I wasn't sXe from the get go. Infact i was quite the raver. I would go to a rave and drop some extacy and trip into the next day. It wasn't until one night that i was high as fuck that I decided that life wasn't right for me. This is my story on why I made that change.
The night opened up with a couple of joints and went into a few bowls. I smoked a total of 4 joints and a like 4 bowls. Some one had broke out a blunt and we started to smoke that as well. Man, was i fucked up!? That didn't stop me though. We went on smoking a totall of 4 joints, 4 bowls, and like 3 or so blunts. I don't know if it were fate or if it was the tobacco in my system, but I felt like dying right then and there. I felt as if the world was spinning and i was going to vomit all over. I found myself in the fetal position, begging for my life back. I made it through the night. I gave it some thought and I was going straight. At the time I didn't have any idea what sXe was, but i knew I was going to be drug free from that point on. i made the decision because I didn't need poisons in my body. I was doing drugs for the wrong reason and now I know that there isn't a right reason. Being drug free, you have much more control over yourself. You won't have any regrets. Some drunk kids asked me the other day, why i was sXe. I explained to them that i didn't want to die right yet. I wanted to live a long fruitfull life. I wanted to expierence everything for myself and not for the sake of getting high. Those kids just replied with, "but getting high is so much fun!" That about made me sick toi my stomach because it reminded me of myself. I used to think that there wasn't any other way of having fun without getting high. I don't think that you should have to have a near death expierience to be brought to life either. What should be done about this? What should be done about the drug problem amongst the youth? I think the answers to this is in ourseles.
