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Sunflowers: Things Remembered
by Amalia Ryoko James
Mamoru sat in the dark solitary space of his apartment, contemplating Usagi's sudden change of heart. The radio (for some odd reason) was broadcasting American alternative music. He half-heartedly listened to it. The song was Sunflowers, by Everclear.
I know where you go when you want to fall
Why do you want to be broken?
That's true. I know where Usako is and what she's doing, but I wonder why. Is it me?
I know where you go when you want to fall
Yes your friends they tell me everything
Rei. For some reason she keeps telling me all this stuff about Usagi. She probably thinks I like her. I can't believe she likes me!
Yes I know where you go yes I know what you do
Yes I know the awful things you say and who you say them to
Yes I know where you go yes I know what you do
Usako. She's probably crying or eating her troubles away. Or talking to that cat. Like it could talk back.
I know how you feel you get crazy inside
They say it runs in the family
Her cousin. Man, that kid is weird. But I can't help being nice to her...odd...
I know just how you feel when you get crazy inside
Your mom she said that you are just like me
I probably shouldn't have talked to her mother while she was gone, but I had to. What Usako's going through is kind of like me, after the accident.
I can see it in your eyes I can see it in your shaky hands
I think you think I'm stupid you don't think I understand
I see you I see myself when I was a younger man
Yes. I can tell she's denying something. But she won't tell me. Confused, like when I was young.
When you were a child you were happy and free
You were my reason to live I would die when you smiled at me
I can still see you I remember you painting sunflowers in your room
She was still a child at fourteen. Then something happened, and she grew up fast. But I still see her as that child.
I know where you go when you want to fall
Your useless friends they tell me everything
She doesn't need them; why does she hang around with them: they only cause her pain. Except for Ami.
I see you run around in circles I see you digging your own hole
I see you fight the fights you just can't win I see you loosing self control
What it does to me deep down I hope you will never know
Your grief because of me is overwhelming; it's tearing me apart inside.
When you were a child you were happy and free
You were my reason to live I would die when you smiled at me
I can still see you painting flower on the wall
I remember you happy I remember it all
Happy. She was happy once...until me. Sunflowers; she was never a good drawer, but an ace at painting.
When you were a child you were happy and free
You were my reason to live I would die when you smiled at me
I can still see you I remember you painting sunflowers in your room
Painting. She was happy painting. Sunflowers, a symbol of happiness.
Sunflowers in your room
She painted over them...pale blue, almost white walls now. Like a funny farm.
All I want to remember pretty pictures on the wall
I remember you happy I remember it all
All I want to remember sunflower in your room
All I want to remember...Usako happy.
Sunflowers in your room.
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