Doubt

Where were you
all night, till the wee
wee hours of the morn?
I trusted you again
but you gave me doubt.
Now it's so hard to love
you as freely as I used to.
We began anew and I
forgave you for the past.
This time I thought
it would last.
But, after you declared
your love for me again,
you left me all alone
with tears and fears.
Were you with her again,
will I ever know the truth?
Did you betray me
by sleeping with her again?
I pray that in time
I will know the answers
to all my doubts.
Hoping
that you're innocent
of all my insecurities.
Because if you re-lived the
nightmares we used to have,
I will wake up from them
and go on to seek
a new dream.
Hoping
that my doubts will fade
into a new life, a new day.
I hope it's not true,
the things I suspect.
Because if you betrayed
me all over again,
I will have to
live with-out you.
Doubt,
what a terrible way
to live.

@original by
Dorothy Fontaine