I walked around the city wearing my disguise.
A fishing hat, a trench coat and sunglasses, I kept my head low, on the lookout for trouble.
I was on my way to Steph's. It was about time I had a serious talk with that girl. That is what Kevin had said to me anyway. As for A.j., well, he can be sirious, but ill bet he was just really hyper that night.
'Ill go to him for advice later. I'm sure he'll haev some good stuff that doesnt not involves pelvic thrusts.' But trust A.J. to sum it up in three easy letters. S. E. X. I chuckled, that guy was hilarious.
I walked up to the intercom thing at her apartment. I knew her code was 327, but I was hesitant to dial it. Maybe I could pretend I was Brian....
Too late. my fingers had already done the work without me thinking about it.
"Yo?" Steph answered her intercom. I drew in a breath.
"Guess who." I tried to sound cheery and perky, but I don't think it worked.
"Oh." She said, I couldn't read her expression, but she didn't sound to pleased. "It's you."
"Uh, yeah... can I come in?"
"Whatever." Seconds later I heard the buzzing noise that meant the door was unlocked. I ran over and pulled the door open as fast as I could. Knowing Steph, she would only keep it on for a matter of seconds.
Now I was stading outside her door. I braced myself. What if we caused a scene? That janitor already hated me from previous fights. I knocked and slowly opened the door. Peering inside, i saw her, sitting o the couch, trying to watch t.v. As N'sync appeared on much music, she grabbed the remote and turned the t.v. off. I cleared my throat. She looked at me, startled, and got up from the couch.
"Uh, hi." I said in my trying-to-sound-casual voice. She looked at me.
"Why did you come?" She asked suspicioucly.
"We have to talak, we cannot just leave any of this unsolved. I dont think you realize how agonizing this is. Eer since i became a backstreet boy i wondered if any of my girlfreinds liked me for who i really was. When i started to date you, I didnt even stop to question it. What did i do wrong?" There, i had asked her straight out.
She sighed. She looked at rhe ground. It seemed as if she did everything at that moment except to answer my question. Finally she spoke.
"There is nothing you did wrong." She said, still looking at the floor. "I just don't love you anymore."
Ouch.
"But, I still love you." I said. Ugh, a familiar wetness that I had grown accustomed to graced my face again.
Steph didn't look at me. She brushed her eyes with her hand. "I don't know what I can say." I knew what i wanted her to say.
"Then tell me why you've stopped loving me so suddenly."
"Nick it's not that i dont care for you. It's not that i dont have feelings for you. But this way is better. I friendship will last forever. Dating doesn't always last forever."
"So... you dumped me because it wouldn't last forever?" I was starting to get really angry. This didn't make any sense! "How do you know it wouldn't last forever? And what kind of frienship is this?" I screamed.
Finally, she looked at me. Tears glistend in her eyes. I instantly felt like the worst person on earth. It was horrible how she could do that to me!
"Maybe I was scared Nick, okay? Maybe I loved you too much! How can you be mad at me when you don't even know. You have no clue, do you?" She walked over to the couch and slouched down on it. Why was I angry? I wasn't angry, i was upset. Didn't understand? Didn't understand what? Was i the worst person on earth? Was there some big obvious punchline that i was sapose to get? scared? Of what? Me?
"Nick, you should go." I heard her say.
But it was too late, because I was already out the door.
