Sometimes I Believe You

you say that i am useless
you say that i am wrong
you say that i am lazy
nothing i do ever pleases you.
i am never good enough,
smart enough,
fast enough.
and when you say this
sometimes i believe you.

i try to make myself strong
tell myself that what you say doesn't matter
but it does
and sometimes i believe you.

sometimes when my resolve breaks just a little
your comments seep in
and i believe you
and i hate myself for that
and i hate myself for letting you make me feel this way
and i hate myself for believing you.

i know in my heart that you are wrong.
that i am strong,
that i am capable,
that i am intelligent,
but sometimes when i am not looking
or when i am not thinking clearly
i still believe you.

and it is those little times that matter the most
and make me look at my life differently.
and make me think.
and cause a little part of my spirit to die.

By: mia

Unspoken Words
Seemingly Insane