If I have not loved you quite
It is not for wont of feeling
Or any lacking on your part

I was simply occupied wondering
Something too close to myself
To be seen honestly or feared enough
Unable to notice the certain smile
You had was just as much mine
Willingly and helplessly drowning
In a need approaching obsession
Devotion and being called everything

I couldn't possibly pay attention
How you expected, asked, nothing
Laid yourself prone at my feet
That you saw the obvious, the secret
The things you have never said
Looked to me in the silence
With That smile and Those eyes
And they were calling me everything

Grant that I am still spiraling at times
Into the nothingpain that comes
From being reduced to ashes
By twin flames burning out of control
Understand that there will be times
When I have to remember
Speak of twisted love once felt
Remind me that he was never everything

When you brush my hair from my face
Make wonder what you are trying to see
Softness of lips matching sound of rain
Feeling you smile in darkness
Your hands moving past my skin
Teaching my soul tactile lessons
You have waited far beyond patience
And I am finally understanding everything

- April 2002