overview of 2 months :.
this is in 2 diff. peoples accounts.
Terri.
I was now 5 months pregnant and was really starting to show. I got kind of worried. I wore baggy clothes alot. I knew everyone was getting suspicious. I didn't wanna get an abortion though. That would be killing a human life/lives.
I wrote in my diary more often now. I mostly wrote in it during my free time or when everyone else was out or sleeping. 30th, 2001 11:00pm.
' Dear Diary, I am really getting nervous. I won't be able to hide for much longer. This is a really bad time for me to be having a baby or babies. I wanna tell somebody but I can't. Especially not Mana. She would kill me and Erik. I have mixed feelings about this. I mean I'm glad to be giving birth but at the same time I'm scared to death. I'm sad but also angry. Over these two months, my mood swings have become more frequent, I'm extremely tired and have gotten extremely outlandish food cravings. I'm exercising to keep fit, you know running laps, working out to those pregnancy workout tapes, eating right , getting my rest, and getting reg. checkups but I just want to go into hiding until this is all over. I know everybody is curious as to what is going on with me but I'm just not ready to tell them yet. I'll tell them hopefully next month. Anyways, Erik and I are still together. We've been dating ( again ) for 2 months now ( awww sweet bliss ) and I know he's just dying to pop the question to me. I told him 3 months and he is respecting that. I love him so much he's just so sweet, funny, caring, generous, and honest. I know I gotta tell him next month for sure.
The press are being so persistent to know why I'm wearing baggy clothes so often now. They never stop until they get dirt on anything. I pity Erik in this too. Reporters ave been bothering him too. Both of us got restraining orders for them never to come near us, which still didn't stop them from running rumors in the tabloids.
Gotta Go and get some sleep for tomorrow.We're going through NYC for a couple photo shoots, an autograph signing, rehearsals, skating, free time, meals of course, and being on the Rosie o' Donnell show.
Busy, Busy Beavers aren't we ?.
Goodnight and Peace out.......
Terri. **.'
Mana.
30th, 2001 12:00MIDNIGHT.
' Dear Diary, It's me yet again. I can't sleep. I keep thinking about everything that has been going on for the past months. I can tell von Detten and Terri are in love but I still hate that asshole with every being in my body. I still wanna kill him. I just can' get this thought out of my head that He and Terri are hiding this huge secret. The press have been hounding us as to why Terri's is wearing casual, baggy clothes so much. I told them that she dressed casual all the time before we became famous so just back off. Of course, they try to dig deeper for dirt which is none of their damn business. They just wanna make a quick buck off any famous celebrity. Shirley and I are best friends and talk ALOT these days. Her career is going so well. She wished us all good luck at the AMA ( she won for best single and best album ). Our album is coming in about 3 months. We've named it ' Generation Us.' It's got 15 tracks on it. It's an enhanced cd. It also has limited edition posters in the first 500,000 copies in the us, Canada, Europe, and Australia. Plus there's an intro from each of us. Finally there's all of us saying goodbye and giving our website url to our fans ( Not Real Website )
Terri's been kind of weird lately, no make that down right abnormal ( even for her ). Everyone's been wondering why she's so moody ALL THE TIME.
Well gotta go we've got a busy day ahead of us.
Peace out, Mana. **.'
Britney
I was concerned about Terri. She had been kind of sick and run down lately. I think it's b/c of all the promotion and heavy schedules. But somethings nagging me, saying it's something else. Mandy keeps calling to check up on everybody to see how their doin' and to say hi. She never talked to Mana after the incident backstage at the AMA. I don't blame her. I wouldn't either. I was going to start promoting my new album ( fictional title ) '
Baby, It's Love.' and was hoping she'd be ok before i had to leave in 4 months.
Erik
I love Terri so much. I know for sure now that we are meant to be together.
I just hope nothing goes wrong. I've been worried about her b/c she's been so rundown lately. I visit her when she can't get out of bed. This schedule that the group has must be taking it's toll on her. She needs at least 2 months rest max. The doctor said she's fine but I've got a feeling that he's keeping something from us and that Terri begged him to keep her secret. She's been dressing casual and baggy more often ( I love her with out the fancy clothes on all the time for those promo things ).
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