I have seen you shake
And I know what it cost you
I have heard your words
I am big on your noise
My eyes aren't big enough
'Cause I can't see your hands
I can't see what you hold
I am growin' now
As I watch you fade
Now I know what you know
And I'll break the chains that you have made
This chain you've made for me
Yeah, I will pull you down
I know I'll fail in style
I long to touch your genius hands
I am growin' now
As I watch you fade
Now I know what you know
And I'll break the chains that you have made
This chain you've made for me
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I will pull you down
I know I'll fail in style
I will, I swear
I'm gonna shake your genius hands
~~~Sick & Tired~~~
I break every day
Stressed out in every kind of way
I am sick and tired of bein' sick and tired
All I need and crave
Loud life with the power to fade
I am livin' 'cause I keep it all in, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all in, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all in, keep it all inside
Love don't work for me
I want women who are out of my reach
I am sick and tired of livin' all alone
All I need for sure
Big love with the power to make more
I am livin' 'cause I keep it all in, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all in, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all in, keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall
I know I'm dangerous
I'm afraid I'm going down
I blame my family
Their damage is livin' in me
I am sick inside and tired of my life
All I need, I swear
Go out with the power of a nightmare
I am livin' 'cause I keep it all in, keep it all inside
I keep it all in, keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all in, keep it all inside
I know I'm going to fall
I know I'm dangerous
I know I'm not going down alone
I keep it all in, keep it all inside
I keep it all in, keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall
I know I'm dangerous
I know I'm not going down alone
I'm not going down alone, I know
~~~The Laughing World~~~
Right now, day one, I fall soft
When I fall I always fall on you
Face first, head down, eyes closed
Arms out to break my fall, we fall down
Like a world of noise we get lost
Inside the length of our own time
And the laughing world will never forget
It's when you jam that I jet
I jet
I see, I want, I reach
I fail to hold the things that I need
I turn, I reach for you
Wanna touch our life before it fades
Like a burning car in the sun
We flame for the all in plain view
And the laughing world will never forget
It's when you jam that I jet
I jet, I jet, I jet...
And the laughing world will never forget
Laughing world will never forget
Laughing world will never forget
It's when you jam that I jet
I jet, I jet, I jet...
~~~Fire Maple Song~~~
Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turnin' down to avoid them when they call
Strange words I heard a long, long time ago
I wish I could go back to a summertime
I knew more than twenty years ago
Lay between the sheets
Lie underneath the maple tree
Now I can't smile
Lyin' down in the grass with the wind around us as we smile and talk
Listen to your grandma sing those country songs
She'd tell us how the maple turns to fire every four years
We'd lay in the grass all summer just to watch the autumn come around
I can't smile
I can't smile
Now I live alone
And you're so far away
Yeah, I call you every year
Just around the holidays
I still see you in the night
Lyin' above me in the grass
I can't smile
Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turnin' down to avoid them when they call
I can't believe this letter that says you died
I think I'm gonna go back the the house in North Carolina
And lay in the back yard
Get drunk and let the leaves just bury me, bury me
I can't smile
I can't smile
I don't know what's happened to me
I don't know what's happened to me
I can't smile
~~~Pennsylania Is...~~~
Jackson met a girl in a valley town
They fell into a teenage love she'd grow to hate
He's in prison now since he beat her down
He got her pregnant and she made it go away
Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania
I got a card today from a girl I know
She used to live alone in Philadelphia
She had to leave the state for a choice she made
She says she feels just like a hostage in her home
Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania
You can close your eyes, you can fall and die
You can hope your laws will make it go away
You can close your eyes but you can't make it go away
I just got a call from my uncle Mike
He said he left his wife and he's not going back
Said she changed her mind about a desire child
I asked him if he wants a placemat or a wife
Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania is wrong!
~~~Nervous & Weird~~~
You know I want to be the way you want me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
I would break in half if you said it loud
Splinter out of myself just like mercury
I think it's better now than how it used to be
You were lying in bed and I would levitate
I think it's better here than where we used to be
I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun… to be alive in the day
I'd smile at everyone
I remember you back in '83
You were dressing insane, you were my everything
You were so different from all those other girls
A blind Electra in drag, so cool and casually lame
I think I'm better now than how I used to be
Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time
I think it's better now than how it used to be
Always up in the night, afraid to live in the day
Afraid of being afraid
Now I sit alone when you're not around
I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice
I see you scary dolls, they all look at me
From the corner of my eye I see them shake their heads
You know I want to be the way you me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day
~~~Malevolent~~~
Maybe I went too far this time
I just go crazy when she says no
Angel turns away pulls her dress back down
Slowly washes her face
Takes the bus to her job downtown
She said, I'm OK, don't worry about me
Now she thinks for herself, hey what just happened to me?
I told him that I thought it was over, I told him that I wanted to leave
He used to touch me so nice when we first met
I never dreamed he would hit me, I never dreamed he would hold me down
She said, don't worry about me, I won't worry about you
I don't want to be friends
She said, I'm OK
Just leave me alone
She said don't worry about me, I won't worry about you
She said, I'm OK, don't worry about me
I don't want to be friends
Just leave me alone
Don't worry about me
~~~Sparkle~~~
I remember when you seemed real shiny with the sweat of your voice
Shaky hands super loud and teenage mouth
We were all charmed and taken with your talk
Now I shudder when I hear the rhythm of your walk
Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you
I have sinned the sin of wanting more
The belly fire pulls the spirit from the corporate whore
I'm embarrassed by the plaid you wear
If I were you I'd hide behind that stupid bleach blonde hair
Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you
Yeah that simple minded sparkle that I thought I saw
Yes I have wondered why you changed
I liked it when you were super loud
I wonder if you're giving in, tell me why you're giving in
~~~Trust Fund~~~
I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times
A truer-blue love you will never know
Run from pain they'll never realize
Sheltered from it in a loving glow
Young and happy and oh-so politically correct
Just get it if you need it now
Just buy it if you need it in your life
Don't you worry if it all runs out
Don't worry 'cause it never will
I know a young girl living in the shadow of
The kind of life that she could never make
She takes it all and gives it back in love
To handsome artists in her native state
She is the angel of the loser and the disenchanted soul
Just get it if you need it now
Just buy it if it makes you happy
Don't you worry if it all runs out
Don't worry because it never will
I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times
~~~Loser Makes Good~~~
I hate waking up, it means that I have to die again tonight
35 years old and I'm still sleeping outside
Yeah I think I know your face, I don't want to know your name
I won't give in, I'm not like that, I won't give in
You say it's Christmas Eve, that don't mean nothing to me
Just another fucked up day, just another waste of time
You wonder why I live like this, man you just won't understand
I won't give in, I'm not like that, I won't give in
You smart-ass college fuck
Act like you think you're tall
I was just like you
More pride than you could know
You think you pity me
Hey I'll kick your ass if you pity me
I won't give in, I'm not like that
No I won't give in to you
You college boy act like you think you're tall
I won't give in, I'm not like that
I won't give in
~~~Invisible~~~
I will live, I will live
Maybe for a year or two, maybe for a year
I will die, I will die, I can rest secure in that
I am awful sure that this thing ain't no accident
And I just can't believe that AIDS is just some act of God
I will reach for you, I will reach my hand
No one will reach for me, no one will touch my skin
Yes I will accept, I will accept my pain
I don't deserve to die like this, no one deserves to die like this
Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world
I will not be denied, I will not be ignored
I'm not invisible anymore
I will not be denied, I will not be ignored
I'm real, I won't go away
I am not invisible anymore
Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world
~~~Evergleam~~~
Evergleam and I know why God is good and Jesus loves me
Heaven lives and I know where
Sounds to me a not so easy chair
Falling free and living down
Stringing out and over happy
Evergleam and I know why it isn't real and I'm not going to break
Don't die, don't give in, no way no way...
Please don't leave me
Evergleam and I know how pulling hair and breaking voices
Giving in won't stop the noise
Spinning wills don't give you choices
Take away the spark inside, you take away the shining prize
Evergleam and I know how it isn't real and I'm not going to break
I'm not going to break
Evergleam, everywhere, ever weird, everyone...
I'm not going away, I'm not going away...
I won't see you there
I'm not going away, I'm not going to break...
No way
