The Nap is Over.
Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: Pearl Jam - Black (well, it's playing in my head at least)
The resting period has come to an end. I don't feel lazy anymore. I feel the need to attack the world once more. This semester was necessary. I needed a break, and needed to let things come to me rather than forcing myself to work towards them. I regret that some things suffered because of this need. I had an opportunity to do something great, to be a great Chief Whip for the Party of the Right, and didn't take full advantage of it. I can only hope to make up for it. It seems odd to mention a role in an organization, but it's not the organization that matters. It is only a necessary structure to what is really important - what we do. The "intellectual persuit" (I need to find a better word) the relentless pushing, the leading, the search for truth in an applicable manner. I think I'm back to a place where I can really take this on again. I've realized what is important to me and what I need to do. I've spent the semester "letting go" and putting in minimal effort, and have come to understand the things that matter most to me. And where some of my greatest weaknesses lay.
Something disturbed me this weekend enough to inspire me. In the context it was stated, it resembled a line like "the party project isn't for everyone." In actual terms, because I'm more interested in how it all applies to people outside the party, it means one can't push everyone. Not everyone is either worth pushing or can handle being pushed. Thus we shouldn't try.
I think that's bullshit and very dangerous. If we only lead people who come willingly and already understand the importance of being pushed and being relentless, then we're not really getting anywhere. I have a few friends that I want desperately to unleash the project on. I think they need to be pushed. It would be greatly beneficial to them and I think would be exactly what they need. They are capable of it and want to bring it to them. It's time to bring back what I've lost, and bring it back in version 5.3 style.

Jesse - we need a messageboard. We really do.