My Jenny's impatiently
waiting for me
I set some time aside for love
but I'm stuck in this traffic jam
keeping track of how late I am
I promised her we'd meet at eight
an' she joked, "sure, now don't be late"
but something's caused a traffic stop
and it's really making me upset
"it's prob'ly somethin' stupid too, I bet"
I'm sure that Jenny will understand
especially when I present her wedding band
till now I wasn't really sure
for two years I've meant to propose
but the strength to ask her comes and goes
Since I'm stopped here while on my way
I'm rehearsing what I will say
I wrote a little poem
asking her to be my wife
and live together a happy life
Jenny, my Love, you give me strength
to see the day completely through
the closest girl to perfection I ever knew
my heart and mind don't always agree
but when you're on my mind, my heart can see
I've picked the most beautiful flower
in the valley of life
Jenny, my love, will you be my wife?
This slow moving process is getting me mad
my heart is excited an' my nerves are bad
In the midst of my joy, I selfishly said
"I don't know what's happening up ahead
but for how late I am, someone better be dead"
I just cannot wait to see my Jenny's face
and follow it up with a long, warm embrace
my cards are laid out on the table
my proposals my ace, I'm bent on winning
my mind's up in space, around planet's it's spinning
I can smell burned rubber somewhere
tracks off the road, but I've seen my share
It's too bad and sad, but I have plans to fulfill
very unfortunate, the accident and all
but I wanna' get moving before my car stalls
I followed the tire tracks with curious eyes
glancing at traffic with eye rolls and sighs
when the van in front of me moved a little
and I stopped breathing and my blood went cold
Jenny's car was capsized on the side of the road
i started thinking back to what i had said
that someone up ahead had better be dead
i felt like i'd been sentenced to hell
for eternity with my ever-deserving soul
burning forever where there is no parole
i opened my door and ran to Her car
i noticed Her driver's side door was ajar
i prayed so hard my hands were bleeding
i bit my tongue and was out of breath
and i saw what i feared, through the window was death
They tried to stop me, but i opened the door
took Her soft hand in mine, i had to be sure
Her pulse didn't respond, Her heart wasn't beating
Her teary, angelic eyes sparkled, not moving, but flashed toward
a picture of me she had taped to the dashboard
i picked Her up and held Her tight
"Why did i wait until tonight
to give to Her my engagement ring
i've had forever, and now it's too late
my heart can't stand this evil fate
i took the ring out and still asked Her
"Will you marry me, my love, my Jennifer?"
i'll never be able to look at another
they'd only remind me of how much i miss You
and how lonely things look from this point of view
i kissed her one last time and long
i never thought Our love would go wrong
i put the ring on Her finger
and embraced Her long as i had planned
i never want to let go of her hand
i never forgave myself and never will
i never thought deferment would kill
the love of my eternity
i'm awake for hours, lying in bed
feeling totally responsible for Her being dead
i've tried to move on
and accept that she's gone
but i move on to the next thought
and it's always of JENNY, forever my love
i can only hope We'll reunite in Heaven above
I wrote most of this in about 20 minutes, then finished it the following
day. I wrote it in tradition with classic tragic songs like "Last kiss." I
think I worded that right. The
"Jenny" in the story could be based on my friend Jen because it affected her,
but that was after I wrote it. So, "Jenny" is just the character. Besides, I
wouldn't write such a horrible thing about Jen.
Near the end, I played around with capitalization to emphasize Jenny's
importance, and how low/guilty the guy feels.
-Winn