07/09/2000 - Yesterday was SO great!!!! I got to go to my baby's house and be with her for a few hours without her brother bothering us. It was great. We played around outside, rideing my skateboard, whacking each other with a sticky frog, playing mancalla, and just Sitting with each other on the grass petting the dogs. It was SO great to be with her again... To hold her in my arms... To touch her... To kiss her.
Well then after a while of being outside we went inside and Scott (her brother) came home and we started Playing Mario Party on there N64. It was my first time So I lost VERY badly.. lol. But in the mini-games when I won or something Jodi was so cute and hugged me or kissed my cheek.. it was so great! An she was So cute! I swear I never wanted to leave. But I had to cause Jodi had to go to bed...
The day was GREAT. Only Bad thing to happen was for me to sprain my right ankle VERY badly... it still hurts. But it will be ok. Besides, when Jodi hugged me cause I was hurt it felt alot better =-) Didnt really bother me till after I left. lol
I cant wait for tomorrow! hehe. As of tomorrow, I will have known Jodi for 10 months! yay! hehehe *tries to do a happy dance, but falls on his face cause of his ankle*
That pretty much it. As you all know I love Jodi more than ever. hehe. Everyday I love her more and more...
I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

07/07/2000 - HAPPY 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

07/03/2000 - Hmmm.. My baby wanted me to update this so Now All I have to do is think of what to say. lol.
Not much has happened in the last 2 months. I've been looking for work, but no one wants to hire me! =-( I am gonna go out after the 4th though an put in Applications everywhere AGAIN. I NEED a job! lol.
I love Jodi even more than before! I feel closer to Jodi than I have ever before. I am SO sure that she is the most perfect woman in the universe! I love her so much, and when she was away with her Grandparents I missed her SO much!!! It feels SO great to have her back =-) The thing that sux is that she's gonna go away to Havasu again in a lil more than a week... But at least this time it's only for 5 days and not 2 weeks. =-)
I've been sick over the wekend.. And So has Jodi... It SUX! But My baby got some medicine so she should get better soon =-)
Hmm.. what else has happened... Well my car is a piece of junk! lol. But at least it still runs. My comp is being a pain also.. stupid Fried Motherbaord. lol.
Oh yeah! One more thing! Me and Jodi's 6th Month Anniversary is in 3 days!!!! Yay!!!!! Half a year of being with SUCH a perfect woman! hehehe. And also, In 7 days I will have known Jodi for 10 months! hehehe I'm SO happy o be with her =-)

05/17/2000 - I'm in Long Beach. I'm happy to be near my love, but she's now grounded so I cant really talk to her much =-( Oh well. I guess It gives her a break from me that she might have wanted. I got to see her for one night last week.. but we barely talked or anything... She was busy with friends and friends of family... It's funny... I was terrified that night like I was the friday when I first met her... I wanted to be with her but I was afriad to go near her.. to talk to her. I guess I was (am) just scared that she would see me and go "What have I gotten my self into?". I know... I get scared too easily. But I just love Jodi So much, that I cant help but fear loseing her. When you have something so perfect, so precious as Jodi, you cant help but fear that something is gonna happen to make you lose that thing. *sigh* I just Hope I dont mess things up with all my fears...
It kinda bites... when I first got here I had a major drive pushing me on trying to find work.. but I've been sick for 5 days and that sicknes has made me sleep for WAY too long... so like by the time I'm awake it's too late to call places about work... Nice huh?

04/24/2000 - I'm finally movieng. I'm gonna finally be with the love of my life =-) I just Pray I dont mess it all up...

04/08/2000 - Life is hell... I'm feeling like crap both physically, and mentally... Physically, cause I've been sick ever since I got back up to Redding, and mentally cause I miss my baby so much... I swear life without her is hell... But I'll survive.. I have to.. I want to spend all my life with her.. so I know that I must keep pushing on, and that it wont be long till I can see her again =-)
Well the move is going slowly.. I'm still waiting for my sisters Check.. as soon as I have it I'll be out of here in about 1-2 days (enough time to pack all my comp stuff). I cant wait... I just PRAY I find a place to live... I really need it... I MUST move down there to be with my baby, or I wont survive much longer... I hate it here... and I love it there.. when I'm in her arms and when she is in mine... I just love her SO much!!!
Cause of how far I am from her right now all my fears seem to be attacking me at full force.. and one almost came true... On march 31st Jo almost dumped me.. I wont go into detail about why, but it almost happened... That's what I miss about being a Pessimist.. If I still was one I woulda expected that to happen... but I didn't... I'll admit.. Jo has changed me.. alot... but I think it's all for the better. =-) I still get alot of fears, but most of them go away cause of all the love Jo gives me... I swear.. you never realize JUST how much someone means to you till you almost lose them... I REALLY love you Jo.. I always will. Always remember that =-)
Well... Now that you know how I'm in kinda a down mood... Oh well.. that's life huh? but at least my baby is talking to me and making me feel better =-)
Another bad thing.. Jo's school was on fire yesterday... Some idiot lit the bleachers on fire and Jo had to leave her Swim practice and stand in the courtyard in her bathing suit (damn lucky guys got to stare at her...). No one was hurt except a firefighter.. he was burned, but is ok...
What else is going on... hmm... Well... I know your sick of hearing it.. but tough titty's! I am SO in love with Jodi... God... She is my life... My soul... Everything I care about. She means SO much to me.. She always will... I never believed in it before.. but Jodi is my soul mate... she holds my heart in her hands... she takes care of it and make me feel so good... She actually makes me happy. And I love her even more for it =-)
That's about it cept for one more thing...

I LOVE YOU JODI!!!!

Hehehehehehe.. And I really do!!!

03/29/2000 - I'm In Redding =*( I don't want to be.. but I'm packing to move down to Long Beach so I'm kinda happy.. but I miss my baby So much... Life without her is so hard... I miss her touch... Her kisses... Her love. But you don't want to hear that so I'll just tell you what's gone on...
On sat. (03/25/2000) I went to a tailgate party with jo and her family nd then went to the Ice Dogs game right after and helped pass out the Beanie dogs (they're SO cute!) and some trading cards.. I got to keep 3 of the Beanie Dogs.. one for me, one for mario, and one for whoever I chose to give it too... Well at the game me and jo sat next to each other and I held her the entire time.. not having to worry about her rents staring at me anymore.. It felt so good.. She was real tired so she was like almost asleep most of the time... I just held onto her.. rubbing her back.. staring at that beautiful sleepy face... I didn't pay any attention to the game. All I remember is we were playing the Vipers... or something... lol. I just was paying attention to my baby and nothing else... Then during the ride back to her home I got to hold her even more.. god you don't know how good it feels to hold that woman in your arms... Then when we got back to her house I had to go cause it was late (Damn her mom.. lol) so me and jo were hugging each other g'bye and I rested my forehead on hers and looked down into her eyes and couldn't stop myself from bending down and kissing her.. but she was also pushing up to kiss me.. hehe.. well lets just say I never thought my first kiss would be so good... or my first "french" kiss... Damn jo tastes good.. hehe.. Like you wanted to know that, but oh well. .it's my page after all.. and my thoughts so if you don't like it then Bugger off!!! Let me just tell you this... That girl really knows how to kiss! hehehe Well I had to go after about 40 mins of making out with jo cause her mother kept calling down to jo's father telling him to yell at us so Jo would go to bed...
Well the next day while I was talking to Jodi on the phone, I kinda got invited to go to the Ice Dogs game that day so I drove over to her house and sat around talking to Jo and Scott (her lil brother) for a while and then we went to the game... I paid a lil more attention this time cause there were some nice LIL fights.. hehe. but I still mainly was paying attention to the beauty in my arms... Trust me.. Its hard to not put all your attention towards someone So damn Gorgeous... hehehe. Well any ways I got to get a Puck that shot into the air and landed next to me.. (by the way Jo.. you still need to "do something" to it so I will "want to keep it forever"...). After the game they had a cool lil thing where you got to skate on the ice with the team and get autographs and shiznit like that.. I didn't care about the players.. I just wanted to be out with my baby... but of course.. my damn LEFT skate was messed AGAIN... So after the first period (of 2) I went and sat in the bleachers and watched my honey skate around and I wrote her a letter (short) about the night before... Then when it was time to go home... so we went back to Jo's house and I sat on her couch and finished my letter and she read it and answered a question in it (sorry, but I cant put the Q or A cause I don't think she wants anyone to know...), and then I had to go home... Me and Jo stood in the front hall way Holding each other saying g'bye.. knowing it was gonna be the last time we got to see each other for at least a week... We so wanted to really say g'bye more... Deeper... but her brother was really bothering us.. wouldn't leave us alone.. finally I dragged him up to his room and he got yelled at so he stayed up there and me and Jo kissed each other long and deep for a while.. not wanting to part at all... but then her mother came into the room right after we had stopped and literally yelled at us for not listening to her and made me leave right then... >=-( The damn meanie.. lol. Ah well...
The Drive back to Redding went by Very quickly.. I couldn't stop thinking about how good it felt to kiss such an angel... I'm lucky i didn't crash... lol. cause I was MAJORLY in a dream world... So much that when i stopped to check the water level in the radiator, and it shot out and burned me, I didn't even feel it at first.. took about 10 mins when the pain became so immense that I felt it and it hurt.. but then when I was back on the road I went back to dreaming about the soft touch of those lips and the pain went away...
Now all I have to do is pack... I already asked, and got it approved for a loan from my sis, so now I just gotta get my shit ready.. =-) I cant wait to be around my baby all the time that she wants me to be! =-)
Oh and for those of you who are wondering, i finally got a good CD player for my car.. lol. I swear 4 hours of a Limp Bizkit tape gets SO damn annoying.. now I can listen to ANY CD! no more tapes! YAY!!! And incase you were wondering, The Deck is a Sony Xplod with 5 1/4" Sony Xplod Speakers.. hehe.. $300... Puts out a 50w a channel x 4 channels...

03/21/2000 - I've been over to my baby's house again on the 19th... I had a great time even though her mom cooked some chicken strips that... well lets say that they were un-cutable... Jo's brother couldn't even cut them with a steak knife... lol. Bu it was ok... I didn't mind it or anything cause I was with my baby =-) After dinner we watched tv.. then watched "The Flintstones" on some channel.. didn't pay attention to the movie much... I was too busy looking down at my baby resting against me. I swear she's an angel... She looked so beautiful... She was so soft... Smelled so good...
Sorry bout that... got lost in sweet memories =-)
Any ways I have till the 22nd to find a place and then I'm getting thrown out of Mario's house =-( I jus pray I can find a place so I can stay and be around my baby as much as I can... I want her... I need her... I love her...

03/18/2000 - I've been to 2 more of Jodi's swim meets... First one was cool... but at the second one I got to sit down out of the bleachers and i got to hold my baby while she wasn't swimming =-)
Then later that day right after I got home from the meet i talked to jo online and she wanted me to come over and watch a movie with her.. when she went to ask her mom if I could, her mom suggested it before she could even ask! lol. So I hopped into my car and drove to jo's house and watched some TV and then "There's something about mary", but I didn't get to pay attention to the movie much.. I was too busy looking down at my baby laying in my lap... She looked so beautiful laying there... I just wanted to lean down and kiss her so much... but I didn't cause unfortunently, her lil brother was in the room with us watching the movie... and any ways.. I woulda probably kissed her really stupidly like I did when I said g'night to her...
Any ways, I swear I am SO in love with her... I don't ever want to lose her or be separated from her.. and that s why i have decided to move here permanently... I want to be around the one I love whenever she wants me to be... =-)

03/13/2000 - I'm in Long Beach... I've met my baby... all I can say is... GOD I LOVE HER! hehehe. I went to her swim meet and watched her swim once.. she's good... REAL good... then I went to my first hockey game (Long Beach Ice Dogs Vs. Kansas Blades I think). lol. the game wasn't very interesting.. I was too busy looking at something much more interesting that was sitting right next to me =-) BUT I also was getting weird feelings from jo's rents.. they kept staring at me! lol. They were scaring me SO bad that I was afraid to even just talk to jodi... lol. But then we moved up in the bleachers and I gots to hold my baby for the first time =-) At the game I gave Jo the ring and my old stuffed doggy I really care about (kinda miss him lol)... she loves the dog though, so I'm happy =-) I dunno what she thought about the ring though... hope it's not what nicole thought about it.. "It's pretty... but kinda small". =-(
ANY WAYS, Jo's rents seem to not mind me being here at all, and are pretty cool... Her mom wanted me to come over and meet them, and I wanted to meet her rents, so after i got a new tire and some pics of Jo developed (to be added to the page soon), Me and Mario went over to her place (DAMN nice house too) and met her Doggie's, and sorta met her mom. lol. I was kinda terrified... lol. So I was quiet as usual. I was afraid that she was gonna choke me for visiting her daughter.. lol. Well any ways jo had plans to go ice skating with her father and thankfully me and Mario got invited along (I hope we were invited.. lol) so we went, had a great time (my skate was broken so I did very poorly on the ice, but kinda ok for not touching ice for 5 years), and then I had an ever greater time on the ride home =-) *Is glad mario didn't sit in the back with him so he didn't have to kill mario...* hehe. I was gonna kill him if I didn't get to sit with my love... but i got to =-) Didn't ever want the ride home to end though...
Well then we went back in Jo's house and looked at some pics (she's always been so cute! hehe), but then her rents wanted us to go home since it was late and a school night.. so we went out to the porch and we kicked mario out to the car and said our g'byes for about 30 mins.. lol. made mario get real bored waiting in the car. lol.
Any ways, I've so far had the time of my life and NEVER want to leave.. hoping I can find a job so I don't have to =-) If I do find a job, I'm here =-) Forever =-) (well till i can take jo away hehehe). I love jo more than EVER. and I have to admit.. She was right.. I can love her so much more being with her... I didn't think I could love her anymore than I did... but I was wrong. My love for Jodi is growing more and more every time I see her.. every time I talk to her...
I just love her SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much! More than you would think is possible. More than is humanly possible.. (does that mean i'm an alien? hehe). All I can say is this trip has been the greatest thing I've EVER done. I love the area, and I love the most important person in it.. My love Jodi =-)

02/20/2000 - In the past few days I just realized how strong my love is for jodi... It's SO much more stronger than I had thought before. It is unbreakable... It is Never ending... It is eternal. I love her so much I cant even believe it... If you took the love I've had for everyone in my life and combined it, you still wouldn't have even 1/10th of the love I have for Jodi... (just thought I'd let ya know how I was feeling as well as s what's going on)
I've been sick the past 4 days... Feeling real weak and not wanting to do anything... But Jodi has been so much help to me... When I talk to her I don't feel sick at all.. It's like she is a wonder cure =-)
Jo's been really busy with swim alot recently... It sucks... She's not on much anymore and when she is she's really tired... I just wish I could be there... To let her lay her head in my lap, letting me run my hands through her hair as she falls asleep... =-)
Oh well eh? =-(

02/10/2000 - Not much is new today. I love Jodi more than ever. I just bought her a Valentines day / Anniversary gift a few days ago that set me back quite a bit. I cant say what is is on here cause Jo might view this page, and she doesn't know what I got her yet... (hehe). I wanted to get her something that try's to match her beauty, and be able to show her how much I love her. I just hope she likes it =-]
Um.. I lightened my hair about a week ago... I still don't like it... lol. But it will grow out. (thank god)