Peggy
It's late at night
And you're all alone
Nobody to hold you tight
No one to call you own
It's a hard way to live
A terrible way to die
Having so much to give
So much time to cry
I know how you ache
And understand the pain
Of knowing your heart will break
If you dare to love again.
RDF..... 3/11/98
SECRETS
My arm over your sleeping form
the gentle sound of your breathing
keeps me safe from the fears I know
...when sleeping alone
I don't think you would understand
if I were to tell you this
You need so much to be needed
A sleeping form, silent and still
can hardly be complimentary to you
Not that I don't enjoy you awake
you're so alive, bright and gay
but it is only those times that
I awake, searching, unsure and lost
that I need someone close to me
RDF
LOVERS DICTIONARY (Vol. 1) Aloof, Alone and Aching / my heart is breaking Blaming, Bored and Bad / I'm the one who is sad Caressing, Caring and Crying / Could our love be dying Duty, Desire and Divorce / how did we get off course Easy, Earnest and Ending / is there no time for mending Foolish, Finding and Fighting / crying as I'm writing Grabbing, Going and Giving / you made life worth living Happy, Homeless and Heartache / more than you could take Jealous, Joyous and Jeering / all that I was fearing Kindness, Kismet and Kissing / what was I missing Loving, Laughing and Lying / when did you stop trying Miles, Months and More / never wondering what for Naughty, Needing and Never / I thought I was too clever Open, Others and Omit / my love for you won' quit Perfect, Petty and Pretend / I won't let us end Quiltwork, Quitting and Queasy / losing you won't be easy Ribbons, Reasons and Roses / my heart never closes Seasons, Sex and Singing / my love keeps me clinging Tempting, Thoughtful and Trying /still you are not crying Useless, Ugly and Unkind / thought of me fill me mind Vixen, Vital and Viscous / you fulfilled all of my wishes Wanton, Woeful and Wedlock / we're caught in a deadlock Xmas, Xtra and eXit / please love me a little bit Yelling, Youthful and Yearning / I guess we are learning Zen, Zesty and Zero / I'm sorry I couldn't be your heroLOVE IS Fantasy in full flight A safeguard from the night An intentional delusion Mostly an excuse for confusion For eternity (while it lasts) Cluttered and colored by our pasts Not so much selection As the absence of rejection Yet we say we fell Under cupid's wondrous spell Whenever we choose to mate And world becomes great Other than our being deranged Nothing else has changed We forget what we have learned How it hurts to be spurned To justify our human lust (for society says we must) we invoke the magical word love and swear by the heaven's above
On The Ward An Atavan smile awash in tears reality is not your style a prisoner of your fears Valium and vodka meals couldn't suppress your hurt you had to know how it feels to be treated like dirt Sex brought you only pain no pleasure there for you you give your body again and again and pretend they care for you Moved on to Elavil rather than believe that I love you still and will never leave RDFBEACHES PLUS I remember a few (there weren't many) who should have been at home with schoolwork not floating wine bottles on beaches at 2 a.m. Gathering discarded clothing against the night chill I hope they remember me with the same smiles They shared their youth with me eagerly, as I fought to hold onto mine RickPEG You gave me your best years I grew a lot in your arms lost one too many fears and left for another's charms Still you waited, quiet and strong knowing I would come to you now that I know where I belong I find that you have grown up too You are marrying another man whad did I expect you to do after I have done all that I can to bring pain and heartache to you I wish I could wish you well all the joys of marital bliss but Peg it hurts like hell to know the love I will always miss. There will be new poetry added often... Rick 