NAIINIS AKO
Sibat,
Naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako naiinis ako
BAT AKO WALANG EASTER CARD? u know what bok, napaka insensitive mo naman...dont u think its not hurting on my part? dont u think that im missing u? am i acting good ? right now, im not !!!and its because we both screw up the
friendship we both have for the past years... i dont even know what to sacrifice there.... the "lovin" or the "friendship", i dont know, ANLABO..MAGULO...BAT GANITO????
I know this isnt the "after the lovin'" effect, the special feeling i got into you had ignite up into something disastrous because on that night, i hate what im feeling because i know, i dont have that "space" (is not?)for a romantic love in you, although u bring out the best in me inspiring the unconventional and abnormal way of life, but your also that wicked wonderful delight that happened in me...argghhhhh....NAIINIS AKO!
IM FALLING into this crazy trap that i know i would end up in the losing end...di na ako nasanay sa ganitong klaseng drama ng buhay. This is the very point i hate being a woman coz whatever cover-up we have we are still
but vulnerable...and just because the only thing we wanted is be loved (the hell the "care", no one cares about this anyway!!!)
Now what? I blew it off!! at least alam ko kung san ako lulugar, bok! thats the reason why ive been telling u that theres this pain inside of me...i hate myself, i hate this thing, and i dont even know if i hate u too (or
love u,whatever) yet it happened and i dont even know.. where to start again...
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Pangga
MGA BIYAYA
Kapatid,
Kaninang umaga ang ganda ng simula ng araw ko. Paglabas ko pa lang ng bahay
ang gaan na pakiramdam ko. I took in the beauty of my surroundings...nice
neighbors, cute babies in strollers, cute pets, nice trees...naisip ko na I
was so blessed to be planted in such a clean and nice community. Di ko
maimagine kung sa payatas-type ako ipinanganak...naging ako kaya ako?
Tapos, sa sakayan sa kanto, I feel blessed na naman kasi I did not have to
subject myself sa usok ng polusyon...na I had enough money to board a
tricycle without the hassles of traffic...tapos, paglakad ko papasok sa
opis, I was surrounded by wide, green, clean fields.
As I was having my field operations puno galore na naman. As I get off ,
same green landscape na naman! How can I be blessed with these things
everyday? Ang swerte ko!!!! (kahit paminsan minsan ko lang naaalala) ang
sarap parin ng feeling! At habang naglalakad, naisip ko naman ang mga mahal
ko sa buhay-ang tatay ang nanay, mga kapatid ko (salamat kahit adopted at
fosters lang lahat) , ang baby ko, mga kaibigan...ang swerte ko at kayo ay
bahagi ng buhay ko. Grabe no?!
Pano nagkakasya sa isang puso ang lahat ng pagmamahal mo sa maraming tao?
Minsan parang puputok na sya sa kasayahan, pero, patuloy na nalalagay ng
puwang sa mga darating pang mamahalin at magmamahal.
Naiiyak ako...pause muna...naisip ko kasi ang aking mga kaibigan at mga
taong malalapit sa puso ko, na ngayon ay nasa kabilang part na ng ating
mundo, sana nawa maligaya sila kung san man sila naroroon...yung mga tao
ding magpahanggang ngayon ay sabik ko pa ring makita at makahuntahan tungkol
sa aming buhay buhay... sana masaya sila sa mga pagkakataong eto....
Sa trabaho naman, (kahit minsan annoying) but at least hindi boring, I have
been given the best co-employees, yung mga bosing (okey yun, kahit palagi na
lang kung binobola!)! 'am bait (hehehehe opppss la pang gift sa kin yun
ha?). I can talk to them freely, they look after my welfare...good soul
talaga parang tatay kung mag misa....
By the time pabalik ako sa opisina, it has indeed been a wonderful year!!!!
Puspos ako sa biyaya. Parang kahit ngayon ako mamatay, ok lang, alam kong
nabuhay ako ng tama, totoo...nagmahal at minahal..minsan may pagsubok na di
maiwasang pumatak ang luha, malimit nasaktan din pero parte yun ng isang
masaganang buhay....nasunod ko ang mga salita ni "little prince"...'what is
essential is invisible to the eyes'. I care not for titles, property,
riches--what grown-ups call 'matters of consequence'....
Andaming blessing sa ating buhay...it has been a good year....mali....
...it has been a WONDERFUL LIFE!!
Nagmamahal at iyong minahal,
Ate Ping
TO MY FOSTER BROTHER, A CAVALIER…
Everything seemed to happen so fast, its
been four years that you began your sojourn in this primary military institution, the Philippine
Military Academy…from plebehood days to your firstclass years… was it just your childhood
dream? Or just a simple curiosity of what lies inside? Or a search for self-fulfillment?
Whatever... you have your reasons but for me, it’s a new life’s beginning…it’s your
destiny…
Now, as instilled in my thoughts, I am as proud like your parents and
friends watching in the gray line over the Borromeo Field, marching bold and gallant, head up and
proud Cavaliers…
With a knowledge that this maybe the last time I could be able to share
ample moments with you, for after shedding the gray, I know that you will be facing another
milestone in life as one of defenders in the building force of our country. Allow me to share my
innermost feelings of what my thoughts had been for you…
I want to tell you how thankful I am and grateful in accepting me a part
of your profound life as your “Ate “. I thank you for the very day you considered and trusted
me as your friend and a confidant. For a short time, and if only for this…I am very thankful
that out paths crossed…
As you start on your first few steps…I know it will offer you trials as
well as triumphs but always walk down on winding pathways with courage, hope and humor, savor
fully the promise of your achievements but learn and treasure the lessons of your defeats…
Be thankful to those persons who in one way or another had molded you to
what you are today…your loved ones, friends, mistahs…Be thankful, a word of appreciation is
noble when it is acknowledged and recognized. Don’t take for granted the virtues you learn from
persons closest to your heart for these might help you shape your future ahead…
Think of the road ahead as a challenge, by living your life one day at a
time. Always remember not to run through life so fast that you might forget not only where you’ve
been but also where you’re going…Be not afraid to encounter risks for it is by taking chances
that we learn how to be brave. Strive to live to the best of your ability but don’t be afraid to
admit that you are less than perfect. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying…
As you begin to thread a new path, seek His plan for your life and follow
where He might lead you. In your everyday undertakings do not forget to give your graces to the
High and Mighty for your life is in His hands…
Finally, it will take time to see you around the bend…we will be caught
up in the midst of our own chosen field. Surely, it will be a long wait for the time I could see
you once again, for all I have are memories to remember the days I spent with you. It is indeed
worthwhile having you as my foster brother…to share things with you - good times, bad times,
little things, big events, ordinary days, holidays. Everything is better for me because you’re a
part of it…
Go ahead kid! I am proud of you!! Whatever life will be, you can always
count on me! I am your “Ate remember? Take Care and God Bless…
Love,
Ate Ping
ISANG BUKAS NA LIHAM SA ISANG KAPATID
Ano bang nangyayari
dyan! Ala na atang lakas ngayon ang Ate mo ah! (tampo)...mabuti pa yung ibang ebababs dahil merong natatanggap na sulat o di kaya eh
natatawagan, pero si Ate? Huhuhuhuh!!!! (hinampo),
meron bang konsensya ang iba diyan? Sana'y mabulunan o di kaya'y matapilok, una ang ulo para matauhan na meron palang isang tao dito sa
sulok ng Pilipinas na naghihintay ng kanyang malatelegramang sulat (taray!).
Saan na kaya ang mga kapatid ko
(Basilio..Crispin!!!), buhay pa
kaya siya sa ilang pag ka crash niya sa flight simulator? Na stockade (dahil nag boboodle sa loob ng barracks?),
napikot? (nah! di pa naman
naloloka ang GF nya!), o di kaya'y in lab? (sino sa kanila?, dami niya
kasing planong pagawan ng mini ring...errrr class pendant pala!) o di
kaya'y rotting na talaga (nakatulog lang yan, katayin!!!). Please lang!
Kung sakaling ika'y humihinga, paabot mo naman dito ang hangin o?
Sakaling di na humihinga, pwedeng mag multo? Yung tipong the sixth sense
para naman sossy...
Sakaling may isang munting asungot na nakabasa nito, ang aking
taos pusong pasasalamat (drama ko daw?), at plis lang pwedeng batukan si
Kadeteng Makalimot para sa Ate nya??? Maraming salamat at magandang gabi! O magandang umaga o magandang araw!! May araw pa bang sumisikat sa
Baguio? 'Lam ko eh foggy blues lagi dyan? Maulan ba? Ahhhhhhhhhhh! Di pa
naman pumapasok ang fog sa computer ano?? Pero may imbensyon ako ngayon
isang computer bug na pumapasok sa emails ng mga taong ayaw sumulat....tipong...the seventh
K2Y...sumasabog yun!!
Sa huli, bago ko basagin ang mga china wares
(koleksyon ni Inay)
o di kaya mag-amok (salamat sa'yo at minsan sa buhay ni Ate eh na
headline sya!), pakibantayan lamang ang mumunting daanan papasok sa
iyong barracks at baka ang aking mga army rats ay nag uumpisa ng
ngatngatin ang iyong "minsan sa isang buwan labhan" na wayt dak. O di ba? Labs ka pa rin ni Ate dahil meron advanced info...
Ito'y aking the end, regards naman sa mga mababait na gwapo o?
Ahhhhhhhh......wala namang di gwapo sa acad ah, lalo na pag nakauniporme, kaya maraming naiinlab...tipong .....Uncle Bobo hello
po?
Mabuhay (tayo lahat!)
Ate Ping
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