Mood:  lazy

I meant to post yesterday but I was swamped with work. Today isn’t much better but I took a break to drink some coffee and to catch you up on what has been going on.

My stomach is finally back to normal (I hope). I stayed close to home all weekend except for a trip to the fabric store with Amber and a trip to the dog park to get rid of some of Potter’s energy. Amber and I did attempt to go to dinner Saturday night and then out for a drink or two but I just wasn’t feeling well enough to make it through the night. Sorry Amber! I really did try.

For some reason this weekend was a bit rough for me and it wasn’t just because of my stomach. I was really missing Lennie and with PMS hormones running amuck, caused me to break down in tears off and on. I got to speak to Lennie on Sunday as well as his mom so that made things a little better. There are just some days when things don’t go to plan and I just long to curl up in the chair with Lennie and have him hold me they way he does with my head on his chest listening to his heart beat and smelling his cologne. I know that everyone tells me he will be home soon but when I am missing him this much no of that consoles me.

This weekend was also Father’s Day which was hard for me as well. My Father and I don’t really get along and never have really. Being out and seeing all the Fathers with their children makes me a little jealous and a little sad because I never had that. Except for a once in a blue moon fishing trip, I never spent any time with my Father. I don’t think he ever forgave me for not being a boy. He and my sister were close (until their falling out) because she enjoy many of the same things that he did. Because I wasn’t interested in football and hunting we just didn’t have much in common and he never took the time to find out what really interested me. He didn’t even go with us to Disney World. I feel sorry for him because I see what he is missing out on.

Today the weather is gorgeous and I really wish we could close down and spend the day on the lake. But alas I have a pile of paperwork in my desk that needs to be done .I hope everyone is having a great week. I have just started my 10 day straight duty shift so I won’t bee seeing a day off in awhile.