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I don't know what kind of note this is. It's not really an apology, but it's something.
I don't know what I'm going to do with this site. I started it back in 1998, and it was my obsession up until about February or March. I lost almost all of my interest in all things anti. Back four or five months ago was the last time I even put up anything anti. My updates have become fewer and farther between, and I no longer have an obsession with it. As I approach my fourth year, I find myself faced with a few options. I can either let the site sit here and rot, not updating it, I can close it down (like so many other anti sites have done this year), I can make one last attempt at updating, putting up anything anti I can find, or I can just pull something out of my ass and paste it on here in a pathetic attempt. I don't really want the site to just rot, but I don't want to join the rank of the retired (as ABSNA, StupidSync, and NSync NDuces Vomiting have). I'm still on the fence about this, so no decision has been made, and the site is still up.
However, there will be no more updates for now. I'm going away for the whole month of July, and August is too far away to be certain. The site is NOT shut down, but there will be no more updates until further notice.
If you're mad at me, you can go fucking jump off of a cliff right now. I've been doing this site for nearly four years, and it has not been easy. 1,460 days I've done it. That's 35,040 hours, most of them early morning hours when I had something to do the next day. I gave a lot to this site. And if you're mad at me, go fuck off. It takes more than just an idea to do a website. You try doing it.
If you want to understand this better, listen to Nine Inch Nails' "Somewhat Damaged". To quote Trent, I'm too fucked up to care anymore. If the site stays up, I will say so. If it does not, the index will be replaced with an apology. Anything else, you'll just have to stay tuned.

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You can now Choose Your Version. (Yes, that's a link.)

added 7-2-y2k1:
I swore to myself that I'd NEVER let anyone take over my site, because I feel that no one is able to make the site look as good as I have, because I like MY work, not other peoples', but this site is at its peak now, and to just shut it down would be pretty stupid. There are a select few people who I trust to run this site. I'm going to ask them to take it over. If they decline, I guess I shall scout for a replacement. The fact that I'm saying this makes me feel really bad, but doing it is going to be even worse. If you think you're "worthy" enough to take this site over, send me your URL and I will check out your site. If you don't have a site, there is no way in hell I'm going to let you run mine. If you don't have a site, you most likely have no experience with HTML or anything, and you have no clue how hard it is.
Oh, here's a tip - seven-color backgrounds, size 50 font, and broken links don't impress me.
Oh I cannot believe I just said that. But again, shutting the site down at its peak would be stupid. But leaving it to someone else might mean letting the site go to hell. .:sigh:. If you're interested, click. If not, just go up to "Choose Your Version," okay??

god i feel bad about this
leaving it to anyone pretty much means letting the site go to hell
but i don't think Kari will want to take it...ahh
Noah Wyle is HOT
(Renee, I can't believe I actually said that. If I do give it to someone, I doubt I'll ever visit it again....meh. I'll call you when I get back on the 15th.)