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Calgon! Meet Kitty!!!Well to start off I grew up in a Christian home, going to church every Sunday, I asked Jesus into my heart when I was 5 my mother tells me. Also when I was about 7 or 8 I recommitted again to make sure I was a Believer. I never really felt a change everyone seems to talk about when they commit their life to Jesus. Well these past few years I have been yearning to become closer to God. I wanted him to feel more "real" to me. I just felt empty inside but I knew I was a Christian. I went to church every Sunday and youth group every Wednesdays. I felt so alone at youth group that some nights I went home crying because barely anyone would talk to me and I would just sit in a corner for the whole time. Well this summer I had an opportunity to go on a mission trip with my youth group summer the summer before my sophomore year in high school. I kept praying that God would become more real to me during that trip and I would be a changed person when I came back. Well on the trip we got to help at a rescue mission in San Francisco and we got to pray with homeless people. I felt so grateful that I have all the stuff I do. Most of the people had nothing. I had everything compared to them. I also got to experience tongues on the trip. We were at a prayer meeting before we went out on the streets of San Fran. These people just started talking in this weird Language, I thought it was Spanish! Dumb me! Someone told us that it was speaking in tongues and I felt awed that I had heard God's language! I had never heard that before. Well what really changed my life was when we were at a pool party at one of intern's house on the trip. We were having a time of prayer where we could talk to our intern's parents because they were very strong Christians. I felt compelled to go talk to them. my friend was talking to them and they I talked to them. I told them that I wanted God to feel more real to me and a lot of other feelings I had that I can't exactly remember. I started crying and asked God in my heart again. Since then I've felt different. I just seem to know that God is with me. I still fall but God's there to pick me up. It's like God won't let me feel the way I used to...that there's a hole in my heart. It's hard to describe but I know that God's there even if I don't think it. I'm involved with a small group and a bible study at my school that reminds me that I'm not alone being a Christian. I've recently gotten involved with a youth worship band at my church. I feel that God has blessed me with playing the violin so I could praise him back. I've had lots of fun and I love playing for him! I hope everyone who
reads this remembers that God will not let you down or ever
leave you. He loves more than you can ever imagine!
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