Standing here before you 
Tear filled eyes 
let you fill my head 
with all your selfish lies 
sight is blurred now 
not of fear 
Confusion, Denial 
you have brought me here 
Your touch is hot 
and burns my flesh 
But you eyes are cold 
leaving me a mess 
Insecurities you bring out 
I am nothing 
With your doubt 
Time will only heal this wound 
Or bring more pain 
complete my doom 
torn apart now 
and no one here 
lost my soul 
to you i bared 
Say that I should have knew 
after all those lies you threw? 
A weak little puppet 
and you own my strings 
questioning you 
and the trouble 
you bring... 
 


Beautiful child 
velvet green eyes 
I remember the sparkle 
that they now hide 
how can a child 
become so old 
how can her world 
become so cold 
tell me the answer 
give me the cure 
please make this young girl 
feel pain no more 
the drugs have worn off 
all her friends are gone 
lives with her family 
but feels on her own 
does what shes told to 
and swallows her pain 
with a pill and some water 
that her new shrink gave 
tell me the answer 
give me the key 
because this young child 
appears to be me



Why do I let you affect me? 
Why does it feel its my fault? 
Why do I get so angry 
When Im bringing it all on myself? 
What is the point of me living? 
When you tell me that no one here cares? 
Why is it just you that notices 
That what they see is digust in their stares? 
Look at that girl so pathetic 
Why did god make her this way? 
Why is she even still breathing? 
Is what you tell me they say 
So I just sit her and wonder 
Is this all true, what I hear? 
It runs through my head every moment 
Asking why is it that Im still here? 

 

My daddy he told me he loved me 
But that was a long time ago 
My daddy he said forever 
But that was a lie also 
Through good and bad i had him 
But i never knew the cost 
Because days for me are harder 
And he's not around so Im lost 
My daddy once said he loved me 
But that was a long time ago 
I guess I've outgrown that lie 
I guess that I'll never know 
 


Why did I let him love me? 
Why did I let him stay? 
Why do I ask these questions 
When I allready know what you'll say 
Everything will work out for you 
He must not have been the one 
Love is a game that we all play 
I thought games were suposed to be fun 

 

when we first met so lost and unsure 
not knowing eachothers names 
yet we were drawn by within 
days passed and we met again 
everyday together seemed so right 
time passed and feelings i thought changed 
interest started to wander 
cant dwell on a few mistakes 
but the last night w/ u changed it all 
the long night walks 
embrace on the sand 
the sunrise isnt as beutiful as what we share 
i ask for u to b the one 
as i begin to trust you w/ my heart 
please dont let me down 
like so many others have 
take my hand kiss my cheek 
and if u say u love me and i begin to cry 
dont draw back if i want to hide 
the love u draw comes deep inside 
and emotion that follows to u i confide 
to trust in you seems to scare me 
but i can see it all changin slowly 


 
Six month today since u left me babe. 
Not by direct decision. 
But at the will of their conditions. 
Told me you'd be there forever and you are. 
For without your faith i would never come this far. 
Not around pysically but i still feel your here. 
Hard to think that youve been gone a half a year...



So they say the good die young. 
Why should the innocent leave. 
And the evil proceed. 
Sweet young angels 
never have a chance. 
For their life is takin 
in one loud blast. 
And all theyve endored 
and all theyve learned. 
Left as is, 
nothing returned.



Leaning on a spiderweb
Holding to a string
Had no idea what all this would bring
My floor beneath me crumbled, I fell
Entombing me into my personal hell
Perhaps its my fault i didnt see
what i was molding you into be
Now i see no brite days
The sun on me casts no rays
All i see is dark of nite
Sitting alone, drowning in frite
My body, it still aches for you
Wishing you felt that way too
You play my head with such ease
Why cant i just outplay this tease
My heart is fading slowly away
Pleading this pain wont last another day



My body becomes numb
My knees are weak
My eyes are hot 
Holding back tears
Looking back over these years
A common system a game we have
Yet sobs replace my laugh
And you still look away
say i can trust you 
that you wont leave me again
I collapse and you win



Not many people have the opportunity to meet
Their gaurdian angel before theyre deceased
But for me this was not the case
For I met mine face to face
No ones quite sure why life's set up this way
What the value of events are in each passing day
In my eyes I see a lesson to learn
For every brite side of every dark turn
Tho looking thru misery is difficult to do
You must pick up the pieces and begin anew
Loss is a terrible trauma to bed
But growin an learnin will put yu ahead