Chapter 47
.:A tour and A Wedding to Plan:.
When the gurls got back to florida they had a big meeting with their managers and concert peeps on October 30. It was October 30 so they had that big meeting (Duh).
"Ok we need a play list, it can be some songs from the first ablum and almost all of them from this cd" Jimmy said.
"Ok well first we need you guys to pick a opening song" Jake said
"Umm how about He wants me back" Angie said
"Yeah, ok then what?" Jimmy asked writing it down.
"Cali boy" Toni said
"Ok"
"I still belive" Kristen said
"Beyond time" Christina said
"I wanna be with you" Toni said
"I dont want you anymore" Katie said
"Shooting star" Kristen said
"Spanish Lullaby" Toni said
"Ohh Just breathe" Kristen said
"How about a remix of I love you and That is why I love you. You know how the Brittney Spears did her remake of Baby one more time and Crazy all in one, Them two songs doing that would be tight" Angie said everyone shook their heads yeah.
"Yeah so, so far we go, He wants, I still belive, Beyond time, I wanna, I dont, Shotting, Spanish, Just breathe and the remix of the two songs, so thats 9, we need about 4 more" Jimmy said
"Where are you now, what you see is what you get, When your eyes say it, and then Dreamin of you as the ending number, but then we come out singing At the Beginngings" Toni said
"Yeah that is good, anyone got a problem"
"No" Everyone said
"Alright listen, you guys go into the studio the first 4 weeks of december, after Christmas you guys will go to the Flordia Arena for a pre concert, which you guys can bring anyone, and then we will be leaving January 1st and get to our first show in Cali January 2nd" Jimmy said "But for now, we are planning the stage. For the opening number you will come out the floor and do the number. For Shooting Star, Spanish Lullaby and Just Breathe, you will be on little swings, each one of you getting your own swing of course. Kristen when is your wedding again?"
"November 10" She said smiling
"Ok so you should be back from your honey moon when?" He asked
"November 30" Kristen said with a evil grin. Everyone just smiled.
"Alright, dont be to tried you got reharseling the next day. Well girl you are allowed to leave. Good bye and I will be keeping in touch!" Jimmy said as the girls left.
"Kristen are we taking my car?" Toni asked when they got out side
"Yeah, see you guys at the bridal store at 7:00" Kristen said getting into Toni Jeep.
"We gotta go pick up Nikki, Nick and the guys are doing something today, and BJ has to work, so she has got to go with us" Toni said driving off.
"Cool Theresa would love to see her" Kristen said as they drove to Toni's house. They were going to go pick up Theresa, Toni and Kristen bis 'Sissy'. She was their best friend. They pulled into Toni's driveway, the BSB was standing there, while Nick held onto Nikki. They got out the car and Toni took Nikki.
"How's my baby" She said kissing Nikki
"I'm great" Nick said, Toni just smiled and kissed Nick.
"Make sure you get a beautiful dress, I want you to look beautiful, you look good in everything but still" Howie said kissing Kristen as Toni put Nikki in the car seat.
"OK baby, Bye"
"Bye Guys!" Toni said pulling out the drive way.
"Nikki is mighty active isnt she?" Kristen said while watching Nikki slap her hands down on her car seat, as she bounce to the music.
"She's me and Nick's baby, what do you expect?" Toni said looking in the reveiw mirror at Nikki.
"Yeah but she is only like 2 months?" Kristen said
"No, she is almost 4" Toni said
"Damn I wasnt even moving when I was four months"
"Well see I was 5 months when I started crawling and 10 months when I start to walk by my self. Nikki is taking right after me too cause she is already trying to crawl around, and she is only 3 in a half months" Toni said as they got off the interstate.
"Damn, she is a mighty cutie though" Kristen said
"Yeah she really is, and she is skinny so hopefully she will stay like that, I dont ever want her to go through what I went through" Toni said, Kristen just looked at Toni. Toni had a very very bad past, and she wanted to keep it where only Kristen and her mom knew.
"Toni can I ask you something?" Kristen said
"Yeah sure" Toni said smiling.
"Have you told Nick about back then?" Kristen asked
"NO! Why would I? So he can sit there and say oh Toni you were beautiful, I know how he is. He would try to make me feel better about my past" Toni said
"Thats true" Kristen said as they arrived at the airport. They parked the jeep, and Toni grab Nikki as Kristen locked the doors.
"Ok lets go" Toni said as they walked up to the airport. They waited by the port were Theresa would be coming out of. Then she came
"AHHHHHHHHHHHH" they all screamed running towards each other.
"You look great, so do you, thanks! AHhh" They all said at the same time. Then they started to laugh.
"Oh Toni she is beautiful!" Theresa said looking at Nikki.
"Thank you!" Toni said as they went to get Theresa's bags, When they got them they walked out to Toni's jeep and rode off to the bridal store. When they got there, everyone else was already there. They got out and went in.
"Hey everyone!" Kristen said "This is my best friend Theresa, Thesesa this is, Angie, Christina, and Katie"
"Is he good in bed?" Theresa asked Angie. Toni's mouth about hit the floor. Angie just smile
"Yeah, really good" Angie said smiling
"I could kill ya, ya know"
"Wanna use him for a night cause we are kinda disagree this week" Angie said
"Dont tell her that, she might take ya up on that" Toni warned receving a hit from Theresa
"Och" Toni said walking away with a hurt look, she picked up Nikki and walked over to some dresses.
"Look Nikki pretty, pretty dresses, arent they?" Toni said, Nikki start to slap a dress. Toni looked it, It was a tube top, top, with a big puffy shirt attached, it was really sparkly and pretty.
"I like this one, cant let Kristen see she might want it, and if I get married I cant get it" Toni said pushing it to the back.
"Toni you need to come get fitted!" Kristen said, Toni walked to the room and saw the girls in dark purple dresses.
"How big are your boobs?" A lady asked
"38 d" Toni said as she put Nikki in her strooler.
"Ok follow me please" The lady said
"Someone watch Nikki" Toni said
"I will" Katie said sitting down and playing with Nikki as Toni got fitted.
"So how ya doin?" Katie said acually thinking Nikki would talk back
"Toni why aint this kid talkin! Aint she like a year old?" Katie asked
"No! She is only 4 months!" Toni said
"She looks about a year, she is big for a 4 month old" Katie said, Toni broke away from the lady
"What do you mean!" Toni said picking Nikki up
"She is big for 4 months" Katie said, Tears filled Toni's eyes.
"No she cant be!" Toni said crying as she ran out the place with the strooler in one hand and Nikki in the other.
"Whoa" Katie said as Theresa and Kristen ran out the place.
"Toni calm down!" Kristen said as Theresa got her bags.
"No you dont understand, my baby cant be like I was she has to be pretty, and skinney!" Toni said as she shut Nikki's door.
"Toni you are over reacting Nikki is not fat, she is a normal size for a baby!" Kristen said as Toni drove off.
"I swear!" Kristen said as she watched Toni leave. When Toni got home Nikki was asleep. She carried her inside and placed her down in her crib. Toni pulled the rocking chair up by Nikki's crib, She sat there rocking back and forth as she cried. Nick came home about 30 mins later, he went into Nikki's room to see Toni still sitting there crying.
"Baby whats wrong?" He asked, Toni looked up at him and wrapped her arms around him as she cried. He picked her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist as she cried. He walked out and shut the door. He walked into the living room and sat her down. He went into the kitchen and pour her some water, he came back and gave it to her. She drank it and then threw it against the wall, Nick sat there clueless. Tears stremed down Toni's face.
"Toni baby, whats wrong" Nick said taking her hand, she just pulled it away
"Nick Nikki is going to grow up to be like me!" Toni cried
"And?"
"SHE IS GOING TO BE A FAT UGLY BITCH!!!!" Toni screamed getting up and running to her bed room. She flopped down on the bed and cried into the pillow. Nick walked down the hall and went into their bedroom.
"Why do you think that?" Nick asked
"Cause I was a fat ugly bitch Nick. Everyone hated me, they used to throw boxes of dexatrim at me, and say loose weight bitch. I never had a boyfriend, guys would come up to me and say will you go out with me and I would say sure, and they say yeah right I would never go" She started to cry hard "Go with a fat bitch like you. I hated my self, I tried killing my self 5 times, I hated the way I looked the way I was, then there was the talent show, you had to sing. I went up there the whole place waiting for me to fuck up so they could make fun of me about that too. I stood up there and sang my heart out, at the end they booed me off the stage, not because I didnt sing good but cause I was fat. You know if they didnt like you then you were booed of before you finished, will they booed me off after I was finished. That was the end of my 11th grade year. At the beginnig of the summer I closed my self off to all my friends, except Kristen. She and my mom told everyone I had went to New York. So no one would call. Well, I weighed 200 pounds at the begining of that summer, at the end I weighed 125. I did everything to change my self, for me not everyone else. I wanted to be pretty for me. Cause I knew that I would be famous and I would meet you, and I wanted you to love me. Well, I went to school first day, and everyone was like who the hell is that. And I would say Toni, and they be like yeah right. Will this whole time Charisma was being made and everything. Well I conviced Angie, Christina, Janice and Kim to do it with me" She said
"Who is Janice and Kim?" Nick asked
"They were the band members before Katie and Kristen"
"Oh, Ok sorry" He said as Toni went on
"Well we went out there and I sung the same damn song, that I sung a year ago, on the same damn day. Everyone at the place stood and clapped, I lost it, I went off on the whole crowd. The same people from the year before was there, they didnt boo me, they clapped and wanted more. We won a record deal after that and now we are here. The only people that knows this, is you, Kristen and my mom, I dont want Nikki to be like me, I want her to be beautiful to grace the world with her beautiful eyes, and just be different from me, I dont want her to be like me, I want her to be beautiful" Toni cried. Nick wrap his arm around Toni and held her close.
"Toni what brought this up? Why didnt you tell me before?"
"Katie said that Nikki look like she was a year old and I though oh mi god my baby is fat, and I lost it. And I thought if I told you that you would just tell me that you would of loved me anyways, and all that I would of loved her anyways" Toni said
"Well It was your eyes that attacted me, not your body. I didnt even look at it, untill I saw you dancing" Nick said smiling, causing Toni to laugh
"Dont you ever notcie the way I look into your eyes, I love them. Nikki has the same eyes" Nick said, Toni thought back at all the times Nick would just look into her eyes.
"Tell me" Nick and Brian sang as Nick helped Toni up. He gave his mic to Aj and took her hands and put them a round his neck. Nick ran his hand down Toni's face looking into her deep brown watery eyes.
She remember the way he looked into her eyes. Maybe he was telling the truth
"Are you lying to me, my eyes attacted you?" Toni asked
"Yeah, I mean all I got to see was a picture, and its like your body was covered by a big BSB shirt and I looked at the picture and your beautiful brown eyes just looked at me. Its like I fell in love with your eyes, and then we had that dance on stage, it was so amazing the way our bodies together, and the way you looked at me with your eyes, I knew I loved what I had right there, then I got to know you, you were crazy everything I wanted, and then Enrique came and then you cried to me, and I loved the way you needed me, I knew I needed you in my life, so I got enough courage to tell you, and now here we are. I love you so much, and I wish I could take away all the bad things, but I cant, All I can do is give you good ones now, so you can kept them for forever" Nick said running his hand down Toni's face.
"I love you Nick" Toni said
"I love you too baby" He said kissing her, their kiss was broke up by Nikki screaming like usual. Toni got up and went into her room. She picked Nikki up and grab her baby blanket, She walked down the stairs and went up the the dancing studio. She spreaded the blanket down and laid Nikki down on it. She laid down just Nikki was and looked into her eyes.
"Daddy is right you do have beautiful eyes" Toni said kissing Nikki.
"No mountain痴 too high for you to climb, All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah, No river痴 too wide for you to make it across, All you have to do is believe it when you pray, And then you will see the morning will come, And every day will be bright as the sun, All of your fears cast them on me, I just want you to see, I値l be your cloud up in the sky, I値l be your shoulder when you cry, I hear your voices when you call me, I am your angel, And when all hope is gone, I知 here, No matter how far you are, I知 near, It makes no difference who you are, I am your angel, I知 your angel" Toni sung as Nikki looked at her mommy.
"I love you baby" Toni said kissing Nikki.
