sometimes u just feel so trapped... looking at the people around u, they just live on with their life, and u wonder, why am i me?? i mean, what the heck am i doing here?? i'm like, living my life, having it in my own ways, but i never get no where... evenn as a child i always wonder... everyone's living but they don't know why, but they just don't want to die.. because it's somewhere we don't know , something we don't know will happen and we're just too afraid .. to let it happen to urself...sometimes u lie in the bed and wonder... what life really is about, who created this world, what is out there? in this unkown world?? is there acttually another "earth" out there?? what is it like??
once, i was dancing infront ofthe mirror and then i had a sudden shiffer.. a shiffer of fear and shiffer which made me realise... i am acttually what i look like in the mmirror, but why?? there are so many questions out there no one can explain... like sceince, u add a certain chemical to another, it'll react, but no one knows exactly WHY?? why does every exist?? why does everything have to be the way it is??? why are WE the ones who are so thoughtful, what we call "smart" from the other animals.. sometimes it;'s scary to be smart, to know too much.. the more u know, the more scared u get... like animals, they just find food, eat and sleep and repeat after repeat as if they're robots but they don't know why they're doing it
why do we live?? what is it like to be a tree?? they say it's aweful not being able to move or defence or think or see
but if u look on the other side, it's acttually better, u just grow by ur feelings, grow stronger everyday, absorb water and breath air...no thoughts, no darkness or light, no smell, no tasting... no problems like we have, of what other people think of u, want to be loved, being teased, yelled at, trapped from the police, laws, enviroments being destoryed, u want to help but won't help much.. won't make a difference.. people sing, be popular, to be proud of themselves and feeling good looking good, but so what?? it doesn't have anything to do with ur life, u'll just end up like everyone else, being sick, get old and die, give birth to another new life...nothing have a reason to it, u just do what u do...if u feel like it or not.. either u care or not
life is life though, u have to live through it, just enjoy it and don't care aout what other people think, or what's around u, enjoy what u are, u are supose to be the way u are, be glad, be happy about it, there are things out of this world u wouldn't even want to know about, everything human had touched, they took control they won't let things be the way they are.. but hope u're not, why don't everyone just LIVE with things inside of be on top of it or try to fit in?? u don't have to, and if u're miserable all the time, think about WHY are u so miserable... what ever it turns out to be, u don't have to care about it, what u have to care about is yourself, ur life, any problems, either solve it or ignore it, or go against it, u don't have to HAVE the problem happen to u, just get it away no matter how u do it, just live out of life if u know what i mean...u don't HAVE to let bad things happen to u, if it happens, ignore it, solve it, or get it away, don't run away from it, u belong where u are, u deserve to be here, YOU're the one who's supose to move things out of ur life not being moved by other things...
believe in what u think is right, don't let others disturb ur thoughts...but of course sometimes u make mistakes but if it's not something that's a fact, go against it.. don't let it change ur thoughts, don't ever let things change ur mind...
if u're still reading all this.. u must be really into it
if u want, email me at julliellie@yahoo.com
remember "work hard BUT have fun at the same time"
and remember this as well "dun worry about love, concerntrate on what's more important to u, love will come along later.. be patient"
u're finding love cause u need someone to suport u, well u've got ur friends, and me if u need help, talk to ur friends if u have problems... remember that...
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