I can’t tell you how much I feel so deeply. I can’t show you the pain I undertake some days.
If only you could feel the emptiness, the rage, the insanity I feel.
If you could know the light inside my whole being has been sucked out;
my whole essence has been literally deadened by clay that is superficial and bleak.
To know the light is to find the darkness where nothing works to find a place where
something just might bring some peace into the life that was supposed to be
brighter than that of a brilliant purple and orange filled sky.
To find the light that is diminished
I have to crawl out of my places where I reside all of the time.
I have to break free from society and the consciousness that there is not enough.
I must find a way to be enlightened through re-healing everything about me and
the insanity I have been through.