know
just turn your back and go

If he cries close your eyes
be strong he won't cry for long

Miss him and want to kiss him
there's nothing wrong with that
but don't ever again be that mans
doormat

SEARCH

In search of a memory
In search of a dream
A time living and being
Trading love, trading life
A trade not a sacrafice
A friend of the heart
A friend of the soul
Two friends play the role
The time is now
The time is right
Searching for the past
The search will never last
Sincere and true my love for you
Long lonely search is through

STORM

The sky ripping apart
Reminds me of my heart
The rain on the window pane
Is the blood that drives me insane
This scream in my empty head
Is the thunder of the dead
I want to stand in the water falling down
To wash away my fears, to drown
To lose myself in a storm
Why can't I be somewhere warm
The wind that blows is a freezing wind
It reminds me I've never had a friend
When will the drops die
They mock the tears I cry
I'll just lay here in this empty room
And hold on to my gloom
Maybe someday when it's through
Life can start anew

UNTITLED

I see you in my mind and wish you were here
I think of you and dream of you
Because my heart holds you dear
Without you, not having you I sink into sadness
If I can't have you
If I can't be with you
I live with madness
Tell me how to be
How to see something other than you
Tell me how to live
How to give
How to start fresh and new
It's not possible
It'll never happen that way
Because I love you
I love you each and every day

ODE TO PAUL

Paul is a dream
Paul is so keen
Paul is the light that makes everything right
When you are down just turn around
And he'll be there
Beautiful hair, how could you not stare
Paul is a doll
Paul has it all
Paul can tell you he's hot
He knows what he's got
Look but don't touch
He'll thank you so very much
Paul is so sweet
Paul has sexy shoes on his feet
Paul will always tell you "HI"
He's that kind of guy
When you wish upon a star
You'll wish to be in Paul's car
But please get a grip
Try not to trip
Paul's just totally hip

I wrote this poem for one of my best friends (obviously his name is Paul).
It's sort of a joke. It took me 10 min. to write at work one day,
but don't you know it ended up being one of my favorite poems. I love you Pauly.

A PLACE

Happiness comes from within
It's not meant for all men
Days are long and nights are longer
Love is blind and blindness is hunger
Tell me why you don't love
Tell me why God has struck you from above
Someone is here, someone is near
There is nothing to fear
Trust in silence it will calm the pain
Join in this world
Relax your brain
I can not see, I only be
Today is now
Tomorrow is when
Yesterday is then
Play the part
Save the heart
Love not and live for now
I wish I could show you how
I am gone, I stay here too long
We will get out of this hell
We will find a new place to dwell
Happiness is lost for now
Someday Someone will come and show us how
Take my hand
I'll find the land
I search everyday
I search every way
It will be mine
It only takes time

This poem was inspired by a very interesting message
I once saw on a homepage. I don't know
why, but this is what came to mind after reading it.

MAN OF MY DREAMS

He walked into my life like a dream
The man for me or so it would seem
Could it be any more clear
I hold him so dear
He is the man I want to be with forever
But for him I think it could be never
I will take him any way he wants to be
But does he feel the same for me
So beautiful and sweet
This man knocked me off my feet
Have I ever felt this way
I'd have to say "NO"
God I pray he won't go
Can I say these things I feel
It's such a big deal
Would he run from me tonight
I pray he'd tell me everything will be alright
Could he love me
Is this the night
When I look at his face
My heart has a tendency to race
Will I ever have the nerve to tell
Or am I doomed to live in this eternal hell

NEW

When you touch someone for the first time
It sends a thrill, it sends a chill
A feeling you want to last forever
When it's right
When you know that someone is 'your someone'
Then that feeling of electricity
That feeling of love does stay with you
Over time, over distance
You feel that love inside of you
You know that person is there
And every day, every time is the first time
No matter how long you've been together
Or how old you've both grown
The love is always new
The love is always exciting
It makes your heart race and your palms sweat
Your stomach flutters and your pulse quickens
From just a touch
From just a look or even a word
Those three little words 'I love you'
They may be small, but their meaning is great
The feeling inside of you when you love someone
Is a feeling nothing can compare to
No amount of money,
No number of belongings, no drug
Can duplicate the affect those words have
On your heart and your soul
I tell you "I love you" each and every day
From the first time to the last
My heart belongs to you
And this love of ours will always be new

CRUEL

Does it feel good
To crush my heart between your fingers
To watch the pieces fall to the ground
Did you get a thrill
When you stepped on them
And kicked them out of your way
Tell me was it fun to hurt me
Did you laugh when you saw me cry
Let me ask you
Did your heart race
When you watched me die