On June 30, 2002, I took a home pregnancy test and it was positive. But let me start at the beginning. My husband and I have a beautiful little girl who is 7 years old, and when she was 2 we decided to try and have another baby. We tried for a year and a half to conceive with no results. We went to a fertility specialists and he just kept telling us I was too fat to have a baby, so we quit going to him, and gave up for awhile.We started trying again in June of 2001, and when we still hadn't conceived after a couple of months, we went to another fertility specialist and this time they did test to find out what was happening. Well I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovaries, so they started me on a medication to clear up the cyst in October of 2001, then we started a taking clomid in February of 2002.On June 30, 2002 we found out we were finally pregnant. We were so happy, and everything seemed to be going fine. Then around the beginning of August I started bleeding , it was after a physical activity so they said it should be fine and to rest for the remainder of the day and all of the next day, so I did, and the bleeding stopped. Then on August 18, 2002 I started spotting and then the bleeding got heavier, I was due for an ultrasound the next morning and the bleeding stopped over night.We arrived at the hospital for our ultrasound the morning of August 19, 2002, I felt something was terribly wrong, and it was our baby had died. I was 13.5 weeks pregnant. That was the worst day of our lives, our precious angel was never going to be born alive. They gave me the choice of a D&C or to go home and wait, I chose to wait, I could not stand the thought of having a D&C, my precious angel was going to be born. I delivered her on August 21, 2002. She was too tiny to see, but I knew in my heart that my baby was a girl. Jordan Angeles Gongora is the name we gave her, and though she was too tiny to see, she made a huge impact in our lives, although we will never know what she could have been, we know what she is and that is one of God's precious angels not meant for this earth. May God watch over our little girl, may our precious angel watch over her sisters that were left behind, we will see you in heaven anjelita.
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