Site hosted by Angelfire.com: Build your free website today!
Chapter 8: Standing in the Shadows Wondering what I'm Doing Here
____________________________________________
Taylor opened his eyes, finding himself face down on his hotel bed. Groggily he looked around, no Isaac, no Zac.
"Good" he muttered and buried his head further into the pillow in attempts to go back to sleep. When he'd finally accomplished so much as a doze he felt a pillow hit the back of his head, hard.
"Wake Up!" From the squeaky tone of it he knew it was none other than baby brother Zac.
"Shut up" , Taylor muffled out, grabbing the pillow and attempting to throw it back at him. When he missed he only got frustrated.
"What time is it?" he wearily asked, sitting up.
"1:25" Zac glanced at the clock. Taylor pushed the hair from his face and blinked until the bright red numbers came into plain sight. He groaned and curled back up on the bed, pulling the pillow under his head.
"Come on, mom said this is your last chance to get up before she comes in here" Zac shook him by the shoulders, "And you know you don't want to mess with that woman, she's had it up to here with disobedient children" He held his hand up to his forehead for emphasis. Taylor sat up and looked around for a few moments.
"So get up, we have to be at Radio City at four today." Zac left and closed the door behind him. Taylor sat there, still and emotionless, before standing to face yet another day.

Zac stepped out from behind the curtain for the 4th time. He was decked out in red camo this time.
"OK, I like this one", he began towards the door.
"Wait a minute! -- You can't wear camouflage to the Grammies, you know that!" Isaac filled him in.
"Why Not!?" Zac whined, putting his hands on his hips and tapping his foot on the ground.
"Zac you aren't that stupid are you? This is a formal occasion. Now you go back in there and pick out something suitable!" he pushed him back into the changing area. They could hear Zac mumbling an throwing things about. He emerged again wearing a black shirt and dark denim jeans.
"I guess this is OK"
"Zac!" Isaac shouted. Taylor took over, "That was the first thing you had on!" Zac examined his ensemble, surely enough it seemed familiar.
"It is? I guess it is." he giggled, "Oh well, let's go!" Isaac and Taylor followed him out the door. As soon as they were out they were swallowed by the masses. It was right before they were scheduled to go on. Rehearsal had been over for hours. If you could even call it a rehearsal. They played all of two minutes and then the next act was quickly shuffled in behind them. The three of them walked in a line trying to stay together as they fought the hysteria. Isaac lagged behind. Getting aggressive, he began shoving his way through to keep pace.
"Watch it!", came an angry female voice. Isaac looked around, he saw an (in his opinion) attractive girl who looked to be about his age, with flaming red hair lying on the ground. He offered his hand to her.
"I'm so sorry. I'm in a hurry, I didn't see you."
"Everyone's in a hurry around here! This is the third time I've been knocked down, I'm not a freaking punching bag!" She pulled herself to her feet and looked at Isaac rather disgustedly.
"I really am sorry. You're right, I should have watched were I was going." A small smile formed on her face, maybe just common courtesy, who knows.
"No, don't worry about it, I'm just a little frustrated with this whole thing." Isaac smiled.
"So do you have a name?" he tried turning on the charm. She looked a tad surprised.
"Uhh yeah, Maggie"
"Maggie? That's cute. It's --"
"ISAAC!" Taylor stomped towards him shouting, "We have to be out there in two minutes so stop flirting and move it!" with that he stormed off. Isaac blushed slightly.
"I guess I should go, nice meeting you though." he extended his hand.
"Bye" she hurriedly shook it and turned in the opposite direction. Isaac turned towards the main stage until he heard his name shouted. He turned sharply.
"It was nice meeting you too" Maggie stood smiling. Isaac beamed. He nodded and turned before he lost all integrity by smiling like a giddy 4 year old.

Once the curtains came together Taylor sighed in relief. The cameras now made him extremely nervous, but come to think of it, a lot of things made him nervous now. He pulled the keyboard out of the jack and started off towards backstage. Once behind the curtain, cameras began flashing and the questions began flowing. Reporters immediately encircled them and followed until they were securely locked inside the dressing room. Zac stood with his back against the door, breathing heavily.
"God, sometimes I really wonder why we do this." he breathed as he walked to the other side of the small room.
"I know, why do we?" Taylor questioned, Zac shrugged his shoulders. Isaac groaned and slumped down in his chair.
"Don't we seem to be having fun?"
"Actually we aren't Isaac, no need for attitude" Taylor opened a can of coke.
"Well that's an irrelevant statement. They don't care, we have to have fun! So put on a smile and go!" Isaac stood and started towards the door.
"Isaac, always the voice of reason in our small world." Taylor mocked while being hurried out the back door.

"What's this?" Taylor looked suspiciously at the small white paper that had been placed in his hand.
"Just put it under your tongue." an unfamiliar man said to him. Taylor laughed uncomfortably.
"No, really, what is it?" he shifted in his seat.
"It isn't any fun if I tell you, just suck it up and do it" Not wanting to look stupid, Taylor took a deep breath and did as he said. The paper dissolved quickly with a powdery taste. Having no immediate effect he assumed it was a cruel trick and left hastily. Walking out into the post-Grammies party he absorbed the bright multicolored lighting and loud music. He then pushed his way into the crowd in search of Isaac and Zac. Then it hit him. So suddenly it seemed unfair. The crowd was bearing down on him, locking him into his spot. They shoved his body in every direction. The lights turned a blinding degree of brightness, and the music was deafening. The walls shifted and blurred, they then began melting. First the top peeled away, then the bottom followed suit. Once the walls were destroyed nothing lay outside but eerie black darkness. Red clouds moved in and spotted the dead night sky. Taylor looked up, he saw what resembled rain. Too bad for him, it wasn't. The red clouds began spitting out small daggers. Taylor collapsed on the ground, hoping to escape them. Spotting a nearby table, he made a beeline for it. Sliding under it, he whimpered in fright. He pulled his legs to his chest and looked around. Out from the crowd appeared a small creature. Then two more then four more after those. He peered a little closer only to realize they were snakes. All headed straight for him. He screamed, terrified, and jumped onto the top side of the table. There he stood screaming at the top of his lungs and pointing to the ground. All of the people at the party turned to see this poor boy standing on a table, pointing at a bare floor, almost in tears, and shouting all the while. The room began to spin at extreme speeds, before everything went pitch black. His body slumped over, falling from the table. Isaac lunged towards the table just in time to catch him. He pushed his way through celebrities with looks of utter shock plastered across their faces with Taylor in his arms. He carried him out the door, and Zac and the rest of the family attending the party followed. Isaac gently laid him on the ground and checked to see if he was breathing. He was, steadily, but was still unconscious.
"Get an ambulance!" Isaac shouted, knelt over his younger brother. Their father dialed 911 on a cellular phone and the ambulance arrived shortly.
"Isaac I'm going to get your mother and the kids, you take Zac and follow the ambulance, we'll get a cab and be there as soon as we can." Walker said trying to stay calm. Isaac nodded and got the valley Parker to retrieve his dad's rental van. They three stood there for a few moments, trembling, as they watched Taylor be put on a stretcher and taken away in the ambulance.

"Nothing, the blood tests show nothing at all" a middle aged doctor stated, "I'm assuming it's only stress. This was probably just an anxiety attack, in a very extreme stage. I haven't ever seen a case of anxiety and panic attacks in which such vivid hallucinations were involved but it's certainly possible" Taylor felt a chill go up his spine as he sat in the paper-like hospital gown.
"It's either that or he's just plain crazy" they laughed nervously. He looked at Taylor.
"Now Taylor, I'm going to prescribe an anxiety drug to you that will ease these situations. I don't blame the boy either, I would have clammed up if I was having cameras shoved in my face constantly too."
"Well thank you very much doctor" Mrs. Hanson shook his hand and helped Taylor off the table.
"Oh it's no problem, don't take any mind to it." he opened the door, "Now I'm sure Taylor would like to get dressed instead of just leaving in that lovely ensemble" She laughed and walked out the door, his dad followed. Outside the rest of the Hanson clan nervously awaited them. When they caught a glimpse of them leaving the room, they jumped and ran to their sides.
"What did he say?" Isaac asked quickly.
"He said it was just stress, and anxiety. Things of that nature." Mr. Hanson said. Then Taylor appeared in the door, dressed, and ready to leave. His face was pale and his eyes looked awfully bloodshot.
"Can we go?" he asked meekly. His mom put her arm around him.
"Yes, honey. We're leaving right now." He rest his head on her shoulder and they walked to the exit. They piled in the van, Taylor in the back. Throughout the ride to the hotel he slipped in and out of awareness. Then finally fell fast asleep.

A nurse was finishing putting things away in the hospital's lab. She came upon a patient's file, she was about to file it when something caught her attention. The name tab read; Taylor Hanson. She laughed and opened it. The inside contained papers reading; Blood tests indicate narcotics in the bloodstream. She laughed even harder.
"That Brittany, she just can't let it be that I happen to like those little boys" She then wadded it up and tossed it into the trash. She picked up the rest of the files she was supposed to store. When she came to one that read 'Taylor Hansen' she left it out. When she was done she grabbed the file and opened it. It read; Diagnosis: Anxiety/Panic attacks. She sighed and pulled out a white out pen.
"How could anyone forget that last name? God, I've only heard it like a trillion times" She then changed 'Hansen' to 'Hanson' and walked out, turning off the lights and locking the door.

When they reached the hotel, Walker scooped his limp body up and carried him to the hotel room. He lye him down on the still un-made bed and pulled the covers up to his chin. His mom kissed his forehead.
"Goodnight" she whispered, and walked out. The lights went out, putting a terrible night to rest, along with it's victim.

Chapter Seven
Chapter Nine
Home