Deliver Me -Page 5 by Lucy Maria Elmer
Faith Yokas made her way to Intensive care, Kim, who
had agreed to come up and keep Katy company as herself
and Bosco talked, at her side. The kids were at home,
Fred having agreed to take care of them. What she
found most shocking was that he knew where she was
going, even had some idea why, and he didn't make a
fuss. Instead he had wished her luck and told her
he'd be around if she needed him.
For a few minutes Faith stood outside, just looking
in at Bos who was tiredly talking to Katy, once again
hooked up to numerous machines in Intensive care. She
was obviously trying to comfort him.
"I didn't mean it Katy. You gotta believe me."
Faith could hear him shouting.
"Bos I know. Calm down." She told him as he started
to cough.
"I swear!" He told her trying to sit up, wincing in
pain.
"Bos calm down, you're gonna rupture something else
if you don't lie back down." Katy told him putting a
hand on his chest.
"I have to explain..." he told her fighting against
her.
"Bos, you lie back down there right now or I will
hit you upside your head you hear me?" came a familiar
voice from the doorway.
Katy turned round smiling at her cousin.
"I'd do what she says Bos." Katy told him, as he
calmed down. "She looks mad." Katy teased.
"We should probably just..." Kim started, walking
over to Katy and wheeling her out of the room.
Faith walked over to his bed and sat down on it.
"You really do have a knack for scaring people you
know that?" she told him softly.
"Faith about what I said..." he started pulling his
oxygen mask down.
"Which part?" she asked crossing her arms. "The
part where you told me that everything you said when
you got shot was lies, or the part where you told me
you were lying about the lying?" Faith told him.
"The latter...I think." He told her confused then
shaking his head in exasperation. "The reason I said
those things...why I told you what I said was a
lie...I just didn't want you to give up your family
for me. I mean look at me Faith. I’m not good enough
for you." He told her.
"Hey, I'm not giving up my family. Freds still
gonna be around and I have Emily and Charlie. Besides
don't you think I'm the one who should be able to
decide who's good enough for me or not?" she asked
him.
"I just didn't want to be the one you'd end up
resenting Faith. I thought that if you left Fred
you'd just realise how much you loved him and go back
to him again. I didn't want to have you in my life
like that and then lose you again." He told her
truthfully.
"And that's why you said those things? You don't
think I'd have done something like this without really
thinking about it do you? Bos I had two children to
consider...I wouldn't have just done it half
heartedly. Any decision I've made has been thought
about over and over again...and that decision brought
me here tonight to hear what you had to say for
yourself. So what have you got to say huh?" she asked
him.
Bosco took a deep breath. Just looking into her
eyes he could see the fear she had that he would hurt
her again. That he would tell her she had given up
what she had for nothing. He could also see the love
in them, and he knew he wasn't going to let this
moment pass with any regrets.
"Faith Yokas I am so very sorry for denying what I
said was the truth. You know why I did it, I just
told you, but know this. I love you so much. When I
said that I couldn't live with myself if I ever hurt
you, I learnt today exactly how bad I could feel
because I did hurt you and knowing that broke my
heart. If I'd have died...after arguing, after lying
to you like that, I would have gone with so many
regrets and like Katy said, living with regrets isn't
having a life. So just so there are no regrets...I
love you, every word I said to Katy was the truth.
You're the one person that keeps me going Faith. You
have been for a long time." He told her then coughing.
Faith put his oxygen mask back over his nose and
mouth and kissed him on the forehead.
"If you ever hurt me like that again Bos I swear
I'll put you right back into hospital again." She told
him stroking his cheek. She could see him smiling
under his oxygen mask.
"Am I forgiven?" he asked, his voice frightened.
"I'll have to think about that..." she replied
enjoying the scared look on his face. "Yeah you're
forgiven." She answered.
Bosco closed his eyes.
"I do love you Bos....You'd better not have fallen
asleep, cos I'm not saying it again." She said
smiling.
Bosco opened his shining eyes.
"Yes you are..." he whispered.
"I love you." She repeated gently pulling the oxygen
mask of his face.
Bosco lifted his arm weakly and stroked her cheek
which was wet with tears.
"You're the first thing I think of in the morning
you know that...and the last thing before I go to
bed." He told her.
"Same here. Though for me it was usually cos you'd
said something really insulting that unfortunately got
stuck in my head at some point during the day." She
teased.
"Yeah well...you know me." He told her.
She smiled.
"I do now." She replied as she leant down and
tenderly kissed him. Slowly each pulled away, amazed
by the depth of their feelings for each other.
"No regrets?" he whispered.
"Are you kidding?" she replied. "I've been waiting
to do that for the past few weeks. Hearing you say
all you did, seeing you in so much pain...I knew then
how strongly I felt for you. I never want to lose that
memory because without it I wouldn't be sitting here
now, without it I wouldn't have realised just what I'd
lose if I didn't have you around." She told him.
Bosco took her into his arms as well as he could.
"You think we'll have a happy ending?" he asked her.
"I think we'll do everything we can to make sure of
it. I don't plan on losing you Bos."
"Maybe I should get shot more often." He commented
smiling.
"You'd better be joking." She told him pulling a
face as they kissed again, two very happy people
watching from the doorway as the promise of a future
full of love blossomed in front of their very eyes.
****
One year later.
Christmas Eve had always been something special to
Faith. Even more so now she was sharing it with
a man who loved her more than anything else in the
world, or at least that was what he told her every
single day. The past year had been so special for
her, granted the circumstances that finally prompted
herself and partner Maurice Boscorelli to confess
their love for one another weren't the most romantic
she could have hoped for. Even now after a year of
being a couple they were still very much in love, and
she had a feeling would be for as long as they were
together. The lessons they learnt when he had been
shot had not been learnt in vain and every day as she
woke up with him at her side she knew she wanted to be
with him forever. Emily and Charlie had adjusted well
to their mother and Bosco moving in together, Fred
even helping the pair out keen to still play a role in
all of their lives. They had adjusted even better to
Katy’s moving in with them. The young woman keen to
start a new life in New York City with people who she
knew could help her with her problems rather than
ignoring their existence. Since her arrival she had
continued with her paramedic training and was loving
being around the people she had grown so close to when
she was in hospital herself, and if they were honest
Faith and Bos loved having her around. Where else
would they get a babysitter at such short notice.
Faith Yokas stood in the kitchen watching Emily and
Charlie happily play Twister in the living room.
Bosco had always gotten on with her kids, even when
she was with Fred, but since they had all lived
together she had seen a totally new side of him. He
was so sweet with them, helping take care of them when
they were sick, reading to them, playing with them
whenever he could. He loved fathering them even
though they weren't his own. A lot of people had been
surprised at the caring and loving man Bosco had
turned out to be, many of the police force commenting
on it when they saw the partners together at work.
Faith while being somewhat surprised, had known for a
long time however just what he was capable of. It had
just meant him finding the person he wanted to be with
before that side of him was really shown.
As Faith continued making mince pies and Christmas
pudding, the door opened and a snow-covered Katy
walked in.
"Hey hon. Where you been all day?" Faith asked
walking over to Katy and embracing her.
"Christmas shopping." She replied holding her bags
up. "Man it is freezing out there." She told her
cousin pulling off her scarf and hat, then brushing
the snow off her coat.
Emily and Charlie both ran over to her.
"What you get?" Emily asked peering into the bag.
"Well, I was gonna save these till tomorrow...but
seeing as I already got you some other gifts..."
The young woman handed Emily and Charlie a present
each.
"Wow cool." Emily commented looking at the new
Britney Spears album Katy had gotten her.
"Thanks Katy." Charlie replied looking at the video
she'd bought him.
"No probs you two." Katy replied.
"Can I put this on now mom?" Emily asked.
"No I wanna put this on." Charlie argued.
Faith shook her head.
"There is no pleasing some people." She commented as
the two kids argued between themselves. "Hey you
didn't happen to see Bos did ya? He went out earlier
and I haven't seen him all day."
Katy shook her head.
"What is that man up to? He's been acting weird all
week."
"Don't ask me." Katy replied grinning. "Hey you
mind if I put these in your closet? I have totally run
outta space." She asked sweetly.
"Go for your life kiddo." Faith replied grinning as
Katy kissed her on the cheek, Emily and Charlie back
playing Twister with Emily’s CD on in the background.
A few minutes later Katy ran out of Faith and Boscos
room, a note in her hand.
"Hey look at this." She told Faith handing the note
to her.
Faith opened it up.
"Meet me at the church at 7.30. Bring the gang.
Love Bos xxx. Where'd you find this?" Faith asked
Katy.
"On the closet door." She replied.
Faith shook her head.
"Hon I was wrapping up presents earlier. I didn't
see anything on the door."
"Well it was there."Katy replied uncomfortably.
"Unless Bos climbed in through the window or somehow
snuck in and outta the house without me noticing, I
don't think so. What are you guys up to?" Faith
asked.
"Hey I'm not up to anything. I'm a little angel."
Katy replied grinning sweetly.
Faith looked at her carefully, she could tell
something was going on and that Katy was part of it.
She shook her head.
"I'm gonna get to the bottom of this." She told her
giggling cousin.
"Yep at 7.30 just like the rest of us." Katy replied
unwilling to share any more, joining her cousins
playing Twister in the lounge.
Kim Zambrano knelt on the snowy ground her arms
wrapped tightly around her. It was so quiet except
for the sound of the wind rustling the trees, and the
moonlight shone brightly, lighting up the gravestone
which she was sitting in front of.
"Hey Bobby. A while ago a friend was speaking to
Joey. She lost a friend and she told him that she
sometimes talks to the person she lost because she can
feel him around. Well I don't know if you can hear me
where you are, but I just...I wanted to come here...to
talk...to say the things I should've said when you
were alive. The truth is Bobby I miss you so
much...you were my best friend...you were my partner
and I loved you...I did...so much more than a friend
loves another friend. I never told you that when you
were alive and I know I should've done. God Bobby I
was such a bitch to you...I mean all I could talk
about was me and Jimmy. I never even thought how much
that was hurting you. When I said I loved you as my
best friend I was telling you the truth, but I also
loved you so much more than that. I think if I wasn't
so scared of complicating things...of hurting you even
of getting hurt we could've been so happy and I regret
so much not having that chance. I watched you slip
away Bobby and it hurt so badly, it still hurts.
Sometimes it's as if my heart is breaking and I can
actually feel it. I am so angry with myself...you
were the only constant I had in my life...the person I
could always rely on, the person who was always
looking out for me...comforting me...listening to me
and I just didn't realise it until too late. Instead
I was chasing after Jimmy...I'm so sorry Bobby, I'm
sorry I hurt you...." she whispered bursting into
tears, her whole body wracked with sobs.
"Don't cry Kim." She heard whispered from beside
her, then feeling a tender hand on her cheek. She
turned around to see her dead partner kneeling beside
her, looking at his own grave stone.
"Bobby?" she whispered.
The figure smiled.
"This isn't real...you can't be here..." she told
him reaching out a shaking hand and placing it on his
chest.
"I'm here whenever you need me Kim. I'm here
because I love you." He told her.
She started to cry.
"I love you too...so much...It hurts so bad Bobby,
all I want is to have you back."
"I know." He replied taking her into his arms
tenderly.
"I'm so sorry...for telling you I only loved you as
a friend...for being so god damn horrible to you. You
always stood by me no matter what and I never even
said thank you..."
"Hey, stop beating yourself up over this Kim. What
happened it wasn't your fault. I knew you were
thankful Kim because I knew you and even if there were
times when we argued or fought...that's never stopped
me from loving you." He told her.
"Oh I miss you so much...I miss this so much." She
told him.
Bobby kissed her on the forehead.
"I miss you too sweetheart, but I want you to listen
to me...you have so much to fight for. You have Joey.
You have your friends. You can't give up. You have
to keep fighting Kim, if not for you then for Joey and
for me. I know you are full of regret and I know you
loved me, I see it every time you cry." He told her
wiping her tears away with his thumb. "And I know you
wish you could've told me to my face but it wasn't
meant to be. That doesn't mean I don't hear you. It
doesn't mean I don't know. I am always with you, in
here..." he told her pointing to her heart. "And
watching over you so don't ever think you're alone.
You were always a fighter Kim, you were always the
most beautiful woman that I ever met...please don't
lose those things now because I'm gone." He told her
stroking her cheek.
"It's just so hard.." She told him.
"I know it is. It's hard for me to watch you in all
this pain. But I'm here...wherever you are I'm there
with you even if you can't see me I'm right there
beside you. I want you to know that...I know you felt
so bad Kim, I know you felt guilty and I know that I
came close to seeing you again last year when you took
those pills. Promise me you're not going to give up
on life. It’s not worth it. We'll see each other
again..But only when it's time. I want you to promise
me..."
Kim looked into the deep brown eyes she knew so
well.
"Promise." She told him.
"I have to go now Kim." He told her.
"Bobby no..."
"Shush.." He soothed. "If there was one person I'd
be watching over on this earth it's you. It is you.
I'm right here Kim always." He told her pointing to
her heart, then kissing her on the forehead.
"I love you Bobby." She told him tearfully.
"I know. I love you too." He replied. "And
remember whenever you need me, whenever you cry, I'm
listening, even if you can't see that I'm there. I
would never leave you baby." He told her getting up.
Kim looked up at him.
"Bye Bobby." She told him, tears streaming down her
face.
"Hey it's never goodbye Kim." He replied stroking
her cheek before beginning to walk off. "Tell Joey I
love him." Bobby told her. “And Merry Christmas.” He
finished.
Kim nodded watching as the figure of her dead
partner disappeared into the dark, a shooting star
passing over her head. Whether what she had seen was
real or not, she now knew more than ever that her
partner would always be with her and that she'd never
be alone. Even in death he still loved her, and she
was glad he knew she loved him too.
Katy, Faith, Emily and Charlie made their way to the
church, trying their hardest not to trip over on the
snow that covered the ground. As they reached the
gate, Katy saw the familiar figure kneeling on the
ground looking up at the sky. The group made their
way over to her, Katy kneeling down at her friend’s
side.
"You okay?" Katy asked putting an arm around the
shivering Kims shoulders.
Kim looked at Katy.
"For the first time in a long while, I think I am."
She replied with a small smile.
Katy gave Kim a hug.
"You're gonna be okay Kim." Katy told her.
"You are too." Kim replied giving Katys hand a
squeeze. "What are you guys doing here? I came to
wish Bobby a Merry Christmas." She then told them.
"I got a note from Bos telling me to meet him here
at 7.30 and to bring the gang."
"Feel like joining us?" Katy asked.
Kim nodded, Katy then pulling her up. The group
then made there way to the church.
When they got inside the whole church had been lit
up with candles, holly and mistletoe covering the
walls, fairy lights shining like crystals covering the
pews.
"What is going on here?" Faith asked standing
amazed.
Katy and Kim looked at each other and smiled.
"Wanna take a seat?" Katy asked.
Faith looked at them puzzled, the group then sitting
down as music began to play. Out of nowhere the
sweetest voice Faith had ever heard began to sing the
hymn When Doves Cry, the church lighting up to reveal
a gospel choir led by a young boy.
"Katy..."
"Just wait." Katy replied smiling.
As the young boy carried on singing a figure entered
the church from a side door. This figure then began
walking towards the three women. He was dressed up
smartly in a suit, a huge smile on his face, though
his eyes were frightened. Faith never thought she had
seen him looking that cute before.
"Bos?" Faith whispered, watching as he got closer to
them.
"You like the choir?" he asked taking Faiths hand in
his own, her children beginning to giggle at her side.
"Uh yeah Bos it's beautiful. What's this all
about?" she asked.
"Well it's been a year now...and I'm still very much
in love with you and..."
Faith nodded for him to continue.
Bosco got down on one knee and took a deep breath.
"And I was kinda wondering...since the divorce was
finalised a few months ago...Faith...will you marry
me?" he asked her.
For a moment Faith just sat still, unable to answer.
Her heart was beating so fast it felt like she would
explode. A year ago she would never have pictured
this moment. As all around her held their breath and
the choir carried on singing she looked into Boscos
eyes. She saw the love he felt for her. The finally
unable to stay quiet for any longer she answered.
"Yes. Yes I'll marry you." She told him as he took
her hand and pulled her up, kissing her passionately.
"Do you love me enough to marry me now?" he asked
her.
"Bos I'm not exactly dressed for a wedding, we don't
have a best man, or maid of honour or a priest..." she
started.
"Actually that's not technically true." Katy told
her as their friends entered from the same door as Bos
had all dressed up.
"You see this has been arranged for a while. Your
gown, Emilys’, Katys’ and Kims’ are out back. So's
Charlies suit. We have a priest..." Bos told them as
he stepped forward. "A best man." Bos told her
motioning to Sully who smiled. "A maid of honour."
Bos continued, Kim smiling. "A couple of bridesmaids."
He added Katy and Emily waving. "A page boy..." Bosco
told her pointing to Charlie. "And someone to give
you away." He finished their Captain from the NYPD
entering the room with their colleagues. "That is if
you want to marry me here, tonight."
Faith looked at him, at all her friends and followed
the advice Angela Boscorelli had given her all those
months ago at the hospital which was to follow her
heart. She stroked his face, then kissed him on the
forehead.
" Of course I'll marry you." She told him as their
friends erupted in cheers and a huge smile appeared on
his face, a smile full of happiness and love.
"I was so scared you were gonna say no." He told her
resting his forehead against hers.
Faith smiled.
"No way Boscorelli. You're stuck with me." She
told him.
"That was all I ever wanted." He replied stroking
her cheek.
Just an hour later all sat quietly watching as two
people they loved were united in marriage. When Faith
had walked down the aisle in the wedding gown that Kim
and Katy had picked out Boscos eyes had lit up. In
his eyes she looked like an angel, the ivory dress
shining under the sparkling fairy lights that adorned
the church, the light flickering from the candles
bathing her in a warm glow providing a magical
atmosphere. When Faith had seen his face, the love
that radiated from it as he watched her walk towards
him, Sully at her side, she knew she was going to be
so happy, and her breath caught n her throat. He
really wasn't the person who so many had seen him as.
He was so much better than that. He was hers.
Kim and Katy, both in identical lilac gowns watched
happily. During the last year they had watched these
two people work through so many obstacles, had worked
through many themselves and at times it seemed like
nothing was going to work out, but it had been a year
of self discovery. There really was happiness out
there and more than ever both were sure they'd find it
like Faith and Bos had in each other no matter how
hard the path was that lead to it. Their friendship
was something that both held dear. Since Katys
arrival a year ago whenever either of them needed to
talk they knew there was someone to go to who really
could help, and as both sat there they knew that
person would always be there because that's what
friendship was.
Watching the ceremony thoughts filled the heads of
those watching about the past year. Thoughts of
people they'd lost, who had nearly been lost and
things that had happened which had affected them
deeply. If they'd have been asked a year ago if
they'd have seen themselves sitting where they were
now watching the two people in front of them getting
married none of them would have said yes. But sitting
there now watching as the couple took their vows,
looking lovingly into each others eyes none could
picture anything more beautiful. They really were
meant for each other, and if it had taken them the
hell that they'd been through when Bosco and Katy had
gotten shot for them to admit their love then it was
worth it.
"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss
the bride." Came the voice of the priest snapping
everyone out of their thoughts.
Bosco gently pulled the veil back off Faiths face,
stroking her cheek lightly with his finger. Then
cupping her chin in his hands, he kissed her. The
whole of the church erupted in loud claps and cheers,
most of the police squad, fire department and
paramedics having come to watch their friends get
married.
"Merry Christmas Faith." Bosco whispered kissing her
again.
"Merry Christmas Bos." She replied smiling. "Just
promise me one thing?" she asked him looking at Kim
and Katy who were chatting to Boscos mother.
"Anything?" he told her sincerely.
"Promise me we'll have no regrets...not like Kim and
Bobby or Katy and Paul. They may be doing okay now
but if something happens to either one of us...I don't
want the other to have any regrets."
Bosco smiled.
"I promise." He told her tenderly. "I don't know
what I'd do without you. I don't even want to think
about it." He told her sincerely.
"As long as we make every minute together count
that’s what's important. I don't want to think about
it either." She told him, smiling as the choir once
again began to sing.
"Care to dance Mrs Boscorelli?" he asked.
Faith smiled.
"Love to." She replied as he took her in his arms and
they swayed gently to the music. As they were dancing
Faith looked around at all their friends who were
watching them smiling. Emily and Charlie watched
their mother happily, Katy and Kim chatting quietly to
each other beside the two children. Their Captain was
also smiling, proud to see two of his officers truly
happy.
"Come on guys it's Christmas, don't any of you feel
like a Christmas dance?" Bosco asked.
The group all looked at each other.
"Katy..." Ty Davis offered her his hand which she
took.
"Love to." She replied blushing slightly.
"Kim?" Doc asked. "Look I know I have been a jerk.
I know after what happened I should have been there
for you and I know I wasn't. The truth is I felt
guilty Kim. I kept thinking maybe if I'd let you sit
with us that day...I guess I blamed myself." he
admitted.
"Doc it wasn't your fault. It wasn't anybodies.
And about you being a jerk, yeah I guess it was true.
But on the day Katy was shot you were there for me in
that ambulance. I could never have gone through that
alone. You were a friend then, when it mattered. And
about before, I don't blame you for being
uncomfortable. I was too." Kim told him.
"So. Friends?" He asked.
Kim nodded, Doc enveloping in her in a hug.
"I really am sorry." he told her. “I promise if you
ever need to talk...”
Kim looked into his eyes and she could see he really
meant it. She smiled.
“Thank you.” she told him sincerely.
"So can I have this dance?" he asked.
Kim nodded, took his hand and then they too got up.
Soon afterwards the whole group were dancing, members
of the public who entered the church finding the
Christmas spirit infectious and joining in. For all
those people in that room the last year had been the
toughest of their lives, but that day proved love
really does conquer all.
****
The end.
Copyright (c) 2001 Lucy Maria Elmer