†Poems†
~*Death*~
All is quiet and peaceful.
Gradually, as she comes to embrace me,
the visions begin...
Sad Love
~*A lost love*~
A tear rolls down my cheek
For your love only I seek
But you are taken
My love forsaken
My heart broken in two
As I lie here in my bed
Thoughts of you rush through my head
I cannot compete
For I am meek
But you cross my mind yet another time
I cannot go on without you to lean on
And the pain I bury deep in my heart
Then takes me and life apart...
The Victim
Slaughtered by depression
Imprisoned by her fear
Satan's next succession
And no one shed a tear
Sacrificed by reason
Embalment by betrayal
Such is the Samhain season
And its glorious portrayal
Underestimated Tears
~*Lost you*~
I thought I knew your pain... I underestimated your tears
I took for granted the words you said and thought you'd always be there
It just seemed your tears were almost false--an act of attention if you will
My heart it hurt I know pain
I always thought mine was worse--But I hugged you and held you tight
I listened but I guess I gave no comfort
Maybe you saw through to my heart under my cascaded eyes
It just seems so unlikely
You can't leave me for that!
You professed your love for more than enough
Reminding, reassuring yourself you had my love everday
In your despair you found another lover but I swear
I was always there!
I never knew you hurt so much... you spelled it out
And I didn't read--And now I guess my heart of stone
that only trembled,... it crumbled
Leaving pieces of you in me shattered
Now I taste your tears and I see your
Red fury... I feel the stabbing
Deep inside... And now I'm too late
No shout loud enough would turn you back around in your tracks
I'm sorry, I'm not psychic
I guess I knew it was there
I bash myself daily... I taste the dark red liquid thick and bittersweet
I hide and blame only myself... Never forgiven
By you--that look of sorrow and hatred I saw last--
That silent blow--it hurt the most
Now I carry your pain and mine
I'd drop to my knees and beg and plead
I'd be there... I'd open my eyes
I'd see what's wrong... I wouldn't let you go
We'd solve it together... I'd comfort you
Oh Damn this Oblivious Fool
.....come back, I can't let you die......
Revenge
The dark nite sings a sweet song
My heart is heavy
But I know i must go on
The pain inside enough to kill
In my weeping and despair
Life and death argue
For my soul they will not share
So through my tears I drift away
Into the world of another day
The sun will shine
And I will be blinded by the light
A pulsing hunger in my veins
As I lie in my tomb waiting
Waiting on what I know not
But soon it is here
And out I go to satisfy the pain
Seeking what my life prolongs
In the shadows lurks my life
And the sun is setting
And so by the pale light I long to find
The soul that stole mine...
Like the tear drop
Falling slowly
Salty, with all
The pain it bears
All the suffering
Shivering, with all
The hope it contains
All the dreams
Moist with all
The delicate secrets
All the fears
Like the tear drop
Dancing in your eye
I am
I look around, but nothing is there
There is no sound, nor color.
But I feel a presence
Could it be good, could it be evil.
Only the darkness knows.
"Speak to me, tell me what is here!"
A wind blows
It is cold and quiet.
"Where am I?"
Only the darkness knows.
Where are the birds, the trees, and the flowers.
Where can this bloody cast take me.
Am I alive, am I insane.
"Where is my body?"
The darkness knew.
I found death.
I am forsakenly damned to the eternal darkness.
Lonely all my life..
~*The broken promise*~
I've been lonely all my life
But not untill today did I know
You set me free and have made me see
That I don't have to live with a cloud over me
You want to be my friend
Your the first to ever stretch his hand out to me
But something deep inside me makes me want to run and hide
I guess I'm just the kind who can't confide
Though I tried...
Three's a part of me that's saying NO
Telling me to let you go...
Twisted
Twisted Tales,
of deceptive lies.
Twisted Faith,
the wounded cries.
Twisted Heart,
Troubled Pains.
Twisted Lady,
the sorrow remains.
~*My Sire*~
He comes at night
He has jet black hair,
he's tall and pale.
His eyes are keen and grey to the light,
although, his body looks frail.
I call him the eyes if the night.
He calls to me while I sleep.
He knows what I know and sees what I see.
He is the angel frim my night sleep.
From his eyes glows triumph,
as his eyes of the night solemnly creep.
I abide in his wisdom,
I feel beloved to him as his piercing
fangs penetrate my soft skin.
He gives me no freedom,
as he makes noticeable a little grin.
He takes me to his fairy-tale kingdom,
as he gives me the eyes of the night.
We are but one in the same.
Combined through blood we walk in the darkness.
We are immortally claimed,
for we are the eyes of the night.
One Bright Spot In the Darkness
Shinning beyond all recognition
Calling...calling me from
Wandering
Pulling me from my lonely travels
Showing me Kindness and Love where
None is deserved
Feeding the seeds of Hope where
None has grown
Lighting the way to a brighter and kinder
place
...expecting nothing but giving it all!
Blackened tears
Still salty
Flow down my face
Roses impregnate the air
Listening to him speak
A blanket of my frozen
Pain
Covers the earth
You're not here
To touch my face
Wipe away
my tears
Whisper hope into my ear
And I'm beginning to wonder
If you exist
At all...
The storms are raging
Black as ebony
Sweeping through my soul
Melancholy edged with blood
Desperate thoughts crash like thunder
Against barriers barely holding
A slip of cloth to hold a hurricane
The storms are raging
Battering my psyche
Cudgeling my will
To scream in a voice with no sound
To cry with no tears
To rage in silence
Against forces beyond control
The storms are raging
Striking from the heights
Thunder resounds and echoes
Mudslides hurling force
Lungs strain for air
Arms flung in desperation
Fingers outspread reaching
The storms are raging
And I am lost...
Swirled about in my darkness
To survive is to exist
To welcome the night
To find comfort in pain
For there is no tomorrow
The storms are raging
A voice penetrates tentatively
"Are you o.k.?"
The storms are freed
Tears flow melting ice
Desperately clinging to the voice beyond the
despair
Arms entwine in a cradle of comfort
The storms recede
Its victory inevitable
Timeless, it waits
~*Xis*~
My mind, cluttered with chaos.
I hear nothing,
I see nothing;
but my own torturing words.
Nothing to soothe the pain,
nothing to drown the fear.
Snow flakes and rain drops,
things I no longer share.
Happiness and harmony,
things I no longer bare.
Envy, pain, fear, sorrow;
emotions so dear.
Life gone unfilled;
death strengthening within.
