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CHAPTER 20

Howie was sitting there not knowing what to think or do. All he knew was that his so-called friend kissed his girl and it meant something to Kevin and nothing to Andy. A.J. and Kara were sitting there with their mouths open.

"I am so confused…you’re saying it didn’t mean anything and he is saying it does…can someone explain?" Howie said raising his voice.

"Howie lower your voice…it didn’t mean anything" Andy said putting her hands on his thigh.

"Look I don’t know who to trust" Howie said removing her hands.

"What…YOU SHOULD TRUST ME," Andy said raising her voice.

"Maybe I’m making a big deal over something very small, but I need some time to think" Howie said looking like he had just gotten his heart broken.

"Howie please" Andy replied.

"NO…I’m going back to the hotel…you all can go to the club," Howie said turning his head.

"Please I’m not going to the club…this night has been miserable," Kara added.

"Well I guess we should all turn back around" A.J. said.

"Oh no shit Sherlock" Kara said facing A.J.

"Kara please, I don’t want to argue with you anymore…this night hasn’t been good for me either" A.J. replied.

They turned back to the hotel. Everyone went there separate ways. Kara and Andy decided to get a room together because they both didn’t want to return to their rooms with Howie and A.J. Just when Andy was opening the door to her and Kara’s rooms A.J. came out of his room.

"Kara please, just stay in my room tonight" A.J. whined.

"Please get out of my face…I don’t even want to see you right now" Kara replied.

"Look, I don’t know why I acted like that in the limo…I just wanted to…" A.J. began saying.

"I don’t care…I’m just going to get my shit out of your room and you won’t have to worry about me anymore" Kara said pushing him out of the way.

Andy had already entered the room. She sat down on the bed. She wanted Howie to know that the kiss didn’t mean anything. Since she had to get her stuff out of his room she knew it was a perfect time to converse with Howie.

In A.J.’s room. Kara was gathering all her clothes and stuff and putting them into her bag. She wasn’t folding anything she was just throwing everything into her bag.

"Kara can we just talk" A.J. said looking at her packing like a mad women.

"Talk about what?" Kara said stopping what she was doing for a second.

"Come on…I didn’t mean to say those things to you in the limo" A.J. said walking over to her.

"So why did you say them?" Kara asked moving away from him.

"I know we have to leave in a few days and we won’t see each other, I wanted to spend the last few days with only you" A.J. said getting closer to her.

"So that made it okay to start yelling at me for no reason in front of everyone?" Kara asked.

"Kara lets just put all shit behind us…I don’t think I will be able to sleep without you being in the bed with me" A.J. said.

"Alex you’re going to have to get used to it in a few days when we split" Kara said sitting down on the bed.

"Maybe I won’t have to" A.J. said sitting down next to her.

"What are you talking about?" Kara asked puzzled.

"Well I was thinking that maybe you could come on tour with us" A.J. said picking up her hands.

"Well I’m sorry that won’t be happening" Kara said letting go of his hands and standing up.

"What?" A.J. asked surprised by what she just said.

"You expect me to drop everything and just go on tour with the Backstreet Boys…I mean I do have a life" Kara said continuing to pack.

"I know, and I want to be apart of that life" A.J. said grabbing her hands.

"A.J. I want to be with you, but I do have things to do" Kara said looking him in the eyes.

"Kara you don’t go to school…I’m not even sure you have a job…so what are you talking about?" A.J. said with a confused face.

"First of all I do have a job, and as far as what I am talking about, I don’t want to go on tour with you because I don’t know if are relationship is strong enough for all that" Kara said with an angry face.

"Strong enough…of course it is…and if it isn’t it won’t hurt to see" A.J. said trying to convince her to go with him.

"I don’t want to be the one who gets hurt," Kara said sitting back down on the bed.

"Hurt…Baby believe me I wouldn’t hurt you" A.J. said putting his hand on her back.

"Believe you, I hardly know you" Kara blurted out turning her head so she wouldn’t be facing A.J.

"Dam it Kara what in the fuck are you afraid of…I mean I want our relationship to last, but I can see I’m the only one who feels that way" A.J. said walking towards the door and slamming it.

Kara wanted to be with A.J. She wanted to go on tour with him, but she was afraid that if she went with him the relationship wouldn’t last. She loved A.J. way too much to jeopardize that. She sat on the bed thinking. She knew she didn’t want to go back to the room she shared with Andy, she wanted to spend the night with A.J. She never understood why she always pushed people out of her life for no reason. The best thing for her to do was to go after A.J. and talk with him.

Back at Howie’s room. Andy knocked on the door and Howie answered with a very angry face.

"Don’t have a heart attack I’m just here to get my stuff" Andy said looking at him.

Howie moved out of the way to let her in. Andy went to the back room to get her stuff. She wasn’t much of a crier, but for some reason the thought of losing Howie was making her cry. She knew she couldn’t pack her things, she just sat down on the bed with her head in her hands. Howie came in.

"Sorry I know I said I would get my things and leave, but I can’t Howie" Andy said whipping her tears very quickly.

"You can’t, I still can’t believe what happened with you and Kevin" Howie said standing at the door.

"How many times do you want me to tell you it meant nothing?" Andy asked.

"Andy put your self in my shoes how would you react if I told you that Kara and I kissed, but oh yeah it didn’t mean anything?" Howie asked.

"Fine if you don’t believe me there is nothing I can say or do…I’ll just get my shit and go, seeing that’s what you want" Andy said getting up from the bed.

"Andy don’t be mad at me, I just don’t know how to act, I have never been through anything like this" Howie said still standing at the door.

"Oh so you think I have? Andy said with a very stern face.

"Andy you know we aren’t getting anywhere just standing here arguing" Howie said moving closer to her.

"You’re right about that, but…" Andy began saying.

"Andy I know we can overcome all this mess, I just need some time to think" Howie said walking even closer to her.

"Think?" Andy said getting closer as well.

"Yeah all this is too much for me to handle right now and…" Howie began saying.

"No I get it Howard, I’ll get my stuff and leave you alone. I wished all this never happened, but I guess that is one wish that will never come true," Andy said.

"I’m sorry Andy" Howie said.

"No don’t be, I was the one who messed up, let me just start packing" Andy said walking over to the closet.

Howie sat on the bed while Andy packed. He watched every move she made. Andy was a very strong woman she didn’t want Howie to see her in pain. She fought the tears. Soon she finished packing.

"Well all packed" Andy said.

"I see" Howie said getting up.

Andy left the room and walked by the living room and headed out of the room.

"Wait" Howie, yelled out.

"What is it" Andy said putting her bags on the floor.

Howie walked over to her and leaned in to give her a hug. Kara took two steps back and picked up her bags and left the room.

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