Wishing Upon A Star

So today was the very anti-climatic observation. As it turns out they were not observing our teaching, but observing space, equity of services, if we were in a closet and isolated etc. I wish I’d known that ahead of time. It would have done a lot to allay my fears and to make me not feel as if I had to put on some sort of special lesson to impress them.

God forbid The Ice Queen should have let me know all this. And she DID know that was what they’d be looking for.

But it’s over.

The interview was more like a teacher test. It was a lot of being questioned on the law and how well I knew the ins and outs. Thank God I know this stuff as well as I do. I didn’t feel at all nervous or as if I was incapable of answering the questions they were asking me.

I can rattle off the law along with the best of them.

The interview did take almost an hour, so I was glad when that came to an end.

I felt as if I’d passed my teacher certification test (even though we don’t have to take one-yet). I would have studied the manual on the law a bit more if I’d know that was what I’d be gilled on, but I think it all went ok and that the guy who was interviewing me felt as if my answers were on the mark. He never questioned anything I said, nor did he feel the need to ask for clarifications.

So it’s all done.

I guess the next thing is to get a draft of the report they write where they point out our shortcomings and strengths.

We had a performance at an assisted living facility tonight. It was awful. We lacked energy and were basically feeling really confused during the entire performance.

Now I know that this is going to sound like sour grapes-which it is in part- but a great deal of the difficulty came from the emceeing. These two Queens decided to group songs together and do only one intro for the clump, which seems like a good plan, but the majority of us had no idea what the next song was going to be.

This makes me feel so unpolished and so unprofessional! There was all sorts of whispering going on as people are trying to figure out the songs, or the first word, and often the songs started poorly because many of us didn’t start in immediately for fear of being wrong. They had placards at the front of the stage that had the order of songs written on them,. But those of us in the back row were totally unable to see them. I couldn’t see the director’s face either as we weren’t on risers so I tried to keep her hands in sight.

I just don’t think that the grouping of songs works well at all.

Then there were the points of not saying "I" or giving history lessons. Well, they did both. So does this mean that the rules only apply when they want them to?

Sets my teeth on edge.

I plan to call the director tomorrow night so I can have it out with her.

I also thought it was strange that the chorus just ran out of the place when the performance was done. No lingering and laughing, just gone in a flurry.

All of this is giving me a huge headache and making me crazy. I’m going to have to figure out what my part is in this as soon as I can.

I want to feel as if I’m having fun again.

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