i'm still broke but am learning to cope with this weird life.  i never knew there existed an industry devoted solely to check cashing and "payday advance".  people are both poor and impatient.  it surprises me too how easily normal people call parts of town the "ghetto" and mean "where the black people live/shop/work".  i had heard of computers having masters and slaves, but computers here are "n*****-rigged".  i've never felt so queer and so alone for being queer.  at home, i was surrounded by freaks beyond my comprehension and i felt mainstream and occasionally dull, but now i realize the true enormity of Middlin' America.  someone told a coworker, "you know, you've got a lot of faggot music in this place."  i honestly had no idea people still wore capri pants and never questioned the existence of god, and that thrift stores aren't cool!!!  i am a proud metropolla and i am learning about The Enemy, and its fnckbuddies are mediocrity and complacency.