A Deeper Look Into My Soul
KISMET
He came to me in the night
When I was lone and cold
And the rain was beating hard
Upon the shadows of my soul
This night was truly black
There was no moon, no stars
All was silent but the rain
That gently washed away my scars
His soft black hair was soaking wet
His sweet lips were kissed by rain
His deep dark eyes were grave and intense
Full of sensitivity and pain
We stood there breathing silently
Raindrops trickled down his face
He raised his arms to reach for me
And I felt his warm embrace
He led me to the shore of a lake
And we sat beneath a tree
Not speaking even a whisper
He declared his love for me
And the night began to crumble
As the sun burst through the sky
He lovingly took me with him
And we left this world to die
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A solitary cloud am I
Ever shifting form, drifting
In peaceful bliss I fly
In warm skies of blue
Or days dismal and grey
I shed tears of joy and sadness
For the world that I witness below
And then I storm
Crying uncontrollably, wildly screaming
Thrusting my anger upon this world
In an explosion of emotion uncontained
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What makes your love so magical?
Why do I feel like chanting your name a thousand times
Until my throat is dry?
How do I live each day without you?
When can I see and learn
About the things I already know in my heart?
Where does your enchanted heart take you?
What do you see in your enthralling dreams?
UNTITLEDHow would he have acted had he known...
My heart went wild the moment I saw his eyes?
I watched him dancing close beside me?
I could feel his energy electrifying my body?
What would he have thought had he known...
That entire night I lay awake thinking of him?
Wondering if I could possibly find him again?
I felt I had found love but it could never bloom?
What would he have said if he had realized...
I strongly felt fate stepped in the next day?
Seeing him again filled my being with hope for love?
I couldn't begin to tell him half of what I wanted to say?
What would he have done if someone had told him...
About how I treasured our time together the next morning?
The attention he gave me thrilled my heart?
I prayed I never had to leave his side?
How would he have felt if he had seen...
Me crying on the plane that tore me away from him?
It hurt when I finally realized he was gone?
The short time we had together left me craving more?
What does he do now while...
I wait eternally for him to send me a letter?
I wish for the day that he will reach out to me?
Each day that I don't hear from him hurts me deep inside?
Please don't ever tell me...
That he never felt a thing
He never felt the way I did
Don't let me find out...
He never cared
He never wondered how I felt
He never saw a love that could soar one day
How would I feel if I ever came to know...
That he never thinks of me now that I'm gone?
I never light his soul each day?
I would find him silently, painfully slipping from my life?
I would cry in the night
Scream for the love that would never be
Shout his name till my voice faded to nothing
I would die from giving love that was never returned
I would like to hear...
About how he felt charged seeing me at the dance
Of how he thought about me endlessly
Of the fear he felt of never finding me again
I would love to learn of how...
He felt our fates unite
He would have arrested the flow of time
to keep us together eternally in one light
But how am I to face the truth with bravery?
If only he knew...
But I never want to know
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Gazing towards the radiant heavens
As I lie upon the soft, fragrant grass
The breezes brush against my face
Cooling me with their gentle caresses
The clouds shift forms as they glide past me
Never resting, never remaining a certain shape
Too involved in their own affairs
To even stay with me awhile to listen to my song
But the angels up high notice my loneliness
They offer me their attention
I gladly accept it
And I begin to serenade them with the song that is my life
And they understand my agony
I feel their tears fall upon my skin
I see their rage slice through the sky like a whip
I hear their roars of fury shaking the world to its knees
I continue to lie there and I smile
The angels voice their anger towards the world
And I begin to laugh
For someone has finally understood me
INDULGENCE
My eyes drink you in day after day
And yet they thirst for more
Your voice wanders through my mind and soul
Each hour stronger than before
Your eyes cast my heart in a loving spell
That I do not dare break
Your lips sing to me a silent song
In which my own two lips partake
I see your eyes in every star
Your smile through rays of sun
I feel your touch with each gentle breeze
Your kiss from rain pouring down
Your hair is as golden as blazing sun
Your eyes deep as the sea
Your lips are as soft as an infant's touch
And your voice, it calls to me
But you are not truly calling
Yet my eyes continue drinking
Ever desiring you, yet I know
It is only wishful thinking
IF YOU COULD ONLY SEE...
You are...
My wildest desires
My deepest passions
My loving fire
My strongest lusts
You have...
My greatest devotion
My eternal adoration
My sweetest affection
My grandes emotions
You are...
My brightest sun
My shining star
My darkest thoughts
My precious moments
I love...
Your brilliant eyes
Your sexy smile
Your sensuous lips
Your gorgeous hair
You are my obsession
You own my soul
You are my eternity
I love your essence
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Sitting on the park bench waiting for true love
Wondering if he will enter my life today
A little girl rollerskates past
A bright red balloon tied to her wrist
Gliding through the park, her pigtails flailing in the wind
As her bubble gum erupts across her face
A youthful couple enters my view
Pedaling along on a tandem bicycle
They stop beneath the shade of a tree
And begin to unload their picnic basket
A young boy and his puppy bold down the path
He takes his boat from his shiny blue wagon and sets it on the lake
He splashes around and sets sail in his imagination
While his faithful playmate nibbles at his shoelaces
An elderly man and woman stroll on by
Each step they take is steady and slow
They inch along hand in hand
He surprises her with a flower plucked from a nearby bush
A gorgeous man sits beside me
He smiles, exciting me as he runs his fingers through his raven hair
I return the smile and bat my eyes
Just as his wife and child return with vanilla ice cream
Walking home aching for true love
Wondering if he'll enter my world tomorrow
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She walks across the sandy shore of Isolation
What would the sands say if they could speak?
Each grain being a brokenhearted soul that has walked
The same beach which she now wanders across
Poor young innocent woman
Solitary inhabitant of the Isle of Loneliness
Regretfully she is not foreign to the island
She knows each inch of land, each tree by heart
Many a time men have come, in sturdy catamarans
Whisking her away from the painful solitude
With dreams and promises of happiness
In a place where people love and are loved
No one experiences the agony of heartache
A blissful life forever...
But somehow it is never to be
And the cruel seas carry her away
In the brittle rafts heartless men place her upon
The oceans taunt her and wound her further
With dark offers of release and escape
"What a pitiful life you lead
Don't lie to yourself, you can't possibly believe
That it will improve, can you?
It wouldn't hurt much if you would just
Let go of your raft
I can set you free."
But with her strong will to find love
She clings to the wood that keeps her afloat
And the waters tire of her and toss her away
Back to the same lonely beach
She might as well call it home
UNTITLEDI truly do believe
That wishes do come true
But somehow stars don't hear me
Whenever I wish for you
And I firmly believe
In the force of destiny
But fate doesn't seem to understand
That you should be with me
The distance between us is small
Still the miles seem to keep us apart
And I've always wanted to look for you
But don't know just where to start
I hear about you through others
And it'll have to be enough
Deep inside I know I'm craving something more
Never thought living without you could be so tough
Now I treasure each little moment
That I got to spend with you
And though we never got together
Still I feel I'm losing you
It's been years since I last saw you
Yet I just can't let you go
You have always been my treasure
But will I ever let you know?
I can't explain my actions lately
I don't think that I'm a freak
Yet when I get to thinking about you
My body gets all weak
And though I've never told you this
I just have to let you know
That if you ever feel you need me
Where ever you may be I will go
Even if I never see you
I am positive you're still here
Never knowing if you love me
Is the only thing I fear
Someday I will have to know
Just exactly how you feel
And no matter how you feel about me
You've got to know that I'm for real
Because the moment that I saw you
Cupid struck me and I knew
My life would be so sweet
If I could share the world with you
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There is so much placed between us
And yet you're shutting one more door
Reality slaps me in the face and tells me
Our friendship will never grow into more
I was open about what I thought of you
But your feelings remained disguised
I've always wondered how much truth I'd find
If I could look into your eyes
Yet then again you could feel nothing
That is even close to love for me
Perhaps you've never hidden the truth
And maybe I refused to see
And still I can not help but love you
Even though you keep away
Despite the fact that I'm the one hurting
My feelings remain and grow each day
I know you said you had someone
Even before we met that night
My heart still hopes you felt something
So you didn't confess her outright
I know this all might be my wishful thinking
Expecting something that will never be
Then all I want is one last contact
So I can awaken and see
But I can not see why our friendship is impossible
If it's your girlfriend. can't she understand?
I'm so far away, all I get are sweet words
While she gets to hold your hand
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It's easy for you to walk away
But for me it's cruel hell
To ponder why you left me there
When things were going so well
To question if I'll ever hear your voice
If ever again I'll see your face
To replay the senses with the warmth and comfort
Of your strong electric embrace
I was shocked to know you loved another
But in the end I didn't cared
Because those few moments we spent together
Were magic because she wasn't there
I hope you don't think that I hate her
I'm glad if she makes you feel good
It's only unfair that she holds you now
And she stands where I feel that I should
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Email: lbalagta@ucalgary.ca