How it Ends
The day I was born...
I knew nothing but how to breathe...
And how to feel...
Pain...
They told me it was love...
So I guess I was happy...
As I grew older...
Not knowing much...
But the things they tell me...
Then it all begins...
Hitting my teens...
Not knowing what it holds for me...
The minute that just past...
is now dead, and lost forever...
Being a teenager...
Being forced to the middle...
of life and death...
Leaving you dazed and confused...
If I'm not a kid...
And I'm not grown...
What the fuck...
Depression has paid off well...
I'll be as guilty as ever...
I now breathe my last breath...
And I thank you all one last time...
For the threat...
And the shame...
I was always there to blame...
I listen to your problems...
And get nothing in return...
But you know...
I'm feeling the flames...
Thanks again...
Friends...
Its so cool to leave me out...
Even though I'm standing right here...
You pushed me to this day...
I hope you're happy without me...
Standing in your way all the time...
And for my enemies...
Don't worry...
I'm not sad...
Take a good laugh...
I'll laugh even louder in your nightmares...
And I'm the one...
That just has to get hurt...
Just because I'm here...
As for my family...
I'm not leaving without saying...
I do care...
I know my eyes were stoned with guilt...
But they will be closed from now on...
Locking away the guilt from the rest of you...
I'm a loser...
But I'm not just some loser...
I'm the loser you wiped your ass on...
And I stood there and let you...
You buried me with your lies...
And you blame me just for hearing them...
Oh yeah, I'm that loser...
That's right...
It should be your name written all over this gun...
Load up...
This is it...
This is how it ends...
I'm my own victim...
Not yours...
Meeeee...
I'm my victim...
If I'm going to get hurt...
Let me hurt myself...
I've wasted my last brain cell...
And the last minute fades away...
Like I started in the first place...
I don't know any better...
Life has done its work...
A dirty shame...
And this is how it ends...
- a loser to remember
Email: suicidal_dreams@webtv.net
