A PART OF ME WENT WITH YOU THE DAY GOD TOOK YOU HOME
A MILLION TIMES I'VE MISSED YOU, A MILLION TIMES I'VE CRIED
IF LOVE COULD HAVE SAVED YOU, YOU NEVER WOULD HAVE DIED
IF LOVE COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY AND HEARTACHE COULD BUILD A LANE
I'D WALK THE FAR PATH TO HEAVEN AND BRING YOU BACK HOME AGAIN.
It was so very hard when she told me(I remember she called on Feb/12/98)to say that the news from the doctor was not good..he had told her she had about 3 months left to her life.She had felt a lump about 3 weeks before Christmas..which she had removed on Dec/30th, well it was cancerous and had already spread to her bowels and liver.I was devastated and she said"It's ok hon,lots of people get sick and die".But I felt as if my heart was being ripped from my chest,and was overwhelmed with the pain of knowing I was losing her.This wonderful loving woman died 37 days later.My mom loved her family so much..she also has 23 grandchildren and 2 great grandkids(my grandkids).
My mom loved the outdoors very much,spring was her favorite time of the year.She loved her birdhouses and watching the birds very much.She loved fishing and walking in the woods to see the wildlife.She loved growing her own vegatables and had a wonderful flower garden every year.She loved having all her kids and grandkids over at the cabin for family BBQ's.She never missed any special event in her kids and her grandkids lives, was there for every birthday,school plays,graduations,christenings etc.I always thought it was so cute that if she called you on the phone and thier was no answer all day,she would get all worried that something bad happened and would call another one of my brothers or sisters to make sure we were ok.She always liked to look her very best and took such good care of her self, she always had a smile for you and a joke to make us laugh,even with the cancer raging through her frail body.But it could not destroy her soul or her heart filled with love,she asked that we all come to say goodbye,We had a chance to say how we loved her so,each and every one of us and then she took her last breaths early the next morning,the hardest thing I have ever done was walk away knowing I would never see her,or be able to hug and kiss,or laugh and joke with her again.I now truly know the meaning of a broken heart with losing you Mom.
Mom you were so pleased to become a great-grandma at age 60,so you could see them grow up,Sadly God had other plans for you. I miss you so very much,you will be in my thoughts every day for the rest of my life,as I will see you in myself and sibilings and grandchildren,by a certian expression or gesture or smile.You felt bad as you had no material things to leave behind.But you have left me with a beautiful legacy of your love,which I will cherish always.Thank you Mom for my wonderful memories of a wonderful childhood as well as all the love and support,and the friendship you have shown me all my life.Knowing you are no longer suffering makes it alittle easier to bear losing you,Mom without you in my life it will never be the same.I still have a hard time knowing your no longer here with us,I know you that you are now our very own special guardian angel to watch over us up above with your love as you did here on earth . I try not to shed to many tears Mom,as you hated too see us unhappy or sad, but it is so very hard at times with missing you not too.I have even picked up the phone to call you or out shopping think Oh Mom would love this,then it hits me again that you are no longer here,and at times it still feels so unreal to me.But don't worry about me Mom,I love life and my family just as much as you did, I will be okay.
Goodbye Mom,Till we meet again
Dec/25/98..Mom this was the first Christmas without you here,you were sadly missed I am sure you have seen your new Great-granddaughter Hailey..she is beautiful Mom, She has your exact chin,even the little half moon line..I like to think that means that you are watching over us,and know not a day goes by without me thinking of you.
 |
This |
 |
