Why am I always in the dark?
Mood:  irritated
I came into work this morning to find the power out...again. I don't know why they can't seem to get the problem fixed. Apparently there is exposed wire somewhere in the ground that is shorting everything out. The worst part is...the power is only out in phase I which includes where my desks sits. So my cubical is dark and I haven't any internet access. So right now I am sitting in the corner at the back of the office typing away on an old laptop. *sigh* Hopefully the power will be back on soon. I have SOOOOO much work to do today.

On a lighter note: I watched another good movie last night, "Akeelah and the Bee."

With an aptitude for words, 11-year-old Akeelah Anderson (Keke Palmer) is determined to spell her way out of South Los Angeles, entering scores of local contests and eventually landing a chance to win the Scripps National Spelling Bee in Washington, D.C. Despite discouragement from her mother (Angela Bassett), Akeelah gets support from her bookish tutor (Laurence Fishburne), her principal (Curtis Armstrong) and proud members of her community.

In the movie Akeelah is studying with her tutor when he asks her what she wants to do with her life. She shrugs and says she doesn't know. He then gets up and asks her to read the words in a frame on the wall. This is what it said...

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves -- Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are we not to be?" Taken from Dream of this by: Marianne Williamson

Wow! How true is that? A lot of us go through life not knowing what great potential lies before us because we don't believe enough in ourselves.

Hearing that quote made me remember a poem that a friend shared with me a few years ago. I posted it on my old blog and I often read it from time to time when I get discourage with my life and the people it it. I thought I would repost again for those of you have never seen it.


Desiderata by: Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.


Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.


Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.


Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.


You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.


Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.


With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Kinky Boots and the Big Reveal
Mood:  mischievious


Did that grab your attention? LOL

No this is not going to be an x-rated post so you don't have to make your kids leave the room. Sorry if I got your hopes up.

Let's start off with the "Kinky Boots" part of the title shall we?

Kinky Boots is the name of a movie I happened to watch this weekend. Several months ago I heard a critic talk about how he saw this movie at Sundance and how much he loved it. I thought it would be enjoyable so I decided to add it to my Netflix list. It arrived Friday and I popped it in. What a FANTASTIC movie!!! It had drama, comedy, and a few "tissue" momentst. It was just a good story about not being afraid to be yourself. Below is an overview of the movie and a link to the trailer. Read it...watch the trailer then run out and rent the movie.

Based on a true story. Charlie Price thinks he has finally escaped the dead-end industrial town of Northampton with ambitious fiancee Nicola, when his father suddenly passes away, leaving Charlie unexpectedly in charge of the sinking family business in sturdy shoes. Trapped between a world of cheap knock-offs and to-die-for Jimmy Choos, Price & Sons seemingly doesn't need a manager so much as it needs a savior. With mounting dread, Charlie soon realizes that to even stay afloat he's going to have to lay off many of his dad's loyal, life-long employees. Then, one dark night in Soho, Charlie is literally smacked in the face with an idea that could bring the factory roaring back to life. When Charlie meets tough, tender Lola and her teetering high heels, everything changes. They might come from completely different walks of life, but both men have reached a point where they have nothing to left to lose by taking a risk. Deciding to buck tradition and boring loafers, Charlie sets out to conquer the brave new world of sexy cross-dressing footwear, with Lola as his fashion advisor. But it isn't just the assembly line that the disarming Lola transforms. As the make-or-break Milan fashion show approaches, everyone in the factory--from the macho Don to the stalwart Mel to Charlie's confidante Lauren--finds the unlikely dreams of Lola and Charlie catching fire.


Kinky Boots Trailer

Now onto the big reveal and the moment you have all been waiting for. Okay maybe not all of you but I am sure at least some of you.

As most of you know by now...my friend Marie and I have decided to go to a Renaissance Festival...in costume. Now before you start saying, "Oh Lord she os one of THOSE kinds of people!", let me just say this is the first time I have ever gone to one of these things in costume. Normally I go in plain clothes and I mostly attend for the food and the story telling, not to mention it is a great place to do some people watching. But I am always up for an advanture and I always enjoy doing things outside the norm. So I took the challenge and decided to make my own dress. I started it back in June and about a week ago I finally finished it. It was a lot of work. More so than I thought it would be. It has some flaws but,I don't think it is too bad for my first attempt. I have promised that I would post some pictures when it was finally complete, so here they are. Enjoy!


Rennaissance Dress Pictures

Stingrays are not evil creatures
Mood:  not sure
Like the rest of the world I was saddened by Steve Irwin's death. I was not a fan of the show, mainly because I thought his antics encouraged people to take risks around wildlife and invade their space. I saw this first hand in my first year with the park service when some idiot thought he would pretend to be the crocodile hunter and tried to pick up a timber rattlesnake to impress his girlfriend. He ended up getting bite and having to go to the hospital. Luckily timber rattlesnake venom is not lethal in most cases but the whole thing could have easily been avoided if the man had respected the snakes space.

I do however agree with the message the Steve was trying to get out there. Just because something has scales instead of fur and would rather bite your head off than cuddle on the couch with you, it still has a purpose on this planet.

The news has been filled with stuff about Steve, which is normal when someone so popular dies. But last night I saw something that really irritated me. I believe it was on one of those entertainment news shows. They were trying to scare the public into thinking that stingrays are these evil creatures that are out to hurt humans. The basic message was that stingrays often strike without warning. This is SOOOOOO not true. I get so mad when the news tries to villainies an animal just because someone was hurt by it. The public then gets scared and wants to eliminate said animal from the planet. Steve would not stand for this and neither do I.

Stingrays are, for the most part, very gentle creatures. I had a chance to swim with them while on vacation in the Cayman Islands. They enjoyed being touched by humans and even seemed to enjoy swimming with us. After they had been fed they could have easily swam away but they stayed until the last person got out of the water. At one point while I was snorkeling along a ray past me and circled back and came up on my side. It was sort of like it was checking me out. Maybe it was laughing at the way I looked in my snorkel and mask. I found the whole thing to be very therapeutic and to this day it is one of my fondest memories.

But like every creature, even humans, it will defend itself if it feels like it is endangered. I truly believe that is what happened in this case. It was said that Steve was on one side of it and the camera man was on the other. The poor thing felt trapped and struck. I don't believe its intent was to kill Steve. Just injure him enough so that the ray could get away.

There is no reason why everything on this planet can't co-exist. I don't think anyone of us would enjoy a stranger coming into our homes and poking around or getting too close to us. Animals are the same way. So just give them the respect and space they need

Love holiday weekends
Mood:  not sure
I love having off 3 days in a row. Although my internal alarm clock woke me up yesterday at 5:30. *sigh* It's okay though...I wanted to get some hiking in anyway.

Saturday Marie and I had our massages. A half hour massage wasn't nearly long enough for my aching back but it has helped. Still searching for my hunky masseur. I have yet to receive any application. Maybe in OCT I can afford the 1 hour deep tissue massage. After the massage we sat in the sauna for what felt like an eternity but was probably only 20 or 30 minutes. Then we were off to lunch and some retail therapy, where Marie convinced me that my life would not be complete until I owned a corset...so I bought one. It was on sale and it wasn't another pair of JEANS! So proud of myself. We finally got back to my place about 5PM and Marie pinned the hem on my dress for me and she headed home. Thanks for everything Marie! It was a fun day.

Sunday I did a lot of "me" things around the apt. I sewed the hem of my dress and ironed the whole thing. I have someone coming over next weekend hopefully to help me take some pictures of it. I then did some laundry and cleaned the litter box. About 6PM Tanya and Andy showed up at my apt and we talked about what we could do on Monday. We then decided to go hiking (not Tanya's favorite activity) up at Hanging Rock. Andy called some friends and they agreed to meet us there in the morning. All this talk about physical activity has now made us hungry so I searched my pantry and came up with enough ingredients for a pretty good chicken casserole. I combined cubed chicken, frozen vegetables, cream of chicken soup, white wine, swiss cheese and stovetop stuffing and popped it in the oven.

Monday morning we all got up early and headed up to Danbury, NC (a 2.5 hour drive). We had just gotten on I-85 when Andy's friend called and said that they were all too hung over to join us. We then decided (actually they decided...I was still gung-ho) that maybe we should just stick close to Raleigh. So I turned the car around and we went to Ulmstead for a short 2 mile hike. *sigh* I was hoping for something like 6 miles. Oh well...next time.

We then came home and headed up to the pool for awhile then came back and cleaned up and they took me to one of my favorite places to eat...Firebirds. I think they felt bad that we didn't make it to Hanging Rock. We came home and I crashed on my couch and spent the rest of the evening watching the Dark Angel Marathon on Sci-Fi.

So now I am back to work. Counting down the days till my camping trip. I have just started our year end closeout. For those of you not familiar with the federal govt...we end our fiscal year 30 Sept.. Because of this I will be SWAMPED so I don't know how often I will get a chance to post. But I will try my best.

I am a happy ranger now!!!
Mood:  celebratory
For the past two weeks as I have been driving to and from work I have heard the commercial for Verizon's new chocolate phone. There is a song playing in the background that really caught my attention. I tried typing in what I thought some of the lyrics were and came up with nothing. As a last resort I emailed a friend of mine who works at a radio station and asked him if he knew what it was. Oh course he didn't have a clue but suggested I goggle Verzion Chocolate Ad. Why the hell didn't I think of that. *sigh* Thanks Dan!!!

So just in case you were like me and wanted to know what the song was it is:

Strict Machine by Goldrapp

If you have never heard the commercial or want to hear the song in its entirety, log onto my Myspace page and have a listen.

My Page

Some of you have asked me about the song "Haunted" I had on my page for the last few days. The song is by Gary Numan. He has a Myspace page as well where you can here some of his songs. Most of you are probably familiar with his song "Cars" Thanks to Thomas for introducing me to that song. It was his page I stole it from. LOL

Gary Numan Music

Also my friend Marie has a blog on Myspace and I keep meaning to put up a link. Check it out if you have time. Rie's Blog - Sociological Experiment

Time to get my waders on and board my Ark.
Mood:  mischievious
Well Ernesto is on his way to Raleigh. We have already had 3.5 inches of rain and they are expecting up to 7 more inches by the time this is all over with. Thanks to all of you who offered a place for me to stay and wait out the storm. I will not need it though seeing as by the time it gets here it will only be a tropical depression. We wont have heavy winds to deal with just lots and lots of rain. It also looks like the rain will end by Friday night so my weekend plans wont be washed out. *cheer*

Speaking of my weekend plans. After yesterday's entry, my friend Marie commented that her neck has been killing her and today is pay day for us both so we should hit a Spa this weekend. My neck and back are so full of knots that it has become quite painful. I can't complain because I do it to myself. I need to find better ways to de-stress and relax.

I called the spa just to see if there was anything available. The place I usually go to, Iatria Day Spa, was voted best in the triangle for 2 years straight so I just knew that there wouldn't be any open appointments, but thought I would give it a try anyway. What luck...they had two openings at the same time. That almost never happens. Normally when my mom comes to visit we go to the spa and our appointments are often 30 to 60 minutes apart. But because Marie and I decided to keep costs low and only do the 1/2 hour back and neck soother (the full hour is almost $80)they were able to squeeze us in. YEA!!!! My plan is to get there early and enjoy the tranquil room before my massage, maybe drink some herbal tea, then have my massage, and lastly get into the sauna until my body can't stand it anymore. *sigh* HEAVEN!!!My back is already asking me if it is Saturday yet.

I think I need to search those online dating sites for a single, available, hunky masseur or better yet a massage student who needs a warm body to practice on.

The Calm After the Storm
Mood:  caffeinated
The Colonel's visit went very well. He enjoyed his day with the rangers out in the field. Because Falls doesn't manage their own recreation areas (we lease them to the state) people in our district office wonder just what exactly we do. He was amazed at all the tasks that keep us busy. Whether it is playing mediator between the different state agencies, dealing with encroachments, monitoring endangered and exotic species or just running the dam. He commented on how we accomplish so much with such a small staff and how wonderful he thought it was that we all got along and seem to work well with one another.

Dinner last night ended up just being the Falls staff, the Colonel and or Lakes Manager. I was kind of upset that the other two offices didn't make an effort to join us but in the end I was glad it was just us. The Colonel got a good taste of how well we all get along. That we tease and joke with one another and he throughly enjoyed it and even participated a few times.

Now that the visit is over I feel physically drained. I sit here and I can barely keep my eyes open. I didn't stay up late last night. I actually went to bed about 9:30. I think I have just released all the stress of getting ready for the visit and my body is worn out.

The exotic animal show is this weekend. A friend of mine was suppose to drive up from Wilmington to go with me but because of the threat of Ernesto looming, he has back out. I still plan on going but will have to see if the weather will cooperate. We are suppose to get 7 inches of rain and if that happens a lot of the main streets will flood. The thought of being cooped up in my apt all weekend is horrific. I still have yet to reschedule my massage. I really need to do that soon. The muscles in my back and shoulder and really starting to hurt.

The week is starting off with a bang
Mood:  irritated
I hate hectic Mondays. I want to be eased into the work week. Starting off the week in a stressful manner has a severe effect on my mood.

If you read the previous posts you have learned that our District Commander (AKA The Colonel) will be coming for a visit tomorrow. I have been put in charge of dinner which in itself is bad enough. I have narrowed it down to either Carrabas or Olive Garden but I need to get a head count because Carrabas can't handle a large group. This wouldn't be a big deal if it were only my staff that was invited but we have invited 4 other offices and trying to get them to RSVP as been a vexation to my spirit. It is not a hard decision. It is either yes or no. These people act like I have just asked them if they would like to invade a small country. I get responses like..."I will only decide once a location has been chosen." It will be either one of the two locations in the email you nitwit. Both are Italian...what is to decide? "Have you considered people's dietary needs?" WTF!!! The only dietary need I considered is the fact that we all need to eat to survive. If you don't like your choices then don't come or plan the damn thing yourself.

To make matters worse they just sent my boss to FL for Hurricane response. Which means it will be up to the rest of the staff to give the Colonel his tour. *sigh* Keeping fingers crossed that it all goes off without a hitch. This Colonel is a lot more laid back than the last one so it should all be okay but we still want to make a good impression.

I have been so stressed that I forgot I was early ranger today and I have totally gotten my days all messed up. For some reason I have been looking at the month of May instead of August. *sigh* I even thought I had a dinner thing to go to on Thursday. Two dinners in one week? Could my budget handle it? It turns out though if I had been looking at the correct month I would have seen that it is next week instead. Could have saved myself some extra stress. Sorry Marie if I made you panic.

I spent a good part of the weekend working on my dress. It is finally finished. Well except for the hem, which I will need help with. My poor fingers are all red and sore from trying to put in all the grommnets...18 total. I was working on the veil and the instructions said to sew the head piece to the headband. I started trying to sew it and it just wasn't doing what I wanted it to do. So I threw up my hands and ran to get my glue gun. Worked like a charm. LOL The person who invented glue guns should win a Noble Peace Prize cause it really kept me from going postal. Once it is all finished I will try to take some pictures and post them on here.

Well I better get back to planning dinner for tomorrow.

Later Ya'll...

Freaky Friday
Mood:  not sure
This morning my outreach ranger came to me and asked me to check into a budget matter. I have somehow been labeled Budge Guru, which is funny because I can't even balance my own checkbook.

Here was the situation. Dana was trying to order something and charge it to a certain account and it kept coming back that there weren't enough funds in this account. Turns out there was $1400 unaccounted for. After doing a little research and running a couple of reports I figured out the problem Someone from another project charged to that account without letting us know.

Now for the freaky part. Here was my horoscope for the day:

A group you're affiliated with could find some discrepancies in their financial records, and they might ask you to check into it, Rebecca. This is probably due more to mistaken entries or lost pages than to any major disaster, but it'll set everyone's mind at ease. Don't be surprised if you have to dig through little scraps of paper buried in the bottoms of files. It'll be worth it, though, as everyone will be very grateful! Have fun!

I usually just read my horoscope for amusement sake. Not once have they gotten it right...except for today. FREAKY!

It is great when a plan comes together!
Mood:  happy
I was pulling into the office this morning when all the sudden a panic set in. I saw the landscapers here and they were doing something around the flowers I planted yesterday. I was afraid they were putting pine straw down and I didn't want that tacky stuff around my plants. I immediately ran up to the patio and my boss stopped me. I guess he could see the panic in my eyes. He said not to worry that Delmer was taking good care of me. I looked over at Delmer who was smiling from ear to ear. I then looked down at the flower beds to see he was placing this beautiful hardwood mulch neatly and delicately around my flowers. I almost started crying. Delmer came through!!! He said he knew from the look on my face the other day that I had an absolute hatred for pine straw and he wanted to make sure I was happy (probably because I am the one who writes the checks). Well needless to say that I am VERY happy. The front of the Visitor Center is really starting to look nice. It is actually a pleasure now to look out my windows. The Colonel probably wont even notice all the hard work we did but I will know and that is really all that matters.

I uploaded a couple of pictures to photobucket this morning. These pictures were taken yesterday before the mulch. But just imagine that the flowers are now surrounded by a beautiful dark brown mulch. Enjoy!

VAC Flowers

Flower Power
Mood:  happy
Well I have convinced my boss to let me plant flowers in front of the office. We have these plant beds along the front of the building. They used to have plants in them but a year or so ago when we remodeled the outside of the VAC the workers trampled all the plants so that left us with a pile of dead plants and weeds. Since our Colonel is visiting next week, the original plan was to just cover it all up with mulch. I must have really been charming yesterday or my boss was sick of me mentioing how a splash a color would make the place more inviting to visitors, because he sent me to Home Depot to price flowers. I can't get what I really want till spring but I have come up with a plan that I think will work really well for now. In one section I am planning a butterfly garden...should look great. I will try to take pictures. I should have taken some before shots so you could have seen how bad it really looked.

I came in early this morning and Josh and I weeded and prepared the beds. It is already hot outside and I think I managed to sweat off 5lbs. I am not looking forward to being ourside planting this afternoon. Must make sure I drink TONS of water.

Another Day in Paradise
Mood:  hug me
I hate Tuesdays! Why? Because Tuesdays are the days we have staff meetings. It seems that when we come out of the meeting I have about 80 other things to add to my to-do list. *sigh*

Our Colonel is coming next week so we are running around in a panic trying to get everything ready. Pulling weeds, getting the grass mowed, cleaning the office..etc. Luckily Tom will have him out in the project most of the time so I don't have to worry much about what I am going to talk to him about. He is actually a very nice man. He is down to earth and puts you at ease. We often talk about Catoctin (the park where I worked in MD) because he was stationed in DC for awhile and used to pass the park on his way to visit family in PA. We are planning a dinner with the Colonel Tuesday night and it is my duty to pick a restaurant. The only problem is...the places I like to go can be pricey for some. So I need to do some research.

I am trying to get my boss to agree to let me plant flowers outside my office window. He is worried it will be something else we have to keep up with. I assured him I would pick flowers (cone flowers, day lilies) that would be easy to grow and wouldn't take much care. I have end of the year money left in my budget so I might just go ahead and do it. I think he would really like it once I get done. We have a landscaper here doing some weeding and putting down mulch. I think he has a slight crush on me. His name is Delmer and he is just a sweet heart. I was outside talking to him about what kind of mulch he plans to use and he said pine straw. I immediately turned up my nose. As most of you know... I detest pine straw. It just looks tacky. He asked me what I would like to see used and I said some sort of bark mulch or cocoa hull mulch. He smiled, winked and said he would see what he could do. We will more than likely end up with pine straw because it is cheap but I know Delmer will do his best.

I heard from "A" last night. I was actually surprised that he called. Sunday night while I was out with Tanya and Andy I mentioned that I wasn't sure there was anything there between us. That it seemed to be more of the friendship than a romantic relationship. I thought that it was just my commitment phobia rearing its ugly head because after all it was the 2nd date and there is a holiday coming up. Well apparently "A" had the exact same feelings. He told me that I was a nice person but that he just wasn't feeling a connection. Wow I have never had a guy call and be so honest. Normally they just stop calling or ignore my phone calls or send me a crappy email. He says he still wants to be friends and hang out but just not on a romantic level. And before you all start sending me emails and calling me to see if I am okay or to bad mouth "A" in some way...remind yourself that it was only 2 dates and I was in no way emotionally attached to him. He respected me enough to be honest and that says a lot about him.

Well I guess I should get back to work. I have a lot of dining research to do. Later ya'll!!!

Where has the day gone?
Mood:  not sure
I just looked up from my computer to see that it was 4PM. Where has the time gone? I have had my nose buried in my computer all day and I probably would have worked through lunch if my boss hadn't told me it was time to eat.

The weekend went well. "A" and I had our second date. He picked me up around 11AM and we headed into a new park that the county has opened call Historic Yates Mill. We hiked about 1.4 miles (not nearly long enough for me but it was fun) and then headed over to look at the mill. The mill is apparently the oldest in the US and still runs with most of the original parts. They just got their Ag license so they will soon be making and selling corn meal. How cool would it be to stick some ears of corn in the sheller and then feed the kernels into the mill stone, then buy the corn meal you just made?

After the park we headed to Napper Tandy's which is a really quaint Irish Pub in Raleigh. We ordered lunch and watched rugby, which was a first for me. Man those guys are tough. What a sport. Don't understand the rules at all but it was fun to watch.

Once we finished lunch he brought me home and he headed back to Durham. The second date lately seems, for some reason, to be the date the kills the relationship. We will have to wait and see.

Sunday I got up and put a roast in the crock pot. I then did laundry and cleaned and even worked some on my dress. Then about 5PM there was a knock at my door. Tanya and some friends had stopped by to say hi and immediately smelled the pot roast and invited themselves to dinner. After devouring the meal I had hoped would last me all week, they felt bad and decided to take me to the movies. We went and saw World Trade Center. It was a great movie but too depressing to watch on a Sunday night. It ended up setting the mood for my Monday.

I have been a wild eyed best all day and I know it is PMS. I have tried hard to lift my spirits but no such luck. Maybe a peppermint patty will make me feel better? Let's go find out....

Finally Friday!!!!
Mood:  irritated
What a week it has been. I finally got my phone repaired after numerous phone calls to Bellsouth. My modem also arrived last night and I was able to get that installed...luckily without incident. I called just about everyone I knew to let them know that I was talking to them on the phone and surfing the net at the same time. It was an odd feeling. At one point I was reading email when my phone rang. I thought, "wait that can't happen...I am on the net." then it dawned on me. Whoo Hoo. The DSL is so much faster than my old dial-up. It is outstanding.

I just got done paying $700 worth of bills. Actually made me nauseous. Not only did I have my normal bills to pay..ie phone, cable and electric, but I also had my car insurance and my NC Personal Property Tax. *sigh* Can I just vent for a minute. It just irritates me that in this state I have to pay for the right to own a car. I paid taxes on the car when I got it and I have to pay for my registration, inspection and tags every year. You would think that would be enough, but NOOOOOO they send me a bill for $147 every year. The taxes are based on the value of the car at the time of purchase not what I actually paid for it and I don't think they care about depreciation. It just makes me so mad. They love to tax people in this state. They have a tax on food, which I think is absurd. When the tax was first put in place it was only to be for a few years. This year the tax was to be removed and they decided to leave it in place. I just want to know where all my money is going to. Also when you buy a car they charge you a fee...this fee goes into an account for a rail system (sort of like a metro) which we do not currently have here and there doesn't seem to be any plans to develop it in the future. Okay I will stop venting now.

My boss pulled me in his office this morning and told me that he wants to put me in for an award. I didn't really do anything special to get it. I just did my job. I realized that that rangers who work Sundays should have gotten premium pay so I went back and corrected everyones time from April to now. Yeah it was time consuming...but it is my job. My boss now wants me to write a letter that reads as if he wrote it bragging about myself and the job I did. I have stared at the screen for about an hour. I just hate bragging about myself. In any case I hope it will be a big award if I get it. May make up for the $700 I just spent on bills. LOL

I have a Dr's appointment this morning and even though I know it will only take about an hour or so, I have decided to take the rest of the day off to relax and get some chores done.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

It is only a computer...it wont hurt you
Mood:  cheeky
I sometimes forget that most of my staff isn't well versed in computers.

We are suppose to take this online Ergonomics training. That's right...Ergonomics. *shrug* I didn't realize there was training in such a thing but leave it up to the govt to come up with something.

My staff has been coming to me today and telling me that the site wont load for them. I checked and it opened fine for me. It then dawned on me that the program is connected to the H: drive not the C: drive. So I sent out the following message to my staff:

"If you can not open the training it is because you don’t have the H: drive mapped on your computer. Please map your H: drive to the location provided below. Let me know if you have any problems."

This is the response I got back:

"Map the H: drive???? What in the hell is that? You might as well ask me to map a course to the moon. Are you serious? I have A,C,D, and E. There is no figgin' H. You are like, "just map it." Like it is something that every normal human being should know. So I guess I am letting you know that I have a problem with your instructions. Please come help me."

LOL I love my staff.

The Phone Saga Continues
Mood:  hungry
I got a call at work from the phone company yesterday about 2PM. The woman told me that a technician was on his way out to my apartment right now to fix the problem. I was so excited that they were able to speed up the repair (was told they couldn't send anyone out till Thursday.)

I got home last night and picked up my phone just to check and make sure it was fixed. It wasn't. Again all I heard was this horrible static. I called Bellsouth back and the woman who answered said to give the technician till 7PM. That he might just be running late. Well 7PM came and still no repair man so I called back. The woman said she would call and find out what the hold up was and call back. She never called back. So about 9PM I called back and was told they still didn't know what happened to the service call and that I would be first on the list for tomorrow. At this point I asked to speak to the manager. This whole time I am having to scream over the static. The manager comes on and apologizes and swears it will be fixed first thing Wednesday morning.

I got a call about 10 minutes ago from Bellsouth and the woman says the problem has been fixed and the line tested clear. We shall see. I just don't understand why this has to be so difficult. If the technician encountered a problem and couldn't make it out, that would have been fine. Just call and let me know that. I am a reasonable person and I understand that things happen but just let me know that.

Is it lunch time yet? I AM STARVING!!! My boss has come back after being off because of knee surgery. Which means I have been running around all morning helping him get caught up on stuff he missed. I have already been in his office twice to fix his computer. *sigh* I sit here at my desk and I here his computer start beeping. Then I hear this, "Rebecca I have done something wrong...its beeping at me again." I go in a push two buttons to correct the problem and he looks at me like I just performed some sort of great feat.

I need a vacation!!!!

I don't exist...
Mood:  irritated
Well at least as far as the phone company is concerned I don’t.

For the last month or so I have been experiencing some static on my phone line. The phone company has been out several times and but they can’t seem to fix the problem. Well Sunday night it got so bad that I couldn’t hear poor “A” on the other end. I know we have a date on Saturday but I have no idea what I agreed to do on said date because I couldn’t hear anything but static. .

After I hung up the phone I called the phone repair number. There is an automated answering thingy that asks you for your number and your complaint. After I entered all the options, I was immediately transferred to a live representative. This was our conversation.

Agent: Ma’am can I please get your phone number again starting with the area code.

Me: XXX-XXX-XXXX (using X’s to protect my privacy)

Agent: Is this a new account?

Me: No? I have had this account for two years now.

Agent: Hmmm….Well I show this account as being disconnected since December of last year. I don’t see any activity on this account since then.

Me: Well that is odd considering that I am talking on that line right now and you all continue to send me a bill every month so I must exist in your system somewhere. If not then who the hell am I sending all my money to?

Agent: Well ma’am I can’t put in a service order for a phone line that doesn’t exist.

Me: But it does exist…I am talking on it right now!
Agent: I am sorry there is nothing I can do about it. You will have to contact the business office tomorrow morning to get this straightened out. Is there anything else I can do for you this evening?

Me: Yes you can fix my phone.

Agent: Thanks you for you business and for choosing Bellsouth. *click*

I was so furious that I could hardly sleep that night. As soon as I got into work the next morning I immediately called the phone company. The woman who answered was a little more congenial than the woman at the repair center. She found me in the system and said she couldn’t understand what had happened. She then told me that they wouldn’t be able to get a repair man out to my place till Thursday. I explained that this has been an on-going problem and that my phone was now so bad that you can’t hear anything. I told her that it was my main phone and that I don’t use my cell phone much because it is pre-paid and I don’t get very good reception in my apartment. She said she would she if she could speed it up but that she doubted they would get to it till Thursday. I then asked if I would be compensated in some way, because I pay for a clear line and I am forced to go 4 days without internet or phone use. We discussed options that would make me happy. And finally agreed to upgrade me from dial-up to their basic DSL package at a “secret only I get it” rate for the first year, plus I get the modem for free (a $75 value). The kit is suppose to arrive Monday for me to install. This should be very entertaining. She said if I like the DSL she might be able to come up with a package deal for my phone and the DSL ultra package for about what I am paying now. SWEET!

A gentleman called me back last night on my home line and was able to witness the horrible static. He said he would try to have someone out to fix it today. Some how I the feeling that it wont be fixed till Thursday. It isn’t that I use my phone all the much but I just hate knowing I don’t have it if I should need it. My neighbor has been very sweet and offered to let me us his phone if an emergency arrives.

I hope this DSL thing will work as well as everyone says it will. I am excited about the fact that I will be able to talk on the phone and surf the web at the same time

Monday Morning and Here I Sit...
Mood:  mischievious
Had a very relaxing weekend. The weather was perfect and I actually got out and enjoyed it. It has been too hot here lately to really enjoy being outside.

I am sure most of you have tuned into the blog today to find out how my date went Friday night. Well actually it ended up being better than I expected. Lately it has been one horrible date after the next so I didn't have high expectations that this was going to go well.

I ended up breaking a couple of my first date rules. I know the guys at this point are rolling their eyes and saying, "Geesh, another girl with rules?" Well these aren't the rules you typically hear about like not going out with someone if he doesn't schedule the date before Wednesday. My rules are in place 1) for safety and 2) to get the most out of the first date experience.

This is where I broke a major first date rule. On a first date it is always good to meet on YOUR turf. That way if you have to make a speedy getaway you will know all the escape routes. Well my date talked me into coming to Durham, which if you read the early swing dance entry you will know that I become directionally challenged when I enter Durham. I met "A" (we will call him "A" to protect his identity) at Moe's Southwest Cafe at 7PM. I was actually early...imagine that. He then suggested that we just go ahead and eat at Moe's. For those of you who have never been to a Moe's, it is sort of a fast food Mexican place and not exactly what I would call romantic. I figured maybe he wanted to eat there because it would be quick. That way if the date didn't go well he wouldn't have to waste his whole evening and shell out a lot of money. I thought it wasn't a bad plan so I said sure. After dinner he suggested that we drive across the street to the Southpoint Mall. It is a neat mall in the fact that is is all outside and there are street performers, statues and fountains scattered all over. Thing must be going well at this point seeing as he wants to continue further.

As we walked around, we past by the movie theaters and decided to stop and check out what was playing. One of my other first date rules...avoid movies. It doesn't give you time to talk to one another and really learn if this is someone that you want to see again. But before I knew it we were buying tickets to see Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby . Which I highly recommend. It isn't a thought provoking movie. It is just one of those "just for fun" films. I can't remember when I have laughed so hard. We also saw a preview for a film coming out this fall called Borat: Cultural Learnings of America for Make Benefit Glorious Nation of Kazakhstan (just click on the title to watch the trailer). It looks like it will be hilarious.

After the movie ended we walked around the mall some more and decided to duck into Champs for a drink. This was a great idea because it would allow me to get to know him better. We sat there and talked till about 11:30 when both of us finally admitted that we were exhausted. So he drove me back over to my car and we headed home.

Do I like him? Even though I broke two rules, the date was very enjoyable. He is kind, considerate,smart,and has a great laugh. He is very laid back which I really enjoy and he didn't seem nervous. We both agreed that online dating sucks but I am glad that we decided to give it a try. He has already called me to set up a second date.We shall see...

Well I better get back to work. Later!

Fenwick the Cat is thinking up evil plots...
Mood:  don't ask
This week my cat, Fenwick, has done everything in his kitty power to make me late for work. He has knocked over his water dispenser sending 1/2 a gallon of water across the floor. He has thrown up on the carpet, knocked over the trashcan twice, and pulled down the shower curtains. I am standing in the bathroom getting ready when all the sudden I hear a CRASH and go running out to see what he has done now. He gives me a look like, "what the hell was that? Don't look at me...I didn't do it. It must have been the bird." I keeping threatening to give him away to the first band of gypsies that come through town but it hasn't worked. I don't know what has started this odd behavior. Maybe he is trying to tell me that I work too hard and need to spend more time cuddling on the couch with him. As much as I would love to take a mental health day...I just have way too much work to do and there are only two of us in the office this week. I still haven't rescheduled my massage. *sigh* Can't wait till October!!!!!

My boss is having knee surgery today and will more than likely be out for a week. I am hoping that this will enable me to get caught up on a few things. Someone from our district office sent me 3 large boxes of files that I have to sort through and catalog. They have been sitting in my cubicle for a week now. *I DON'T WANNA DO IT!!!!!* There is nothing I detest more than the Corps filing system. It just doesn't make sense to me. Oh well.

I have booked mine and Marie's trip to Ocracoke. We will be camping out...hopefully in a site near the water. I am really looking forward to it. I haven't been camping since last year. We will be taking off Friday Sept 29 and camping out for 2 nights. As of right now only 5 sites have been booked. I am hoping it will stay that way. I just want to get away and relax. The following week my Mom comes down for a visit. She bought us tickets to the Lion King. I can't wait!!! I haven't seen her since February. We talked about going out to Asheville for a few days to see the Biltmore, hike up Chimney Rock, and taste some wine. I still need to check out B&B's. The following weekend Marie and I will be heading to Charlotte for the Ren. Fair. I really need to finish my dress.

Well I think that is about all that is going on at the moment. I have a date Friday night with a guy I met online. I will try to fill you all in our how it went. Wish me luck!!!

No Wallflowers Here
Mood:  energetic
As most of you know, I love trying out new things. Well only if it doesn't involve spiders or heights. :) My quirky sense of adventure has allowed me to do some pretty odd and totally random things. So when my friend Marie emailed me last week to see if I wanted to go swing dancing Saturday night, I sounded out with a big HELL YEAH! There was only one problem. I have never been swing dancing before. She then informed me that they have a beginners class from 7 to 8. Well then sign me up!!! I was a little nervous seeing as it took me 3 years to learn the electric slide. I couldn't even imagine how much of a disaster this was going to be but at least I could say that I tried it.

I met Marie over in Durham a little past 5:30. It was amazing that I didn't get lost seeing as for some reason I become directionally challenged in Durham. I was a little late because mapquest said it only took 24 minutes to get there when actually it took 32, but I digress. We headed over to the pottery shop so that I could get the plate I had been dying to own and I was in luck...it was 30% off. Whoo Hoo!!! We then searched for a place to eat and settled on Fowler's for some sandwiches then headed over to the pastry shop,Amelia's, for dessert.

We decided to leave our cars parked at Brightleaf Square and walk the 4 blocks to the Armory. We got there and paid our $11 and headed for some chairs along the wall. I looked around and the scene reminded me of going to the bowling alley on league night. Everyone had come in with there street shoes on and immediately changed into their "swing" shoes. Marie was no different. She pulled out these cute white and black shoes from a bag that she had been carrying and put them on. Okay, now I feel a little out of place. My shoe choice? For some reason I opted to wear these cute high healed sandals. I would pay for this decision later. I often choose fashion over comfort.OUCH! Lesson learned.

About 7:15 the instructor called us out to the floor for our "lesson". He told us the history of swing and went over the different versions of the dance. We would be learning some East Coast Swing, which was apparently much easier to learn than West Coast. He then lined all the leaders on one side of the room and all the followers on the other. There seemed to be more followers than leaders which when you think about it...is sort of like society. Anyway...I chose to be a follower. We started out with the basic side to side and rock step. We did them over and over again until it was like second nature. Then came the fun part. The instructor paired us up with a leader and we practiced our basic moves. He then would yell "switch" and the followers would pair up with a new leader. This was a great way to meet people. Once we got our basics down, we started to learn a basic turn. I don't remember the name of it, but it was pretty simple. We practiced it a few times then went on to one of the holds. It was either called the cuddle or the cradle or the sweetheart or something along those lines. This one took me a little bit longer to master. While in the hold you are suppose to do a rock step before releasing and it always seemed I was on the wrong foot. LOL Well by this time it was 8PM and the band was ready to start playing. The last leader I ended up with was a really sweet guy named Chris who asked me right off the bat if I wanted to dance. Pleased that someone would let me try out my new skills I said sure. The music started and we started with our basic steps. Chris then started turning me and doing some other fancy moves. It was apparent to me that he was no beginner. But to my astonishment...I kept up with him. Apparently I was a natural follower and was able to pick up on his cues very well.

The evening went on and every time I tried to sit down to rest my feet, someone would come over and ask me to dance. I think I sat out a total of 2 songs. every time someone asked me to dance I would inform them that I was a beginner and wasn't very good. After I danced with them they swore I was lying about my skills. They said that I did very well. Not sure if it is true or they were just trying to make me feel better. LOL At one point I got a chance to dance with this Armenian guy. I wish I could recall his name. He was AMAZING!! He was such a great leader. He had a good hand grip and without saying a word he spun me around the floor like I had been swing dancing all my life. I think I could have danced with him all night. Marie had teamed up with this guy named James who danced with me twice. He told Marie that I wasn't bad, that actually I was a great follower. Maybe I have missed my calling in life??? :)

I glanced at my watch and it was now 11:00. My feet at this point were KILLING me and I still had to walk 4 blocks back to my car. I wish I could have stayed and danced longer. I also wish I would have had a camera with me.

I woke up Sunday morning with blistered feet and bruised heals but I wouldn't change it for the world. I can't remember a time when I had this much fun. I definitely want to do it again. Next time though...I will make sure I have on proper shoes.