Fear
by Nadene
sometimes, i dream that i would kill you
fistful of black hair, i will tip your head back to me and caress your neck
with the silver blade
i will kill you because i loved you, because i still do
because then maybe i could push you from my mind
i want to go back in time and erase you
prevent your parents from creating you, so i could never have met you
i'm falling down again
farther than i've been into the black
your red blood against your white skin, blue eyes, black hair
why did we meet?
i thought i'd find what i'd spent lifetimes searching for
sometimes, i am so stupid
stupid, ugly, worthless, dumb
i am nothing, an aching, black hole, so empty
it seems you never really knew me
i still want to show you, know you
close my eyes, darkness seeping
have you known fear, my love?
darkness close around me, evil, so alive and breathing
it exhales in my ear and i smell you
did you hear my songs of needing and despair?
they've changed. love and hate are blurred and indistinguishable
i guess i've always known that i hated you
my mistake, love
there must be no turning back
what i write is what i make is what i know is what i've done
there's no here darling
save yourself
i could set you free my darling
you think freedom is yours and yours alone
you've never known what i do
so trapped, you're as alone as i am, so ashamed
no one but yourself
but neither of us have ever liked ourselves
we both listened to Metallica and faded into the black
i've known so much more evil than you've seen
thin rays of light still show in you, your aura, your soul, your song
take the time to listen to mine
songs of cold thoughts and your body dead
you'd still be beautiful in death, even more so
i'd like to see your reaction of you saw this
would you fear? you lied to me always
you pushed, shoved, and let me fall
a long night, tonight, morning's hours away
but that can't save you
for me, it's always night with no stars or no moon
do you still want to die, my dear?
call out to me, my true name
call me pain, call me suffering, call me nightmare
sweet, sweet dreams, my love
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