I have a brain!
oh yeah.. but anyway, me. let's see... to describe myself in one word.... jewish? no... now that wouldn't be true. i guess i can't do it. people use interesting words to describe me all the time (hyper, silly, full of life, and scandelous (haha liz). so i guess i may be a little of each. recently, i hit a point in my life where i really want to change a lot of things. i didn't like where things were headed. now i'm on a new path and happier than ever. i use to think i could live my life having other people make me feel better about myself. now i've realized that i am the only person who will truly make me happy about myself. so now that i'm all that.. i've got to go fight a couple people, just kidding :).
Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. ...Anais Nin
first on the list is going to have to be liz, she has been around the longest and she deserves credit for putting up with me. liz is my "mom". well more in the fact that she takes care of me. also she tells me if something is a good idea or a bad idea. it's funny how many times after something happens how we will both sit down and realize how she was right and i was wrong. but in return, i try to give her advice too. she's always been there for me. the only reason we don't really fight is because we know one another too well and we know why we do the crazy things we do. thanks for putting up with me, liz, we can always be random together:).
colleen makes it next on my list. she has been there for the good times, the bad times, and the stupid times. i've watched her grown up and i'm proud to say that she is my sister and i love her with all my heart. colleen always knows what's best for me, and how to make me happy when i think there is no light at the end of the tunnel. she has THE GREATEST boyfriend right now, she totally deserves it.. i predict her and newman will get married. hon, we've cryed through our hardest breakups together.. i had no idea how important you were in my life until i needed you the most and you were there. colleen, not many people would sacrificed what you did for me. you stopped and listened to me. i wish i could do the same in return, but i realize i already have :). i love you!!!
Next goes someone who've i've known for a long time, but just became friends with her this summer, Anne!! Anne is one of the most caring people i have ever met. i know that we will be friends for the long run because i can really trust her and she really trusts me. we both have been so busy this summer, but the times we hang out, we make the most of them. i love anne very much and know we're be friends for the long haul.
from colleen i met this totally awesome kid named justin. sir, you sure know everyone in the whole world! now i've known you've been through alot in the last couple months, but living at home can't be that bad with the parents you have, they are fun, let me tell you. and remember, when i turn 18, you promised we'd go to the club and perfect my dance moves. although they were a little shaky at prom, my britney dance was quite impressive. justin's opened me to so much, basically a whole world that i never knew was there and i'm glad i have it. i wish i could pay you back, but then i realize that is what you do for people, open the light.
And other people i've met through colleen are her boyfriend and his roommates. these guys are so cool. i didn't even know them and the first time i met them they made me feel like i was a part of their little friendship club. i've also never had a connection with someone like i have with spangler. we can talk and talk (till 4 in the morning, right?). he really understands me well and i enjoy learning about him and his life as well. i'm always looking for someone to hook him up with because he is the sweetest guy, but i'm a bit too young for him.
and liz has these older twin brothers who i have adopted. ok guys, i'm working on your care package still!! it's on the way!!! they look out for me, show me their ass, make "alex specials", and loan me and liz money for weight loss programs and how could i forget showing me tons of great pictures (brandon.. those pictures have scarred me for life!). even though i don't hang out with them on a regular basis, i love them and sometimes you just can't do anymore then that. although brandon amazes me with all of his hook-ups. if you notice the very clean state of my car and the replaced mats... you can thank him for that. and random trips buy things on sale keep us occupied. trust me, brandon is going to be the richest boy, it brings me back to our monopoly games. it doesn't get any better than these twins. i am so glad i shared my childhood with you both. from the awkward stages to where ever the hell i am today! thank you, everyone deserves friends like you guys.
from liz i get a bunch of other kids. kara, sarah, monica, and tammy. these girls... i must say are soooo fun to hang out with. the beach, prom, almost DEMF and the gr rave. you folks are all fun and it's cool that even though i met you through liz, you are all my friends. monica took care of me when i had sun posioning, i'm not sure how i could of gotten out of that one by myself. and kara, i know there is always tons of stuff i can talk to you about, glad you love the cds. sarah, i'm glad you liked your party! me you and liz and hung out millions of times so it's cool we have stuff in common. haha keep those curls and watch out for brett even if once in awhile he does look hot. also watch out for those bagels you sleep on, leaking gas, and trains. oh and tammy, prom was definitely a blast, going to your boyfriends apartment preprom was fun and made the rest of the night much more relaxed, oh and talk about pimping out a limo. now even though country music is not the best thing in my book, i did survive birthday bash with y'all with few complaints :). sometimes i wish i could go to your guy's school to be closer to such fun people!
PETER!! i swear to god i'm not going to forget you this time!! i've known you since you and liz were all hooked up. you have been a great friend of mine and understand me better than i understand myself. although i would get INCREDIBLY shy around you, i'm glad you are the way you are because then we would have never became friends. i'm really lucky to have you in my life because you can make me feel better about myself. you are such a great person. i know that you are still wondering what to do after high school, but being who you are, you have nothing to worry about. you're destine for success. thanks for everything.
I couldn't forget Lauren.. we have kinda grown up together but didn't start being really close until last year and now this year is complete chaos. something about slot machines and the spring just makes me incredibly happy. big money right hon? then our little tips sharing resulted in knowing that THE WHOLE SENIOR CLASS SIMPLY COPIED ONE ANOTHER!!! ok, secrets out. remember operation guidance office? thank you tanner! if there is a subject we haven't talked about i sure will cover it soon!
I'm also friends with logan. She really is a sweet girl. for awhile it didn't look like we were going to be too good of friends. then we were, then i am never at high school anymore now that i'm a western fiend. but i see her now and again and it's really nice.
Hold the phone, speaking of western, what about all my western friends!!! well there's lauren in my writing class. without sarcasm, it would be a dull two hours. my media and the sexes class, actually it's too big and i always sleep.. i haven't really gotton to know anyone. in my fashion class, i've got these girls marla, steph, rebekka and the rest of the clan. we always have a blast and actually have fun outside of class too. how could i forget about the fab five in film? me stacy josh craig and ummm, i can't remember her name because she is a newcomer, but give me a second. well we can make fun of our communist teacher. also SOME of our little rituals before class make it more interesting i'm sure. josh always wants me to hang out with him, and i feel so bad but he get's me at the worst times!!!
so i must go on to lindsay, we ALWAYS say we are going to hang out with liz together.. i guess there just isn't enough hours in the day... but thanks for running to see the blue light with me, now wasn't that cool. who cares if people think we're crazy? just remember: the dirt won't wash off!!, singing monkey's, rubber ducks, paper consolitdation, and sitting out in the hall with the ball. i'd say we'd have class next year but yeah, i forgot you're smart!
katie.. sweetie, i didn't forget you!! you are a girl of a million laughs let me tell you.. our little late night drives have gotten us in some trouble, but the guy was worth it wasn't he? haha just kidding, but i'll tell him you want him so he'll start liking you again, won't that be swell. who could forget the retro dance and all the clubbing that we've been doing. you've been there in good times and bad and nothing you do will make me forget that!
then there's always my brother. we watch out for each other and try to kill each other at the same time, it's quite strange, but i am sure proud to be his little sister. he helps me out and sometimes he doesn't realize how much he means to me and how one little action means the world to me. he let's me chill with him at dorms and when he moved into the townhouses, he lets me basically live there too which is always a good time. the other day, greg gave me this hug goodbye that makes me realize how much we love eachother and how hard it is going to be to let go when i go to school. and if any of his dorm friends are reading this, i love all of you!!! trivino, neal, chris, dan, dave carmen ponch... and whoever else that i've met!!
What about the ztvers you ask? well i'm FINALLY getting back in touch with ross and andrew. i guess after everything went down, they were the only two standing up. i love them both to death and i hope we can all hang out with anne someday too, even though she is all off at college.
so there is some idea of who i am, through my friends. thanks for being part of my life!
So i guess everyone wants a litle update on what I'm doing. I start at Michigan State in the fall and I'm nervous as hell!!! i am ready to get out there, but sometimes the real world doesn't seem like it's going to be too good to me; it's easier to just let everything be done for you, but then there is no gratification. A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words. ....Unknown