I will tell you before I start on this that all of my poetry is for you, the reader, as well as it is for me. However, please, never try to subject my writing to your scrutiny as to what it may be about. Read it and relate, and bear in mind I'm using myself as a mirror when I write because most of these thoughts are readily conceivable to anyone.
Oh, and also:
The ugliness in life is so fucking beautiful sometimes.
L.V.X.
-VI
"And though you never see me, please know I'm always there.
And if I justly can't be, do not forget I care."
- -VI
No Change
Water
Go Ahead And Let Go
This was actually turned into a song.
Psychic Vampire
Fade Before I Dissipate
Old Friends
Jungian Theory
18 Inches Of Space
Scarecrow
Cape May
Blurb
Take
I Fell
I fell apart on the side of the road today,
And I swear I watched God shatter every fucking piece of me.
I fell asleep on the side of the road today,
I was carrying a load, that was way too fucking heavy.
I fell just up the street from where I live today,
And I watched you,
I watched you,
I watched you,
Walk away from me.
I fell,
I fell,
I fell
On the side of the great blue highway,
The pressure, the hunger, the weakness,
Building.
Up.
Inside.
x 3.
Come on,
Writhe with me,
and kiss my twitches.
Fuck my flesh,
While dreaming what you('re) may-be missing,
I never want to be in pain near you again,
I never want to go home,
Home is fucking heartless.
No Change
No hanging onto your safety,
No reality attached,
Suddle any glimpse of certainty.
And of course, there's no changing things.
So happy when I'm in the sights of a raging stubborn bull.
No commitment,
No real attachment,
No suddle certainty.
And of course no changing things.
So happy when I'm in your sights,
And so lonely here without you,
Smooth, and sweaty, and so tight,
And wet like a sticky venue.
Let's go for a walk,
Down a jealousy soaked avenue,
I imagine she looks something like..
He just might fit good in you..
I feel like my fingers are,
Massaging your confusion,
I feel like my knuckles are,
Bruising up your patience.
All along were my fists,
Still oozing with this, For so long, there was blurred and blind; I can't take it.
Water
The Water changes,
Like I change,
But stays the same.
It swishes around,
Like a dress, in vein.
Trying to sparkle and to sing,
To just sprout a pair of wings overnight.
But where the water takes flight,
The dress is on the ground,
Soiled and stepped over,
'Till it's no longer tight.
'Till you know it's not right.
And it wakes up to sparkles and to ripples,
And to carpools,
And the city around her has her,
Tidal waving up a taxi cab,
For a our moon pulls no tide,
Without a flicker somewhere deep and black.
Go Ahead And Let Go
Go ahead and let go,
Honoured man.
Go on, become another moth flying,
Toward the lights.
I hope the music I've showed you comforts you,
On and On and through the nights.
I feel as used by you as you do by me,
He just needs his space, and needs no 'sorries'.
Open your eyes, I'm not your wife.
I didn't want to just get high,
In fact, all I've done is worry.
See, I can't help if you're feeling scared,
Or putting a wet towel over a friendship,
Because you weren't prepared for a mistake.
Go on, make it or break it this pox that one saw fit,
Oh, some odd-thousand years ago.
You're being as unture to yourself,
As you're being to everybody else,
He just needs some space, to think about forgiving me.
Just fall back into the hurt they taught you.
And take no apoligies.
Open your eyes,
I'm not the devil in disguise,
And now all you'll see is lies,
Well, I'd like a little bit more respect from you, please.
So go ahead, let go.
Psychic Vampire
Sp uninspired and so dressed up,
With nowhere to hide.
What must life be like for this ornate,
She-Vampire.
Not deserving of such a magical title,
The expense of which she adorns herself,
With one isolated gesture.
Is there really anywhere to take this distance,
Does it lead each of its rivers towards denial?
Move one seat farther.
Get off the train.
Choose direction of another way.
Fade Before I Dissipate
Playing with the machine,
Where strange men, unbroken, still enough,
To be offering their nicotine, caffeine,
And their sympathy, and change.
For convience sake.
For Christs' sake.
How long will I sit here, How long will this take?
And should I wait? A deep psychological questioning.
This food so sick in colour,
But so thick in taste,
Shove it in my hungriness,
And tear apart this old state.
I'll explode before I dissipate,
Unleash the flames and tidal waves,
That we make, when we break unto flood gates.
My watery world opening up around me,
But why can't I see?
Why wouldn't you let me see it?
Was I imagining something?
A spray or a mist of disbelief?
We've swam around this before.
Can I please see?
Old Friends
Just give me everything, } x2
And I will give it back. } x2
Impatience and good intents,
Are a waste of precious time,
If I continue with this song and dance,
My love for you will die. Although I've know you well-enough,
Through all the years to twist my spine,
I also know you to be such a fucking twit at telling lies.
All those broken ties,
At least I severed my own.
Jungian Theory
Synchronicity,
My idols were just like me.
And hopfully not unlucky,
While pilfering this song of uncertainty,
As I always thought this would be,
The place where I would see,
All that I have never been,
The land what walks inside a dream.
18 Inches Of Space
I can't see behind your shades, Take them off id you're not afraid,
Aghain, I'm close to late for a job I hate,
And I'm hard-pressed for my 18 inches of space,
And a thousand miles away from loves' embrace.
A new page is fresh with dust.
All those bodies surrounding in such a close proximity,
Suck the thought-filled poet dry at times.
Scarecrow
You lonely fucking man,
You burn like a scarecrow that cannot fend to save his makers' land.
You crossed the wires,
You dialed the numbers,
You do what you can.
Heal the land over,
And let the shift prevent your burning.
All of this worlds' miseries,
Add up to thinking you cease after death.
Cape May
Ride away early in the morning,
With your helmet,
Looking like a dick,
Maybe I'm the prick,
Maybe I'm the prick.
Stringent with the rule of thumb,
And dumb.
And I wonder if he likes it,
Could he find a better way,
To enjoy his shit authority.
Ride away, early in the morning,
Little boy with a helmet,
Looking like a penis,
Maybe I'm the prick,
Maybe I'm the prick,
Maybe he likes it this way.
So hey, hey, HEY!!!?!?
Did you notice me,
Through all your big dreams?
I'm analyzing scrutiny,
Heirchy, beurocracy, sincerity, and above all, considderation.
Did you put my name into the lyrics that you sang
So hey, hey, HEY!!!?!?
Did you hear or even see me?
Take everything to your place,
All the words down and away,
Take it all,
And seperate your thoughts from mine.
Disconnect our heads.
Watch us both just start to die.
But, smile.
You're still alive.
And your life is on fire.
So brag a while like you've already got it made.
Because you want the Michael Jackson money?!
Band the Cape May,
Come what be mousy,
But modest,
Nay!
Blurb
Go to the nice spot,
Covered in my fingernails.
Can never get it perfect.
Keeps on chewing,
And can't stop.
So I'll pick for a bit.
I want a prison,
For my head,
Lock it up to heal it.
I am so tired,
As his voice sings,
Silently.
I wanna be one of you,
I always have,
But I'm an outcast.
Am I far too desperate?
Desperately enough?
Or am I just a thief?
What is a good grief?
When will this pass?
Himself
He has a special something. He must.
He is a ray of moonlight. He's dust.
He has a hollow head of dreams and love,
Yet he is somehow the embodiment of my lust.
Come save me,
I want the whole world to see us fuck
it up.
I want to be on top,
of it,
And have you there to help,
Clean me up.
In all of our imperfections,
I can see grace in you.
And though I know you may be my undoing,
I still want you.
Realize you have me held here like a baby,
Like I do you.
Maybe I'm being presumptuous to think this,
But I could save you.
And you know it.
Come save me,
I want the whole world to see us fuck.
it up.
I want to be on top,
of it,
And have you there to help,
Clean me up.
Taking
A monochrome personality,
Is a fit thing for leaning on into the green.
Take my flowers and eat the leaves,
But you have always taken me.
I need this to satiate,
In a sense to seek forgiveness,
For my enamored sake.
Take the cherry, bury the pit,
How many lifetimes will this take?
Because I can wait,
Only for you,
But I will consecrate this.
I will make you animated.
I won't have you,
Take me out another way.
Take it to taking everybody all away,
Their misunderstandings.
Take away the vision that is blinding,
It's warm here inside.
I'll teach you of love, and of fear, and of pride.
I will show you that this is all.
Ours for the taking,
It's Ours for the taking this time.