08/01/2017
Supposed to.
At the beginning of the summer, I was supposed to take my kids to Montana to visit their grandmother. That didn't happen. Although I am relieved the stresses of getting off to and traveling are off me, I'm really disappointed. My kids, I thought would be happy because being in a car for two days isn't their favorite were actually really disappointed too. ugh. It's not anyone's fault it didn't happen. My parents moved from Wisconsin thinking they had a home to rent and when they got there, even though they paid money it was pulled out from under them. Homeless is never a fun way to start a new life. It's scary, and feels alone and lost. I've been there before I found the home we're currently in. It's riddled with anxiety and not sleeping or nightmares. Never fun. BUT after a week, they found a really sweet place with three bedrooms and a big yard her old dog just loves. They sit on the porch and eat breakfast in the morning(they couldn't do that in Wisconsin for all the weather out there) and they walk to places they need as they are close enough to do that but aren't really in a city as we know it. More like a rural community. I can't wait to see it. We are taking the train up there with the kids in the winter for Christmas. Yes, so see? silver linings. This summer has been boring for us, no kids. No real responsibilities. Just wandering around, running small errands and helping our friends with a block party they were putting on until heat advisories stopped that right quick. We attended a Lion's Club event and ate hamburgers, ate at Black Bear, planted peppers..our usual. I can't wait till my kids are home again. It's so dull without them around. I always have lingering thoughts that somehow i've let them down, I hope not. I'm trying to be a good consistant mom. Like I'm supposed to.
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