An Extra Special Thanks
Top Ten Reasons I Adore The Boys!!
10) They can put a smile on my face at almost any time, doesn't matter if my mood is good or bad.
9)They've helped me get thru some pretty tough times and they don't even know it.
8)Their music is truly amazing!
7) They don't ever try to be something they're not.
6) Damn, those guys can sing like nobody's business!
5) Nick and Kevin...need I say more?
4) AJ is funky and totally phat...he's freaky, but he's totally cool!
3) "Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely" has got to be one the the best songs recorded, ever, by anyone!
2) This summer wasn't the summer I had hoped it would be, but somehow whenever I put their music on, no matter how sad I was, they lifted my spirits. Not a lot of other people can do that for me.
1) I've made some pretty incredible friendships because of them. If it wasn't for them, Dick and Spack would never exist...
Now, before you go saying..."Oh great, here comes another teenybopper with her top ten list as to why she loves the BSB" lemme explain. This summer was supposed to be the summer that all BSB fans were waiting for! The new album was coming out, the tour would be announced and the simple fact that new music was coming out is reason enough to twist and shout...well, it was all that, but it wasn't quite the summer I had hoped it would be. Read on to find out more, and why I adore these guys as much as I do.
May 18th...the day we ALL waited for, am I right??? The day we would all have "Millennium" in our hands and nothing could be wrong with the world...correct? Well, two days before our fateful day, I got some terrible news. I had just heard that a guy I had a huge crush on in high school and had basically known for a very long time had been killed in a car accident. I was crushed...there was no way about it. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I couldn't even think. Suddenly, "Millennium" didn't matter as much, and it was so scary. Death is not something I have dealt very much with, but this was way too much reality for me. So, on the 17th of May, I didn't know what to do, but I kept looking forward to the next day...I was still gonna get my cd. For some reason, I felt I NEEDED that cd with me. I had been looking forward to it since like...February or whenver they announced it, so I needed it with me. I never thought Monday, May 17th would end...
"Beep! Beep! Beep!" That was my alarm clock waking me up on May 18th, at about 8:00. Okay, the record store didn't open up for another two hours, but I needed some quality chat time with my buds, Tan and Maz...Tan had already gotten her "Millennium"...so I needed to hear if it was good...as if I had any doubt. Yes, I still had the death weighing heavily on my mind, but I didn't want to think heavily on cuz it only tore me up inside. So, I chat with them and then it was time...I would finally have my cd! So, I went and got it...just the thought of having it in my hand's was reason enough for me to twist and shout about, but I NEEDED to hear it. Something in me was telling me that was exactly what I needed! So, I raced home and slapped that puppy into my cd player in the living room..."Larger Than Life" started...AJ's little laugh...OHMYGOODNESS! A smile was on my face, even though inside I was still hurting, the Boys made me smile. I listened to the whole cd without moving very much from my one specific spot on my couch...and I felt at peace for the first time in two days. I know two days doesn't sound like a lot, but I really felt like I was being ripped to shreds on the inside, so any peace was welcome. Yes, the "I'm so sorry's" helped, but being able to sing along with my favorite group made me feel a lot better.
"Life goes on as it never ends, eyes of stone observe the trend, they never say forever gaze..." I never understood what those words meant when I had first heard them on the internet a few weeks earlier. Never has a song hit closer to home than "Show Me The Meaning". Kevin summed it all up for me. Life did go on as it never ended for some people, and others who did not care didn't seem to stop at all. I know this may be cheesy and corny, but it truly did help. Listening to "Show Me The Meaning" I found myself being able to grieve. Everytime that song comes on now, I get teary eyed. It's a beautifully emotional song, and to be allowed the chance to understand this song on a different level than other people is something I would really like to thank the BSB for. It is one of the many reasons I love these guys. Even though I was grieving for the person who had passed, I couldn't just sit around for hours at a time and think about him. I needed a diversion and that is exactly what Nick, Kev, Brian, AJ and Howie were. My problem never faded away, but for a little while, there was a genuine smile on my face. I was allowed to be the innocent and bubbly girl I was before I found out about my friend's death, and for that little while, I felt free. You may think this is corny, but you are NOT in my position. I was and am still devestated by this tragedy. There are many people who have helped me get thru this grief and yes, the Boys are one of them. I'll never be able to relay to them how I felt that day I got my cd, and how grateful I am that in some way they were there. Not in body, but in spirit...singing, doing what they do best, and making me smile. Truly, that's all I expected from them...and they did not falter. So, for that reason, I will always be grateful for the BSB.
And, On A Lighter Note...
I love the guys for more reasons than that though! They are truly talented individuals who deserve all the love and respect that they are ever given! However, I think my biggest reason why I love them as much as I do is because of the friendships I have created and maintained over the last two years. I used to go to this really great chatroom when I first started liking the BSB, and I met some amazing people there. We would all get giddy over the BSB and talk about which one was our favorite and whatnot. Pretty much what I'm sure a lot of people still do. During the course of these chats you start getting close to certain people in the room, yes? So, I developed these friendships...they were with Liz Carter (no, not related to Nick...), KL, and Meg. These girls were so damn cool! KL and I got especially close and we started talking about more than just the BSB. Who would have thought that liking the Backstreet Boys would lead to a friendship that was on a different level, not just a BSB one. It was very cool. So, I kept chatting at the chatroom and I met two other really cool girls there. Escapade and KvL...they were fairly cool. I didn't start really talking to them for a while though...they were friends and were always talking about socks and stuff...I didn't understand..however, they always made me laugh. Well, as time went on...I started getting to know them...Escapade especially. She was really nice and I thought she was hilarious. I also got to know KvL pretty well, and one day, we were all chatting, and we started having a conversation about what we would do if the BSB ever got married. We are all mature, but we were saying how some people would go off the deep end and do something drastic...we came up with a whole plan that I'm not going to tell you about but had me rolling in the aisles...even when I think about it today, still has me laughing. We also came up with Dick and Spack that day...and that will forever be one of my most favorite days! Well, I stared chatting a lot more to Escapade and KvL and we eventually started emailing each other all the time and even exchanging BSB footage tapes. I sent all the American stuff, KvL sent all the Canadian stuff. Very cool. Eventually, KvL became Tanya and Escapade became Maz.
I'm still friends with all of the people I have mentioned above. If you've seen this page, and you've read the thank you's you've seen their names in them. And I've made reference to Tan and Maz many times on this page. I'm incredibly close with them, and I'm extremely close to KL, Liz Carter and Meg...I talk to them quite a bit actually. I never thought that being a fan of a music group could eventually lead to extremely memorable times and friendships that otherwise might never have existed. I wish I could tell the Backstreet Boys how incredibly lucky I am to have Maz, Tan, Choua, Liz and Meggie in my life and it's all because of them. So, I guess I'm taking my oppurtunity to do that now. They won't read this, but hey, it's worth a shot.
This summer still had some amazingly memorable moments. I've had many a convo with Tan and Maz, and Meggie...that girl cracks me up. They are all important to me. The BSB gave me something to smile about when I wasn't sure I wanted to smile. The BSB gave me another reason to understand that not everything in life is bad. You will always get thru it, and you gotta "Roll With It"(I know...bad!). It's funny, the phrase "Flex That Sex" or the title of "Velveeta Queen" will always be synonymous with the BSB...and it's because of my friends. I don't know if they know, but they helped me so damn much this summer. Late night convos, late night laughs...whatever it was. If it wasn't for those 5 guys from Orlando, who the hell knows what would have happened to this summer...damn, I don't even wanna think about that! So, I'm so very thankful for the Backstreet Boys. Maybe now people may understand why it is that I adore them as much as I do. And, if you don't understand...hey, I did my best.
"Everytime we're down, you can make it right, and that makes you larger than life..."
BSB...you may have written that about us, the fans, but you have no idea what you've done for us...and so I'm thanking you.
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