I looked down at the top of your perfect head and inhaled your perfume. You never did tell me what you put in your oils, but the fragrance was always intoxicating. I longed to touch you, but didn't wish to let go of this image. I'd have stayed like that forever if I could have, but finally temptation overwhelmed me. I entwined my Hand with the one over my heart, and ran the other through your silken hair. You stired and looked up at me
I wanted to stare into your ocean blue eyes, but instead my gaze met empty sockets. I brought your hand up to my lips as I watched you age away to bones and blow away like dust. Then I woke up alone in our bed.
I am still tormented by dreams like these, even twenty years after your death. I've begune to believe that once I can let you wake up on your own that you'll be able to come back to me. Or perhaps I'll be allowed to join you...