Look at Me

Try too hard to make it all
Glory fell hard from me
Sun glares straight through my eyes
And darkness will soon save the visionary light

Vampires come knocking at my door
A deathbed wandering towards my head
And though they say He's with me for all
He's all just in your head

Disallusioned, disoriented
Hallucinating mine I wanted to see
The last few moments are a blur
Then drip
.............drop
...................is all that's left

The pain burst through like a shock
And the dizziness closed my mind
Reality folded up on me
Suddenly living not by sane

Too much later
Scrape away once again
At sanity, at sun, at stars
No one knows
No one cares, they tell you lies
Waste away in disillusionland

Widen the cracks formed
Years of pain, torment, hell
Think of things different
Empathy the curse
Humanity the cause
Life makes it worse

Welcome pain
Welcome dark
Welcome death
Welcome to my empty shell
Fill me up
Make me whole
Just don't send me back again


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