I have asked many
times ( Why me God) but we cannot question God, only
pray that one day, these horrible panic attacks will
stop. Mine started when I was 21 years old, I would
lie in bed beside the window, it was in the fall. I
kept watching leaves falling from a tree outside. They
continued falling on the ground. In my mind, when the
last leaf fell I was going to die, but I didn't. I had
3 small children at this time and couldn't even
concentrate on the care that they needed.God knows I
tried, but I felt like I was in a prision, In my home.
I was scared to go to a store, scared of being in an
elevator, I could not be alone, for fear of hurting
someone that I loved, and knowing that I would die,
being left alone. I prayed daily that God would let me
live long enough to see my children grown. I suffered
the fast heart beats, knowing each would be my last.
Friends came to visit, but I was in my own little
world all alone. Then I asked God to take me away, but
he didn't, I knew I must get help, or be in a mental
hospital the remaining years of my life.When a panic
attack strikes, most likely your heart pounds and you
may feel sweaty, weak, faint, or dizzy. Your hands may
tingle or feel numb, and you might feel flushed or
chilled. You may have chest pain or smothering
sensations, a sense of unreality, or fear of impending
doom or loss of control. You may genuinely believe
you're having a heart attack or stroke, losing your
mind, or on the verge of death. Attacks can occur any
time, even during nondream sleep. While most attacks
average a couple of minutes, occasionally they can go
on for up to 10 minutes. In rare cases, they may last
an hour or years as mine have. I am trying to cope, I
now have 5 children but attacks still haunt me.
Written By Adria Roberts
