Nick
sat staring into the recording studio. Brian was in there directing the
band how to record his song he had written. He had dragged Nick along to…
well Nick didn’t really know. It had been almost six months since they
had all visited Tim, Kevin’s childhood best friend, and his sister Kay.
“Kay,”
Nick sighed quietly.
Kay
would be graduating from high school at the end of the month. He hadn’t
heard or seen her since that December visit. He was still a bit confused
by her behavior. She hated all Nicks. That’s what she told the world, yet
she liked Nick. But, she wouldn’t let anyone except Nick know it. Nick
played back the last conversation and run in he had had with Kay before
he had gone home.
“They’ll
be home soon,” was all Kay said.
“Then,
may I have a good-bye kiss?” Nick asked with a smile.
Kay
took his hand and led him into the living room then up the stairs and down
the hall to her room. She set him down on her bed then walked over to her
closet and pulled out a box. She handed it to him. Nick slowly opened the
box. In it was a picture of a washer, a couch, and a plate of eggs. Nick
could tell it was a drawing. It was signed by Kay. Nick looked up at Kay.
“Thanks.”
“Your
welcome. Now, here’s your good-bye kiss,” Kay said, sitting down on Nick’s
lap.
She
wrapped her arms around him and their mouths met. Nick wrapped his arms
around her as she slowly began to push him backward till his back was on
the bed. She pulled back and looked at Nick.
“What?”
Nick asked, totally unsure what was going on in that head of hers.
“Carter,
I love you. I will find you someday and marry you. You hear me?” Kay asked,
brushing her hand along his cheek.
“I
hear you.”
“Good,”
Kay said, and went back to kissing him.
After
awhile, the floor began to rattle. Kay pulled back from Nick. Her eyes
showed sadness. She lowered her lips once more then got up and left the
room.
“Nick!
Earth to Nick! Come in Nick!” Brian called, hitting Nick on the head.
Nick
looked up from his trance to see Brian above him.
“Come,
on Carter. We’re done here. Let’s head home,” Brian said, pulling Nick
out of his chair.
“Okay,
okay,” Nick mumbled.
Brian
looked at him in question. He then shook his head and went back to dragging
Nick out of the studio.
~*~*~*~*~
Kevin burst into the house as the phone rang. He tossed down his bags and picked up the phone.
“Hello?”
“May
I speak to Kevin Richardson?” asked a voice.
“This
is him.”
“Kevy!
What are you up to! This is Tim!”
“Tim,
my God, how are you?”
“I’m
just fine. I was wondering if you could take some time off and come see
Kay graduate. Oh, and bring Brian with you,” Tim said.
“Oh,
okay. Should I bring Nick?” Kevin mused.
“I
bet that would make Kay’s day. Nick coming down just to see her,” Tim laughed.
“No, sir I was not laughing. No, it’s not a personal call.”
“Huh?”
Kevin asked
“Okay,
I’ll call… okay he’s gone,” Tim said. “I’m at work. But will you come?”
“I’ll
see if we can take a break from recording. I’ll call the house,” Kevin
replied.
“Great,”
Tim said. “Good bye, Mr. Richardson.”
“Bye,
Mr. Bennett,” Kevin said, hanging up the phone.
~*~*~*~*~
“Guys,
how would you like a little break for a week?” Kevin asked.
“Where
we go?” A.J. asked, flipping through a sheet of lyrics.
“Oh,
Tim’s.”
“But
that will be no fun for Nick,” Howie said. “He’ll have to put up with Kay.”
“It’s
okay, guys. I think I can handle her for a week,” Nick said, heart skipping
a beat.
Brian
looked at him in question, knowing something was up.
“A.J.?”
Kevin asked.
A.J.
looked up from the sheet, “Okay. I’ll just hang out at Mickey D’s.”
Everyone
looked at him.
“Why
would you do that?” Howie asked.
A.J.
shrugged, “To stay away from Kay.”
Nick
looked at A.J. “Huh?”
“She
wants me,” A.J. simply said. “But I don’t want her. She’s been calling
me. I don’t know how she got my number, Brian.”
A.J.
shot Brian a accusing look. Brian threw his hands up in the air.
“Caught
me,” Brian said.
They
guys all began talking how they would get some time off to go up there.
Nick fell down into the closest chair. Kay had been calling A.J. because
she ‘wanted him.’ Nick thought Kay had wanted him. Isn’t that what Kay
had told him?
“Nicky,
come back to Earth,” Howie called.
“I’m
here,” Nick said, leaving every thought of Kay behind him.
“Okay,
let’s go,” Kevin said, walking out the door. “I know this will work.”
~*~*~*~*~
Kevin leaped out of the car and ran up to Tim’s front door and rang the bell. A.J. pulled out a couple of bags and walked up to the door. Tim opened the door and engulfed Kevin in a hug. A.J. walked passed them into the front hall. Nothing had changed, other than the plants hanging from the ceiling.
“Kay
will be home soon. This will be a surprise to her. First she doesn’t know
Kevin’s coming today and second he brought A.J. instead of Brian,” Tim
said, with a knowing smile at A.J.
“No
way, Timmy,” A.J. said, starting up the stairs. “We all came. Even Nick.”
“Nick?”
Tim asked, turning to Kevin.
“It’s
the only way we could come.”
“Nick
wouldn’t let you come if you didn’t bring him?” Tim asked, following Kevin
out to the car.
“No,
our manager thought since we needed some more songs for our new album it
was okay if we came back here. Our theme was thought up here and everyone
loved it,” Kevin said, handing Tim some bags.
“What
was it?”
“Sort
of like Romeo and Juliet type thing. It’s called Wherefore Are Thy…
Nick came up with it and just trailed off. They loved it,” Kevin said,
going into the house.
“So
where are the others?” Tim asked, as he followed Kevin up the front stairs.
“There,”
Kevin said, pointing at the car pulling into the driveway.
Tim
set down his bags he was carrying and went out to greet the other guys.
Kevin went up the stairs to the room he had stayed in during their last
visit. A.J. was in there. A.J. had set down his bags and claimed the room.
“What
do you think you are doing, Bone?” Kevin asked.
“I
want this room.”
“Why
so you can be closer to Kay than Nick?” Kevin laughed.
“No!
This room locks. Kay came down and tried to…” A.J. trailed off. “But, you
can share the room with Brian if you have to have a bed.”
“Okay,
fine,” Kevin said, going into the other room.
Meanwhile,
Howie, Nick, and Brian were unloading the car into the house. A.J. had
opened his window and informed them that Nick or Brian would have to sleep
in the family room. Howie said that they both would have to. He was going
to have a room this time. Nick was too depressed to argue and Brian lost.
So, Brian and Nick carried all their stuff into the family room.
“Think
of it this way,” Brian started, “you’ll be far away from Kay.”
Nick
smiled for the first time in days. “Exactly.”
Nick
walked over to the couch and sat down.
“What
are you doing?” Brian asked.
“Well,
you’re the short one. You sleep on the other couch,” Nick said.
Brian
shot him a playful evil look and tossed his stuff on the other couch. He
then walked off to get them some blankets and sheets. Nick closed his eyes
and let the sent of the house fill his lungs. Even though the back stabbing
Kay lived here this house still had this charming smell about it. Nick
was sent back to reality when he heard the front door open.
“Tim!”
Kay yelled into the house.
Nick
heard Tim leave the kitchen and walk to the top of the front stairs.
“What?”
“Why
are there two extra cars in the driveway? Do I get to keep one?” Kay asked.
Nick
could picture her face as she said that. She had a big old playful smile
of her face and shinning eyes.
“No.
I have a surprise. Guys! Show yourselves!” Tim screamed at the top of his
lungs.
Nick
could hear Kevin jump out of the kitchen and run down the hall. While Brian
jumped out of the hallway on the same level as Kay, Howie and A.J. jumped
out of the stairway and ran down to the front hallway.
“No
Nick!” Kay cried.
“No,
we brought him with us. I don’t know where he is?” Brian said, turning
around.
“He
got lost most likely. Couldn’t find his way off his butt,” Kay snickered.
“NO!”
Nick yelled, getting off the couch. He walked down the hall to where Brian
was. He gave Kay a cold look. “No, I just thought you wouldn’t want to
see me, so I didn’t come. So I’ll leave now, having proved that I didn’t
get lost and found my way off my fat old ass.”
With
that Nick walked back into the family room and sat down. He flipped on
the TV and waited for Brian to come back.
“Well,
looks like somebody had a personality change,” Kay muttered happily.
Brian
looked at her. He knew what was up. “No, he just had his heart stomped
over.”
Brian
picked up the bedding he had been carrying and went down the hall after
Nick.
Tim
glared at Kay. “Is that anyway to treat our guest! We talked about this.”
Kay
looked at the ground, “No it’s not. But I’m not saying I’m sorry.”
Kay
walked up the stairs past Tim to the other guys. She looked at A.J. with
a smile.
“I’m
so happy you could see me graduate,” she said, hugging A.J. and giving
him a quick kiss on the cheek.
“Whatever,”
A.J. said, looking around for some help.
Howie
came to the rescue. “Kay, do you know what college you want to go to?”
Kay
turned at looked at Howie. “No.”
Nick
sat looking at the TV. He heard Brian come into the room. He looked over
to see Brian hidden by all the bedding he was carrying. Nick got up and
walked over and helped Brian.
“Thanks,”
Brian said. “Is there something up with you? You defended yourself against
Kay?”
Nick
looked down at Brian. “Yeah. I realized I would never win.”
~*~*~*~*~
Nick
slowly opened his eyes to see someone standing above him. He soon figured
out who it was.
“Go
away, Kay,” he mumbled as he turned over.
“Why?”
Kay asked.
“You
don’t like Nicks. You like A.J.’s,” Nick mumbled into his pillow.
“What?
You think I like A.J.? Oh, Carter, that was just a little plan that didn’t
work,” Kay said, trying to turn Nick over.
“A
plan that didn’t work?” Nick asked.
“Yes.
I thought if I could get A.J. to like me we could move in so I could be
close to you.”
“You
have a twisted mind. If you were going out with A.J. you’d be off-limits,
girl.”
“So?”
Nick
rolled over and faced her. “Either you tell or I don’t want you because
it’s hell for me to hear you say and do things to hurt me.”
Kay
stood up to full height.
“Fine,
if you want it that way, then have it.”
“Yep,
I
want it that way,” Nick sung at her.
Kay
glared down at him and left the room. Nick could hear Kay storm up the
stairs and storm up the other stairs and down the hall. Nick threw his
hands over his face and rolled over. He didn’t know that Brian was awake
on the other couch and heard this all. Brian thought something had been
up and now he knew he was right. Brian rolled off the couch after awhile
and quietly went up the stairs. He looked in the kitchen and saw the streetlight’s
light pouring in. He shook his head, wondering why there was a streetlight
in the backyard and started up the stairs and down to Howie and Kevin’s
room. Once there he knocked on the door, then quietly opened it.
“Kevin?”
Brian asked softly.
The
lights flew on in the room. Brian covered his eyes as pain surged through
them. Once his eyes were okay, he looked to see Kevin and Howie up and
awake.
“Why
was Kay downstairs?” Kevin asked.
“She
woke us up when she came back. She then cursed Nick,” Howie explained.
Brian
sat down on Kevin’s bed and looked at Kevin then Howie. “Well, I think
I have it figured out. Nick and Kay had some sort of relationships where
there was no hate.”
“What?!”
Kevin cried in shock.
“Yeah,
I figured something was up.”
“But,
Kay always was cold to him. She never did anything to contradict herself,”
Howie said.
“I
know, but Nick did. And just awhile ago, Kay came downstairs and woke Nick
up. She acted normal around him till he told her she came clean or…” Brian
trailed off.
“Or
they were over though there was never a they,” Howie said.
“But,”
Kevin said, shacking his head, “A.J. said that Kay hit on him on the first
day we were here. And he told her…”
Brian
and Howie looked at him. They knew nothing of this.
“Told
her what?” Howie asked.
“That
Nick liked her,” Kevin finished.
Brian
hit himself on the head.
“And
since she couldn’t have A.J. she went after Nick?” Howie asked.
“No,
that’s not Kay,” Kevin and Brian said.
“Then
why?”
“She
must have really liked him, but she had this image. She went after A.J
because she wasn’t sure Nick liked her and she just needed to find out,”
Kevin said.
“And
she is still going after him because?” Howie asked.
“I
don’t know,” Kevin said, scratching his head.
“I
do. She wanted to be near Nick. When she told him that he told her she
had to get over this I HATE NICK stage or he couldn’t go on with what they
were doing. That’s when she said, ‘Fine, if you want it that way then have
it.’ Nick said, ‘I want it that way,’” Brian said.
“God,
what are we going to do?” Kevin asked.
“Nothing.
Nick doesn’t know I heard. Kay will go back to hating Nick as before. A.J.
already doesn’t like Kay in that way so…” Brian trailed off.
“We’ll
go to bed,” Howie announced, showing Brian out.
Brian
returned down to the couch and settled in. He was still troubled about
how Kay seemed to have blown off the way she had been using A.J. to get
to Nick. This was not the sweet little girl he use to play tea with.
~*~*~*~*~
Tim
flew down the stairs so fast he ran right into Brian.
“Sorry,
Littrell,” Tim said. “Late to work.”
Brian
watched Tim run into the garage. He then started up the stairs to the kitchen.
Kay sat in there drinking a cup of tea while reading the paper. Brian walked
over and pulled out a box of cereal. He grabbed a bowl and sat down.
“Good
morning, Brian,” she said cheerfully.
“What’s
up with this A.J. obsession?” Brian asked.
Kay
looked up over the paper. “I like him.”
“NO,
you like Nick,” Brian announced.
Kay
glared at him over her paper again.
“What?
I can see it. That’s the only reason you’re so mean to him. If his name
was Travis or something you would be on him 24/7,” Brian declared.
“Brian!”
Kay shrieked, wrinkling her nose up. “That’s gross. He’s a Nick. Ineed
to go to school. I never want to hear that again.”
Kay
shot him one more look of disgust and left. Brian went on eating till Kevin
came in.
“She
likes Nick,” Brian said.
“Didn’t
we already establish that?” Kevin asked. “As in last night.”
“I
know. She knows I know that she likes Nick.”
“What
good will that do?” Kevin asked.
“I
don’t know. I’m making this up as I go along,” Brian said, finishing up
his cereal.
Kevin
watched Brian leave and sunk down into a chair. This was a total disaster.
“What’s
bugging you?” A.J. asked, walking into the kitchen.
“Nick.
Brian. You. Kay. Pick one,” Kevin said.
“I’ll
pick Brian.”
“His
plan.”
“Okay
that didn’t help me much,” A.J. said, pouring some cereal. “How about Nick.”
“Nick
likes Kay.”
“I
already knew that. Why am I bugging you?” A.J. asked.
“Kay
likes you.”
“So,
Nick’s bugging you because he likes Kay, and I’m bugging you because Kay
likes me. How does Brian weasel his way into this?” A.J. questioned, sitting
down.
“Kay
likes Nick, or so Brian thinks, so he’s making up a plan as he goes along.
Nick likes Kay while Kay likes you and denies liking Nick.”
“That
would bug me,” A.J. said, scooping some cereal into his mouth.
Meanwhile,
Brian went downstairs to wake up Nick. He shook him a couple of times till
Nick stirred.
“Nick,
wake up,” Brian said.
“No,
mom. I don’t have to go anywhere today,” Nick mumbled.
“You
like Kay.”
This
got a reaction out of Nick. He turned onto his back and looked at Brian.
Brian could see this was true. Then, Nick hit his own head.
“Y’all
already know that.”
“But
she likes you,” Brian said.
Nick
sat up and looked at him with a sorry looking face. He stood up.
“If
only that was true,” Nick mumbled, going into the bathroom that was down
in the family room.
“But
she does! I can help you!” Brian called and Nick slammed the door.
“She
wants it the was it is. Not that way!” Nick called as the shower started.
He began singing, “She never wants to hear me say I want it that way.”
“That
way? What is that way? That made as much sense as the song,” Brian said,
scratching his head.
“Exactly,”
Howie said, coming down the stairs.
“Huh?”
Brian asked turning around.
“I
don’t know. I was just agreeing. You might want to take A.J. out,” Howie
said, pushing Nick’s bedding to the ground.
“Why?”
“He’s
driving Kevin up the wall.”
~*~*~*~*~
Nick
sat in the living room on the third day they were there. He looked down
at the piece of paper in his hands.
For forever and ever
But you wanted it
That way.
And that way doesn’t
include me.
It includes anyone
but me.
Nick
looked at what he had written so far. He wanted to wad it up and toss it,
but he knew better. Kevin could most likely turn it into a song. And that
way they wouldn’t get in trouble for not coming up with anything. That’s
the only reason they were allowed to leave. If it wasn’t for Nick the first
time, they would have never come up with a theme.
“Up
to me again to save the day,” Nick said to himself as the front door open.
Nick
sighed and began to get up to hide. He heard voices. Two female voices.
One was Kay’s. He didn’t know the other. Nick started to go into the dinning
room. That’s when he heard a scream. He turned around and looked at the
doorway. In it stood a star struck prettyblonde
girl.
“Oh,
my God, Kay! You didn’t tell me that Nick Carter was staying with you!”
“That’s
because he’s a Nick,” Kay spit out.
The
girl turned to Kay. “Kay, he’s Nick Carter of the Backstreet Boys!”
“He’s
a Nick. Come on, Alexis.”
However,
Alexis had made her way across the living room and was standing in front
of Nick.
“I’m
so sorry for her behavior. She’ll see soon that you’re a different Nick.
Why are you here?” Alexis asked.
“Kevin
and Tim are friends. The only way Kevin and Brian could come see Kay graduate
was to bring all of us along to come up with a song, seeing the first time
we were here we came up with out theme,” Nick explained.
“Kay,
you never told me that they had been here,” Alexis scolded.
“Sorry,”
Kay said and mumbled, “I thought he’d be gone like the rest of them.”
“Where
are the other ones?” Alexis asked Nick.
“Shopping
downtown.”
“Why
didn’t you go?”
“My
heart hurt too much. I think I’ll be going now. You most likely have something
you need to get done,” Nick said politely and exited the room through the
kitchen and then down the stairs to the family room.
“Kay,
what does he mean his heart hurts too much? He doesn’t have a girlfriend.
Kay what’s wrong with you? Are you crying?” Alexis asked.
Nick
slammed the front door as hard as he could. Kay had did this to herself
as well as him. He stood outside and began walking. It was a great summer
day. Nick didn’t know what he was going to do.
“But
there is only one thing to do,” Nick said. “Forget about her all together.”
Nick
walked back into the house around five that night. The others were home
by now and Nick figured it was safe to go back. As he entered the house
he knew Alexis was still there. Nick sighed and walked up the front stairs.
Alexis ran into the hall from the kitchen. Howie stuck his head out of
it as Alexis ran up to Nick.
“I
need a word with you,” Alexis whispered.
Alexis
pushed Nick down the stairs to the dark hallway in between the front hall
and the family room. Nick looked down at her in the light the lone streetlight
let in through the window.
“What?”
Nick asked.
“What
is up with Kay? She broke into tears after you left.She
then spilled her whole story. I didn’t think Kay could be that cruel to
a Nick. Generally she just ignores them,” Alexis explained.
Nick
looked down at Alexis in disbelief. “So Tim was right?”
“About
what?” Alexis asked.
“Kay
was acting that way because she liked me, but it was like she couldn’t
because I was a Nick.”
“So
you understand? You’ll give her another chance?” Alexis asked, hopeful.
“No,”
Nick said. He started to leave.
“No?
Why not?”
“You
don’t know what she put me through. She went after A.J., she openly was
extremely cruel to me. In front of my face at times. She didn’t do anything
to correct herself. If she really liked me the way you say and she thinks,
she would have done something about this earlier. She’s too concerned with
her image,” Nick said and went up the stairs.
Alexis
followed him up and into the kitchen. Kay wasn’t seated at the table with
the other guys. Alexis walked over to the one empty chair and pulled her
bag out of it.
“I
think I’ll be going now. Nice meeting you. Call me later, Howie,” Alexis
said, walking out the back door.
“Oooooo,
Sweet D,” A.J. cooed. “Going into Latin lover mode.”
Howie
blushed and looked at Nick, “So, what did Alexis want to talk to you about?”
“Nothing
much. Just wanted to know why I left so abruptly when she and Kay came
home,” Nick said, protection Kay for some strange reason.
“So
why did you leave?” Brian asked, helping himself to some potatoes.
“I
felt like I wasn’t wanted,” Nick said, sitting down.
The
guys all nodded in agreement and ate dinner.While
they ate, they talked about their day downtown. They told Nick he really
missed out on everything.
“That’s
okay. Kevin, I began some lyric to a song. Do what you want with them,”
Nick said, tossing Kevin the sheet of paper with the lyrics on them. He
then went downstairs and got into his pajamas and flipped on the TV. He
didn’t look up till Brian came down the stairs with a piece of paper. Nick
put it in his bag, thinking it was Kevin’s rejection of his lyrics.
~*~*~*~*~
“That
was so unreal,” Kevin said, off hand to A.J. as they drove home from Tim’s.
“What?”
A.J. asked, turning the map around in his lap.
“Seeing
that little girl graduate from high school. It was like yesterday when
she was playing tea with Brian in her pink room back home,” Kevin said.
“What exit did we all agree on getting off at?”
“I
don’t know? 43?” A.J. asked.
“A.J.,
pick up that phone and call the other car.”
About
a half-mile behind Kevin and A.J. were Brian, Nick, and Howie.
“Can
you see them?” Howie asked. “I thought we were suppose to get off that
that last exit.”
“Me
too,” Brian said. “ There they are. They didn’t get off. A.J. must be reading
the map upside down again. He did that when we were on tour and in Chicago.”
Howie
laughed out loud. “That’s when you met Sara, right?”
“Sara,”
Brian sighed.
“Opps,
Howie, you said the word Sara,” Nick said from the backseat.
The
phone rang and saved Nick from a waking from Howie. Howie picked up the
phone. They all figured out they had missed the exit for the McDonalds’s
and they would just drive straight home.
~*~*~*~*~
Nick
tossed his bag onto the bed in his room. He opened it up and found the
piece of paper Brian had given him. He had just put it in his bag and left
it there. He opened it up to read his crappy poem thing.
Nick,
First,
I want to say I am sorry for acting the way I did. It was totally uncalled
for. However, I’m a stupid person. One of those popular people with an
image to keep up. An image of hating Nicks. However, I like you too much
to keep it up. After you left, I broke down and told Alexis everything.
Even going after A.J. to be near you. I’m the meanest person around. But,
that’s the only way I know how to do things. The soap opera way. You know,
get A.J.’s heart, move down to be near you then brake up with him and go
with you. I didn’t think how it would affect you or A.J. I’m sorry. I really
am. I’m as mean as Kay in Passions.
I don’t want to turn into her. Maybe I’ll give up soap opera’s. My life
has been one since I left Kentucky. I’m sorry you got pulled into it. Do
what you want. I’ll get the picture.
Love,
Kay
Nick
hit himself in the head. Why didn’t he read this when he had first gotten
it. Now he was home. He had totally screwed everything. But he had said
he wanted it the way it was. But, here Kay…
“Didn’t
really make it clear what way she wants it. God, that blasted song,” Nick
said, rubbing his head as the song I Want It That Way came
into his head.
Believe when I say
I want it that way
But we are two worlds
apart
Can’t reach to you
heart
When you say
That I want it that
way
Tell me why
Ain’t nothing but a
heartache
Tell me why
Ain’t nothing but a
mistake
Tell me why
I never want to hear
you say
I want it that way
Am I your fire
Your one desire
Yes I know it’s too
late
But I want it that
way
Tell me why
Ain’t nothing but a
mistake
Tell me why
I never want to hear
you say
I want it that way
Now I can see that
we’ve fallen apart
From the way it use
to be
No matter the distance
I want you to know
deep down inside of me
You are my fire
My one desire
(BSB. I Want It That
Way)
Nick
shook his head again.
“God,
I never realized how much that song contradicted itself till now. And I’ve
sung it so many time,” Nick said, as he rubbed his head. “Wait, I’m a Nick.
Of course I didn’t. AHHHHH! I’m sounding like Kay.”
Nick
fell down onto the bed. He rolled over and looked at the ceiling.
“Now
what the hell am I gonna do? I made it clear to Kay that I didn’t want
anything because I’m a jack ass that didn’t read the note. I guess I’llhave
to live without her. I most likely will never see her again. I totally
lived up to the expectations of Nicks,” Nick muttered, as he pulled himself
up and out of bed.
He
walked over to the window and opened it. He looked out and dreamed of a
day when he didn’t have to face the world as Nick Carter the Backstreet
Boys who’s life totally sucked in the love department.