At AJ's house the next day, Madison was sitting outside, her ankle propped up in a chair, and watched everyone in envy. Complete and utter envy. Jamie was now back in the picture and Kevin seemed happier than ever. AJ and Amanda were inseperable, as was always the case. Brian and LeighAnne were off in their own little world, they were disgustingly cute. Howie and Marie were holding hands by the pool, looking at each other lovingly. Nick and his 'friend', as he had called her, Heather, were sitting off by themselves. And Madison wanted to shoot them all.
She sighed and closed her eyes behind her darkened sunglasses. She felt so out of place at this party AJ had thrown together. Not one other single person was there besides her. 'Makes me feel like I'm back in high school.,' She thought irratibly.
"Hey Madison, you awake?," Came AJ's voice teasingly.
She glanced up at him over her sunglasses and couldn't help but smile, least he was trying to make her feel comfortable. "Yeah..I'm awake but just barely."
He grinned, "Well, Amanda and LeighAnne have requested your presence in the kitchen, so me being the gentleman I am, offered to come help you inside."
Madison smiled and pushed herself up. She was getting better at the whole walking on one leg thing, she would be glad though when she could walk normally.
AJ helped her into the kitchen and then stood there, like he was going to be told some big secret. Amanda waved him away, "We told you to get Madison, not stand and listen to our convo. So go back out with the guys."
"Oohhhh..do I have to?," He whined.
"Yes.," All three answered and then laughed.
AJ smiled and left the three women alone. "So how are you Madison?," LeighAnne asked handing her a coke.
"I'm okay..tired, but okay."
"Thats good..when do you get that thing off?"
"Next week sometime."
"Ohh..that'll be good.," Amanda said.
Madison nodded and slid her sunglasses up on top of her head. "Yeah..I'll finally be out of Kevin's hair.."
"So him and Jamie can be allooone.," Amanda said raising her eyebrows.
LeighAnne and Madison laughed. "When did he get back with her anyways? I was surprised when she showed up.," LeighAnne said.
Madison shrugged, "I don't know..Kevin told me last night that AJ was having a little party and wanted me to come so I said okay. He said nothing to me about Jamie."
"Thats weird.."
"Why is it weird Amanda?"
"Because..they ended it on a baaad note. I just thought Kevin was over her and maybe wanted to get with Madison here."
"HUH?! I don't think so Amanda!"
Amanda laughed, "Don't get all defensive Madi. I've seen the way he looks at you."
"He looks at me like he does every other person. He looks at me as a friend and a manager, nothing else."
"Suuure."
"What?! Its true!"
"Madison? Can you get upstairs on your own?," Kevin asked later that night as him, Jamie, and Madison came home.
She noticed the look Jamie shot her and nodded at Kevin. "Yeah..I'll be fine."
"Okay..'Night."
"'Night Kevin. 'Night Jamie."
"Goodnight Madison.," Jamie said smiling, fakely.
Madison got up the stairs and into her room after a few tries and mumbled curses. Reese came running in after her and plopped down on her bed. She laughed and pulled her journal out from under her pillow and sat back to write a new entry.
Feb. 10, 2000
Never once in my life did I think being a manager for BSB would cause personal problems. And its not even a problem!! The fact of the matter is that I do believe I may have a crush on one, Kevin Richardson. Absurd, huh?
I thought so too. I mean, he's a nice guy, funny, everything I could EVER want in a guy. Problem? He's taken by a complete bitch annnd, it'd be an employer/employee relationship. I'm not too sure The Firm would look to kindly upon that. Ever since the accident, things have been different. He's much more attentive, or something like that. Lord, why can't ALLLL guys be like that?
I just wish things were different somehow. Right before the accident, I remember Nick telling me what Manda had been doing to him, how she had called him stupid and fat and all those other harsh words that could really hurt someone's feelings. Sometimes I see so much of myself in Nick, its scary. I put on a front for people and no one sees the real me. And just when I thought Kevin may be the person to 'open up' too; his ex comes back into the picture. Sometimes I wish I was a supermodel, then everyone would have to pay attention to me. Corny, huh? Thought so. Anyways, the big 10 yr. reuniun is soon..am I going? No way in hell..unless it freezes over, that is.
So many people made fun of me back in high school that I don't know if I could deal with them. I wish..I could show them all up. Make them regret ever touching me. But nooo..that won't happen. No way, no how. I guess I'll decide this week if I'm going. More later.
Madison
Madison put down her pencil and set it, along with her journal, on the endtable beside her bed. Then, she grabbed her crutches and went to go to the bathroom.
Reese whined desperately as a figure walked into the room, and took Madison's journal off the endtable and left the room.
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