TITLE: His Secret Love AUTHOR: Skye Kelly RATING: PG 13 for a little bit of bad language CATEGORY: Doggett/ Marita Romance, Angst, Mostly Dialogue I love dialogue fic. Doggett Friendly don't think just because he's with Marita he's a bad guy, okay. SUMMARY: Why did Doggett really get involved in all this? SPOILERS: TINH and a blink and you'll miss it one for Two Fathers/One Son. DISCLAIMER: These characters belong to Chris Carter, 1013, and Fox Television. FEEDBACK: This is my first. Please let me know how I did at skyekel1975@yahoo.com ARCHIVE: Heck, if you want it you can have it, just tell me where it went. AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is my first fan-fic I had this idea to give Doggett a past and have him involved with someone because, let's face it he's kinda boring. And if Chris Carter won't make him interesting, I will. I hope I succeeded. Please let me know what you thought. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx His Secret Love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Marita Covarrubias opened the door to her apartment threw her keys and purse on the table, and hung up her coat. She glanced to the couch and noticed someone standing beside it and, she moved to her purse to retrieve the small gun she carried. "I haven't heard from you in a while and, I got worried so, I thought I'd come over to see if you were alright. I miss you, Marita." "God, John, you scared me. You should have called and told me you were coming over. I could have killed you or, something and, that would have killed ME." "I tried and, I got no answer so, I decided to come see you in person. I need some answers about this whole mess you got me involved in and, above all else I just wanted to make sure that the woman I love was still breathing." "John, you knew what you were getting into when we became lovers. I didn't hide anything from you." "Sometimes, I wonder if I'd be better off if I hadn't agreed to help you when Jeffery Spender first brought you to my door two years ago. "Please, tell me you really don't feel that way." Marita said as she moved to stand in front of him. "Damn it, Marita, I don't know anything anymore. Spender said he knew I would help you because I was one of the good guys ...but, I don't feel like one anymore. I feel like the worst kind of bastard." "You, John Doggett are not even close to being a bastard you don't have it in you. She said as she reached up to caress his face and, looking into his eyes. "You are the most caring and generous man I've ever been with, you took me in when I was sick, weak, and had nowhere else to go. You took care of me and, I was a complete stranger to you then. All because a friend asked you to." "He's dead, Marita. Mulder, is dead you said we were going to get him back, healthy. You said you had things worked out with THEM." He said shrugging her hand from his face and, turning his back toward her. "The only reason I was helping you with my FBI resources was because you said you could get him returned safely. I keep thinking that maybe, you lied to about that maybe, you even lied to me about it being an accident him being taken in the first place." "John, turn around look at me." Doggett slowly turned around but, kept his head down as he did so. "I want you to look in my eyes because, I want you to know I'm telling you the truth when I say this." "What?" He said as he looked up and, into her eyes. "You have to believe me, it was an accident, at least on my part it was. I was naive to even think for a second, that Mulder being taken wasn't the plan all along but, I did.... And, ...I tried to fix it.I thought I had everything arranged, with you working on the search and, me making deals with my contacts to have him returned safely. I really thought it would happen." "Well, it didn't happen, he's dead, Marita. I saw him with my own two eyes! GOD!.... You didn't see her...Scully's reaction, she was hysterical. I wanted to take away her pain, if I could've traded places with Mulder at that moment I would have I would have done anything to bring him back to her but, all I could do was stand there. I tried to keep her away from him but, she fought me. She witnessed my greatest failure and, she didn't even know it. I wanted to tell her about the things I knew and, then I realized that I really didn't know anything and, neither did you maybe, all we did was make it worse." "I refuse to think that. I know they were going to bring him back in stable condition. It had to have been Alex Krycek he, must have found out about my plans and stopped them somehow, I've got to find him I need answers." Marita turned to go get her coat. Doggett grabbed her by the elbow and, turned her around to face him once again. "NO" "John, I have to do this. I need to find that Son of a Bitch!" "No, I can't let you do that. If what you say is true....and, he has indeed found out about your plan, your life is in danger. I will not lose you like that, you hear me, I can't... not after what I saw in Montana, ...not ever. With that Marita collapsed into Doggett's arms they stayed wrapped in each other's arms for a long time before either of them spoke again. "I hate this, John, for once in my life I tried to do something good and, and it fucking backfired on me. Maybe, I should just go to Agent Scully and explain what I know, right now." "I don't think that's such a good idea." Doggett said as he took her chin in between his fingers and, lifted her face up so, he could see her face. "I'm sure as far as she's concerned you may as well have killed Mulder, yourself. And, she's in pain right now just wait awhile and, we will explain this to her together, okay?" "Okay" she said as she laid her head back against his chest. "Now, that we have that settled, let's go to bed. You look tired I know I am." They walked to the bedroom with their fears intact but, they knew that at least they would wake up in the morning with the person they loved by their side. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx IF YOU'RE STILL HERE, COOL, BUT I'M DONE NOW xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Well, what did you think. Please, let me know.
