7/26 went to youth group last night..suprisingly i had a good time...still have kinda mixed feelings about going though. there are a lot of comforting people there though. and i just got done talking to christian, he is the man. oh well i'll figure out how i feel later..right now i'm off to see laughing colors...yay! 7/18 i know i know i haven't written in this lately but i'm lazy. i have had an unexplainable feeling of happieness and content for a while now. i dont' know what it is. but the band is going SOOOO great, i've never been more proud of anything in my entire life. and i am so in love with tory. i guess life is just really good lately. i got to hang out with katie today (i haven't seen her in forever) she is so rad and she is proof of the saying that you don't appreaciate what you have till it's gone. i really did miss her more than i thought. i think we are gonna go catch a movie tomorrow. i love my friends...i think they are another reason i have been so happy lately. oh and tomorrow is Kelley's last day....HELL YEAH NO MORE BITCH...sorry is that cruel...should i care...i dunno...but i dont' think i do...oh well. i go on vaction soon too...i miss the beach, i love it there; surrounded by people that i love, and the ocean and i dunno it's just really fun. like i said life is good and a lot of good things are happening. i think that suffices for an entry :P oh well if it doesn't ....i should really write in this more often...oh well. 7/8 i have come to the conclusion that i am lazy cause i never right in this thing anymore...i have really felt on a *band* level lately (if that makes anysense) prolly not...oh well....bye now 7/2 spent soo much time with hybred lately that people come up to me after a show and go "hey your band kicks ass"...that's about the extent of what i've done. tory gets back tuesday..yay! 6/28 got paid tonight (not enough though) and the hybred show tonight got cancled which is in a way good cause it means that i won't have to have missed it. tomorrow i go to get rad clothes at a thrift store. and this weekend is full of hybred. yay...i'm outie. 6/26 today was SSSOOOOOO COOOOL. heather, johnny, steve and i went to six flags...johnny and steve got me addicted to roller coasters. and i'm still really hyper so i'm not goin to bed. i really miss tory :( i really wanted to be with her and be holding her like all day :( she returns in a week though. well bye ya'll i'm leaving 6/24 got to drive a lot today and got the fenix*tx cd and got an email from tory. other than that nothing really exciting went on today. 6/23 i'm at my dad's, that's not cool. i don't like it here. my stepmother is a bitch and my dad well grr i won't even get into it, but for the first time since like forever i've got that little kid feeling where all i can think about is "i wanna go home" :( on top of that i really miss tory...the one thing i want the most right now is to be holding her in my arms.....on a bright note, i got the new MxPx cd, and it rules. i'm gonna go now bye 6/21 kellie was a bitch as usual, danel gave me a ride home so thanks to him for that. item16 has a site now and things are going great for us so i'm really happy and i am talking to a million people right now so i'm gonna go 6/20 things have been exploding with good lately, i hung out with aubrey and all such today, and got emails from tory and now eric(local) and i are friends again. i'm really happy ...life has just been great lately....i'm gonna go now :) 6/18 today was awesome, i went over heather's and we went to the pool and then her and alyssa and i went to 7-11 and got caught in a LOT of rain and alyssa redid my hair and yeah it was a blast tata for now. 6/17 i'm actually in love. tory hasn't even left the country and i already cried tonight. the last four days of my life were the best, it was like i was living with her (cause really i was) i am sooo in love with her. i would write about all the stuff that went on but that would take a whole lot of effort. so :P 6/14 mmmmm band practice was awesome, we got alot accomplished. still need to work on a couple of things but that is expected. i get to see tory tonight YAY!!! :) i'm listening to goldfinger right now if you don't have the new cd then get it cause it's rad. the paycheck that i am getting today will unfortunetely be used up quickly cause i need a number of things for my guitar. oh well can't complain about using my money to fuel my passion. well i have to go to work now....bye 6/13 got sent home from work two hours early cause kellie is a stupid bitch, it's like "hey i'll send jason home even though he is willing to work unlike a certain fat-ass i know." oh well less work for me to do. unfortunetely that means less pay. i get to see tory tomorrow, but she leaves for ireland saturday. not seeing her for almost a month is gonna suck.. i know we can get through it but it is gonna suck. at least item16 will have a lot of practice time...speaking of which i have practice all day tomorrow, i can't wait i've been going through like practice withdraw. i'm gonna go now....by the way i'm glad it's summer. 6/12 a lot of social stuff been going on lately cause it's summer, i'd sit here and explain but i don't feel like it and i have to get working on this site (which i will prolly cop out on but that's ok.) i'm on the fone with heather right now, she is messing around with her site too. think about that, we are both dorks. "hey can i call you just so i can sit here and work on a computer and not talk to you" "uh yeah sounds good maybey i'll do the same" GAY GAY GAY oh well i'm outie. 6/9 YAY i'm out of school. ok that's cool and tory is gonna be here really soon. with the exception of veronica, the freshman (that i know) at arundle oh yeah and except jed, are really immature. 6/7 i have been trying to get in contact with tory for a while and i can't :( i really need to talk to her. i got done my first two exams today. we went to the food court afterwards, and i ran into johnny and danielle there so i hung out and got a ride home with them. thats about all for now, tomorrow is my last day of school, and i get to dye my hair too. well i'm gonna go now. bye. 6/6 i didn't get to talk to tory today :*( i'm a sad panda. anyway my sister had her 8th grade graduation today. i don't think she knows how many great experiences she has ahead of her. although she has a pretty good idea of the great experiences she has behind her. i have my first day of exams tomorrow, so i only have a half day. i'm gonna try to go to hot topic with heather and steve tomorrow, but that looks doubtful. i'm very tired. and i can't think of anything else to say. oh wait i was thinking about how angelfire was gay and deleted my journal, and the more i think about it the more it pisses me off becasue for the last 2 months of my life, i actually bothered to write down what was going on and how i felt about it, and now that is gone. grr. but there is nothing i can do about it. i need to write an email to my dad letting him know what's going on with my life...not something that i have to do, but something that i want to do. well i'm gonna go....wow i think i actually covered alot of things in this entry. 6/5 today was cool cause i have one more day of classes and then 2 half days of exams. so i get to dye my hair thursday, and see tory friday. speaking of which, i love her. we talked till like midnight tonight about all the stuff we've done in our relationship and we realized that there hasn't been a single bad moment. everything is perfect. she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. i now officially run sound for angelfire, and i will be doing so friday. i think joleen is gonna use my pedal board too. oh veronica told me that ADD needs a guitarist to fill for them at a show on saturday, so i told her i would do it. she's gonna get back to me and hopefully everything will work. well, i'm gonna go now. 6/4 *smiles* this weekend rocked...rocking the field was great, and kenny i got to sing deftones with hybred, and we broke the stage. and i am sooooooooooooo in love with tory. bye bye now 6/2 just got back frome angelfire/forever AD/emphatic/margret heater show. it was really good and i got to rund sound for AF on this really nice mixer and it turned out well. although i'm still a rookie, joleen said i could prolly run sound for them permanantly(i think i just spelled that wrong. i am like freaking head over heals (as always) for tory. lets see what else. i have SAT's tomorrwo which sucks but the good thing is i go right from SAT's to Rock n' the Field. and i am gonna go crazy watching hybred...ok i think that is everything. bye now. 5/31 Well i set my journal back up as you can see but i set it up in basic editor so angelfire might fag out on me and delete it again, but we will see. i got my paycheck today, not nearly as week as i thought it would be....$165.51 oh yeah and the afformentioned problem has been solved and i feel really relieved now. that's pretty much all that is important so i'm out.