I've grown shallow, coarse, so full of hate
I try to fight off what I can't sedate
Yeah, they hurt me so bad I wish I was dead
And now nothing I'm seeing dosen't have red
They hurt me as deep as anything could
Now there's a hole where mu kindness once stood
I've tried to fight off all this hate and this rage
But nothing will ever remain in it's cage
Why is it that these things that I seek
Leave me so hollow, angry and meek
I curse all of you for the love you've not shown
And I curse this deep chill that's set in my bones
you were my friends and I loved you so dear
But now that I'm back I wish I were not here
you once were as close as family to me
But I fell off that boat and I'm lost in this sea
When I was young you were all there
Now all of my love is tossed in the air
I lie in this room and wish you could see
That I'm not the way I used to be
Chris Townsend
August 26th 1998
