Pain Killer

Swallowed up by my jealousy, blinded by my pain, my bodys numb, i can't feel my insides,now you tell me that you lied, the bitterness of trust betrayed,i just want to shrink away into this hole of dispair, kill myself until i escape this pain. Fuck, what did i do wrong? was i not strong enough? weak, was i to weak for you? why? why when i needed you most you were gone?questions, all i have is questions, pain all i feel is pain.I just want to stop, escape myself, just shed hollow tears, you'll never be there when i need you, you'll always neglect my feelings, it was fucked from the start i knew, yet i tried to make it work for the sake of having you, but it was fucked, we both knew,fucked, like your mind, fucked like my soul, fucked all it ever was, was fucked.