Hi i'm Celine and i'm 14 almost 15. I have an older sister called Nina but no brothers. My mother was killed when I was a baby and my father is a financial director of a car company. I like to paint and draw. Anytime of the day I feel like drawing, I always carry a sketch book around with me just so I can record my life in pictures. I especially love to draw people when they don;t know i'm drawing them. Sitting on the train or in the park, people are so natural. On eof my favourate pictures that I drew was of a young man playing with his mobile phone I just thought, "yup, that is what it's like nowadays- people playing with their mobile phones" i was inspired. I also love to listen to music and draw what it makes me feel wheather it's happy, sad, sexy, angry whatever it does I draw it or paint it. Some songs reflect shapes and others colours. Eminem's "Stan" is colour to me. Alot of grays and blacks all trying to hide something yet there's some yellows and oranges in there, just about. I'm a heavily emotional person and very serious. I like to watch people, watch them in the streets behaving the way they normally do. Or to look at their disguises, women with their figure hugging clothes and makeup- are they really happy with themselves,and the greebo's and gothics which seem oh too popular right now. They strive to be individual yet they all look the same in the end. What are they hiding from. They want to show the world that they are who they are yest they mask themselves in big clothes and dark makeup. Why the contradiction? They all wear their "Satan Rules" sweatshirts but why? It is because they are afraid. they are afraid to admit that they believe in God becuase it is easier to believe in Satan. It is easier to be bad than it is to be and do good. Theire "Vote Satan" tee-shirt prooves their instability to me. It is easier to put your faith in Satan, honour him so that if their is a hell and you end up going you can be friends with him? Then they say they don't believe in God. How can you believe in Satan when you don't believe in God? Satan is only there because he is the scapegoat for all that is wrong with the christian religion. If you question God's way you essentially go to hell, if you don't do what God say's you go to hell. That would make God and Satan a team then? People should question themselves more. We are our own God, their is no one there to decide for us, no scapegoat, no one to save us, we are our own selves and must live out lives as best we can. Not so we can go to heaven, but so that we have made something out of this unexplicable device called Life. My mother was murdered when I was a few months old and to make me feel good about i'm told that she's smiling down on me from heaven. My mother died without any fault of her own, was it really her time to go? Was that the plan that God had mapped out for her? Everything was great in her life, a wonderful handome husband, good prospects in her chosen career, a daughter and just given birth to another. All that was mapped out for her by fate by fate also determined that she would be brutilly murdered. Cheer's God. To be honest I don't think she's smiling down at me. Wherever she is she's angry full of redemption of having everything taken away from her. So God, is that what she was repaid with for being a good Christian? Religion is the governments way of stopping us having a full opinion. We are frightened to do "bad" because we will burn in hell for all eternity yet we are not given proof. I asked a priest once why are their so many contradictions in the bible and he said to me "Do not question the bible." then I asked how do I know that it's all true and he said "because it is told to us in the bible." i an never given any straight answers, I wish they'd just admit it and say we don't know. We can't prove to you that God exists sorry. But they continue to force feed us these truths and we swallow it down without question. But just don't fear of being judged by God and going to hell because didn't he say, "Do no judge lest thee be judged."? or doesn't that apply to him?
Midi featured:"STAN" (Eminem) Midi performed by Katz and Yates 2001
