He Took Part Of My Life Away

He took part of my life away
Innocence lost when it started that day

Robbed of a childhood, never regained
Coping mechanisms, to this day sustained

A man whom I loved, respected, and trusted
Taking his time as each touch I became accustomed

Curvaceous shape and budding breasts
A young body responding to the caress

And then one day, a woman this child became
As he opened her with his huge membrane

Pain, pleasure, happiness, sadness, and confusion
Out of control from this intrusion

Safer to feel nothing, make myself numb
Food, sex, drugs, HAVE TO GET SOME

Learning to cope in all the wrong ways
Stuffing it deeper inside, as always

He took part of my life away
Innocence lost when it started that day

Robbed of a childhood, never regained
Coping mechanisms, to this day sustained

Fifteen years later, now a child in an adults shell
Going to explode without someone to tell

Stuffing it down with food, only making it worse
Why do I have to be stuck with this curse?

I am mourning this childhood, forever lost
Wanting to heal but at what cost?

So scared to face what has been hidden so long
Feeling so weak, but needing to appear so strong

On the outside, strong, vibrant, healthy, in control
On the inside, weak, insecure, afraid, and emotional

Knowing inside that I'm only a fake
But keeping the persona which took so long to create

Oh the pain, will it ever leave
A childhood killed by another, how do I grieve?

He took part of my life away
Innocence lost when it started that day

Robbed of a childhood, never regained
Coping mechanisms to this day sustained


Anon