Close My Eyes
© Kimberly Michelle/Kimsfanfic- 1999
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"I will always love you." Katina held JC's hand as they walked along the beach under the stars.
"I'll always love you too baby." The water slightly covered their bare feet. JC wrapped his arms around Kim and she rested her head on his chest. She started crying in his arms.
"What's wrong?" He asked. She looked up into his eyes.
"Nothing, I just love you so much. I want to be with you forever." She rested her head back down on his chest.
"Let's go home." They walked back to Katina's house and spent the night together.
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JC snapped out of his thoughts and began singing the song in the recording studio. He put all his heart and soul into because it meant so much to him.
*I live my days with the nights that we spent- All the love we shared- I put my heart on the side for a while- Knowing you're not there- I tried to carry on-To face the fact you're gone-But I need you-So I close my eyes*
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"JC." He stopped writing. "What?" Katina jumped at the sound of anger in his voice. "Can we go out tonight?" She asked softly. "I'm really busy." He answered going back to his work. She sighed and then shut the door leaving him his peace. Lately he'd been to busy for her.
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JC sighed remembering the time when he ignored the love of his life for weeks because of his music. He wished he could forget it, better yet erase the times he ever hurt her. She was so delicate and so perfect. 'Why was I so stupid?' he thought remembering her.
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Close my eyes-And I dream about you-I close my eyes-I can almost feel you in my arms again
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JC looked down into Katina's eyes, that were filled with passion. "I'm ready. Tonight." He smiled and kissed her softly. "This is going to be perfect. Everything you've dreamed of." He said bringing her onto the bed and placing her down softly. He climbed on top of her and placed his hand behind her neck bringing her lips to his.
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All of JC's memories were going through his mind so fast, the good, the bad, everything at once. His passion from the thoughts were put into his voice. It all came from his soul, thanks to her.
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Evenings of passion and cries of joy-Hold your memory tight-You've been away so long-I sing so many songs about you I just close my eyes
No one really sees You watching over me-And I hope you feel me watching over you-
And when you go to sleep-I pray the Lord to keep-You in my dreams-When I close my eyes****
"Great JC, you can go now." His manager told him and JC left. He walked to a cemetery and walked over sitting next to a grave stone. He closed his eyes and thought of all there times together. He remembered when he first saw Katina's smile, he remembered how he tried to spend all his time with her but his career always seemed to get in the way. Now JC was starting his solo career and was singing about her. He thought of holding Katina in his arms again and tears threatened to fall from his eyes.
He always was dreaming about her, thinking about her, and praying for her. He loved her so much.How could he move on? It was what she would have wanted but it was so hard.
He walked around a little more and started for home. He wiped the tears from his eyes and walked into his house. There was his recent girlfriend, Angela sitting with her baby on the floor. He walked over to her and kissed her. He walked into his room and collapsed onto his bed thinking about her again.
He couldn't live his life like this anymore. He wanted so badly to move on from Katina to Angela. He couldn't tell her Katina was all he ever had in his life, that she was the only person that kept him going. He wanted to tell her how many times he wanted his life to end because he couldn't take Katina watching over him, he wanted to be with her. He walked out to Angela and saw her with Natalie, her little baby who now seemed like she belonged to him too. She crawled over to JC and he lifted her up. He saw Katina's eyes through Natalie's, he knew she was here with him, this was her present to him. JC realized that Natalie was a reflection of his angel, Katina.
Credits- Jordan Knight 'Close My Eyes'
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